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~*~*~*Chapter Two/ The one that should never know…*~*~*~

The whole day I’ve been hiding my face between the pages of my books and the long strands of my pitch black hair. Every time someone crosses my way I flinch. Trying to hide my face even more.
I don’t want to let see someone my bruised face. There’s a deep cut in my lower lip and multi colored bruises all over my face. My body feels like after one of the pranks that were done to me from the Marauders. But there is one difference between their pranks and the punishment Lucius has done to me so often:
I’m feeling dirty…
…sinful…
…despicable…
…and guilty.

Even if I know that it wasn’t my fault I think to myself that all what happens is nothing but my blunder.

A sigh escapes my lips as I turn into the direction of the room for ‘Defence against the Dark Arts’.

//Now I’ve to face him and Sirius… Why do I have to have the same classes together with them? The world is really unfair…//

While I’m so deep in thoughts I don’t recognize that someone is standing right in font of me and so I bump right into his back.

“Umph…”

I loose my balance and stumble back against the wall, hissing at the harsh contact.
The anger flares up and cursing under my breath I wonder which idiot is standing here in the center of the hallway and blocks it.

As soon as I raise my head (making sure that my face is covered with my hair) I’m totally regretting it.
In front of me stands Sirius Black! The one person I didn’t want to bump into. I squirm uncomfortably.

//Shit…//

“Really, Snivelus…” he says while bowing down to me. At least he is twelve inches taller than me. “Haven’t your mom told you that it’s rude to bump into other people’s backs???”

My eyes glare at him.

//Perfect…never let him now how embarrassed you’re now and how fast your heart is pumping… Wait!!! He can’t hear it? Can he? Crud! //

“Tche… Shut up, mutt!!!”
I look to the other side of the hall. No one’s here. Not even his idiotic friends. Seems like we’re alone.
Not so good…

“Well, I guess your little friends have left you behind, because they finally realized what a bother you are…” I laugh.
“Poor little doggy…he!” I watch him with an amused gaze.

//Good, make him mad so that he punches you and after that leaves you behind… taking away the attention on you. //

After this quote he gets really mad. If somebody would be around he would have almost seen the aura of his madness and then he would have run for his dear life.
But instead of running away my smirk that has appeared on my face is widening.

In the next moment I can feel his hands at the sides of my face. Hitting the wall.


“Fuck you, Snape! I’m waiting for them…” he growls. He really is a dog. A damn sexy one, but I would never say this aloud for the consequences I’ve to face after this statement. “I’m not an abhorrent person like you who is licking the ass of Malfoy!!!”

That hurts…even more if it’s the one you love who says it.
My body goes deadly still. I’m fighting back the tears that come up and bite down on my lower lip, just so that fresh blood flows. As well I’m clenching my hands into fists so that my body doesn’t tremble.

Why?
Why am I so weak?
Why do I have to be like this?
Why do I have to be so much in love with him?

Suddenly I can feel his fingers grabbing my chin in a powerful grip which I cannot escape. Unfortunately I start to panic and like this my entire body begins to shiver.

//I can’t let him see my abused face…//
This horrified thought spreads trough my entire body.

In a desperate try to push him away from me my hands come in contact with his warm chest and in an instant all my strength disappears.
//No! No…no…!!// I think in one last panicked thought before I have to face him properly.

My breath goes in short puffs yet.
He can see everything that Lucius has done to my face, every single bruise.
But I am not able to look anywhere else.
Firstly his grasp his holding me in place and secondly his beautiful silver grey eyes.

I would like to know what he’s thinking in this moment, because his face never ever let anyone but his friends know what he’s really thinking.
Somehow he is a really mysterious guy.

Unexpectedly a grin materializes on his face and there is a light chuckle.

“Didn’t know that there are others that think that your face is a nice punching ball…”

My eyes are spreading the slightest bit on his mean comment and the effect of his statement is going right through my tormented heart. Not about to let him see the pain in my eyes that his words cause: I slid my eyelids half closed.

The feeling of him watching me intensely is by some means pleasant even if he has ulterior motives. It’s a nice feeling…

Suddenly I can hear footsteps approaching and the amused voices of some boys and some giggling from girls.
Sirius must hear them, too, because he releases me from his firm grip and takes a few steps back against the other wall. He leans there as if nothing has happened in his cool and nonchalant manner. Still looking at me with this intensive stare.

For some moments I just can’t help it but stare back at him. But that soon changes when the other pupils arrive. Collecting themselves around the one of the most popular scholar of Hogwarts.

//So the Marauders are finally complete again…//

Scoffing at this I turn around just to get another heart attack.

“Lucius…” a dry whisper leaves my mouth.
He watches me as if he could see right to my core. As if I can never hide a thing from him. Therefore I look away. I don’t want him to know what thoughts go through my reeling mind. I fear the drastic consequences that would result of this.

Luckily before he could say a thing the teacher appears and we have to enter the classroom.

I am save… for now.


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“You like him, don’t you?”

I’m cornered by Lucius again. Class is already over.
There he stands right in front of me. His hands placed left and right from my face.
The look I receive is a pretty mad one. It’s obvious that he’s annoyed of the fact that I looked intently at someone other than him. In his judgment he is the only one that I have to focus on.
Again I don’t know how he found out about my thoughts. He appears to have a special ability for this matter.

//He is the master and I’m his servant…//
This ironically idea crosses my mind in an instant.

But for now I can’t let him know the truth.
Hopefully he believes me…

“He hates me and makes now secret out of it, Lucius. So I ask you what reason there might be for me to like Black.”

There are a few moments of silence before he answers. It seems like he is thinking about his response carefully. This gives me time to look around the room Lucius captured me.
It’s familiar to the one the blond harassed me last night. But somehow it feels friendlier than the other. That might be, because it’s often used for detention classes and so there is a cleaner air and not so much dust on the furniture.
On the blackboard there are still some incantations and recipes of some common potions.
A sharp tug on my hair turns my attention back to Lucius, and I ignore the ache that this move creates studiously.
I tilt my head merely to one side just to let the blond know that my full regard is back on him now.

Then ever so suddenly he pulls at my medium length hair so that I’ve to lay my head back. In an instant he kisses me brutally on my wounded lips. Thrusting his tongue deep down my throat.
“You’re right: you have no intention of liking him. And you will better never have…”
His threat his affecting me the slightest bit, because I know that my wish to be loved by Sirius will never become granted.

Lucius’ lips are back on my and he kisses me without any gentle treatment like before. It’s just so that he can satisfy his needs and showing his dominance over me.

His hands move under my shirt, stroking over my soon hardening nipples and I can feel his vicious grin against my mouth. In the next second he pushes me to the ground, crawling over me and relishes how defenseless I lay under him.

Soon the desire of the willpower he as over me increases and he rips my clothes apart.
Exposing my white yet multi colored bruised torso.
A grin appears on his now demonic like features. It’s really clear how much he enjoys this right now and there is so much more left for him to please himself.

In the next moment I feel his razor-sharp teeth and his cold tongue on my nipples. Lucius bites so hard that he drowns blood from them. The taste of my blood seems to delight him, because he sucks harder to gain more blood.
During these movements his hands work their way down to my abdomen: stroking my loins.

A long the way muffled gasps and mewls escape my lips.
But this time I won’t allow myself to cry. I made up my mind so that I would endure this humiliation till the very end of it. Furthermore the most important thing is that Sirius will never know about this. I could never look him into the eyes again.

I’m now nothing more than a sex toy used by Lucius Malfoy.

“A servant… a sex toy… a marionette… That’s what you are…”
My tormentor quotes against my chest as if he can read my mind.
His hands are stroking my still covered and limp manhood. But I have no control over my body. Not anymore…
So my cock begins to twitch at his actions and comes steadily to life until it presses at the friction of my school uniform pants.
Now he lifts his attention away from my somewhat blood covered nipples and looks at the apparent bulge.

Rapidly Lucius frees me from my pants and boxers and my aroused cock stands proud into the air.
Ashamed of my response to his penetration I turn my head to the other side: biting my lower lip for a countless time this day. I still don’t want to give him the satisfaction of hearing me moaning and panting because of his touches. So instead of that I just let him hear some low growls.

The hunger in his gaze is so intense that I don’t have to look at him to sense it. And with this hunger he lowers his cavern around my hard-on.
Hard and yearning sucks follow: forcing pre-cum from my dick. Lucius swallows eagerly.

Somehow I can feel Lucius’ lust at the one side and his annoyance of the lack of response by me on the other side.
He stops sucking and leans forward to my ear: “If you refuse to scream for me I’ll make sure you scream…”
With this statement he flings me around, laying one hand on the spot between my shoulder blades and pressing me down to the ground.
Then he spreads my legs so that he has a greater access to push his cock into my being.

“We’ve not much time left… the next detention class is about to start…” is the only warning I get before he pushes his huge erection into my rear without any preparation.

However I try to prevent a cry it doesn’t work out.
A horrified yelp of agony escapes. I squeeze my eyes shut, digging my nails in to the stony ground, causing them to splitter and cutting them to bleed.

Without any break to wait for the pain to subside Lucius shoves deep into my passage.
Now I can’t help it anymore.
Yell after yell comes from my mouth while the blond Slytherin fucks me harder and harsh.

//No…no…//

Furthermore he takes hold of my trembling manhood and pumps it in the steady rhythm of his thrusts and with each of them he drives it to the hilt inside of me. He enjoys himself and the control he has so much at this moment.

The pace he allows makes my body shake in excitement and my mind in self-hatred.

Contrary to my will I recognize how the climax begins to succeed.
Slowly it builds up as an unbearable heat between my inner thighs and at the same time the inner walls of my butt clench around Lucius’ dick.

//Dirty…//

This unintended penetration of his arousal guides him to his own orgasm. He can’t take it anymore. Thrusting a few times more into me he finally reaches his climax.
But to assure that I reach mine before him he pumps my rigid length till it spills its cum onto his hand and on the ground. And in the next minute as if my climax was his symbol to start, I feel his seed splashing inside my anus mixing with the blood that comes from my damaged back entrance.

Lucius is collapsing on top of me. He’s resting there on my back smearing his own cum and my blood between our bodies. His heavy pants ghosts over my neck.

“You feel incredibly…the best plaything I ever had.”
Lucius tries to praise me or he just wants to start breaking me psychologically in more ways than only by raping me and making me feel worse with insults.

Well, now more than ever I think he’s definitely right. But I would never admit that to him, not even to save my life.
To what awful handlings this might direct?
I don’t want to imagine this.

While I’m thinking Lucius lifts himself. I can see of the corner of my eye that he’s getting dressed and I should do the same if I don’t want to find anyone out.
Nonetheless I just keep motionless and remain in anticipation of him to abscond.
It takes him just a minute or three for him to get fully clothed.
Without looking back he strides the door and is gone.

I just rest there for five more minutes before I sit up and reach for my clothes.
Only in this second I allow myself to pour silent tears.

The humiliation and pain I feel can’t be comprehended by someone else.
A thought that long disappeared from m mind is coming back with full force in these seconds: I’m thinking of killing myself just to end this never ending nightmare that is called ‘life’.

I think I must have been deaf for this few minutes, because I can suddenly hear footsteps stop in front of the door.
My eyes are growing with horror. Furthermore I start to freak out: jumping on my feet I try to cover myself in my clothing. But I tangle myself in my trousers and my cape. As a result I loose my balance and hit the floor hardly.
Just as I’m about to straighten again the door slides open and I’m face to face with Sirius Black. For the second time this day…

//Why is he her? Detention? //

My eyes linger on him with fear and shock. Out of all it has to be him to see me in this state.


~*TBC*~


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