TRYING TO REMEMBER

The next morning the Sirius woke up fully aroused, he turned to Remus and started to run his fingers through his hair, then nuzzled against his neck. Remus turned to him.

“Good morning.”

“I hope to make it one.”

Sirius rolled on top of Remus and started administrating kisses on his jaw, down his neck, down his chest and started to kiss his scars, something Remus always took pleasure in. Remus was moaning when Sirius approached the three they had discussed the night before. Remus shuttered not in pleasure but in pain.

“Sirus, no. not them.”

“I’m sorry babe.”

“You ddin’t know.”

“Have you seen anyone about it?”

“Yeah, let’s concentrate on other things.” Remus then flipped Sirius over and was on top of him. “I want you in me so bad.”

“That can be arranged.”

Sirius got the lotion from the night before and rubbed it on his hands the then took two fingers and shoved them up Remus’ ass hole. He then started to move them in and out, Remus’ prostate.

Remus grabbed his own cock and started moving and his hand up and down his shaft.

“I don’t think I can hang on much longer.”

Sirus removed his fingers, lubed his cock and impaled his lover’s opening.

“Oh my gods Sirius. I missed you so much.”

He grabbed Remus hips and was moving him up and down, as Remus was stroking himself. After a few strokes Remus expunged himself all over Sirius’ chest. Right behind his lover, Sirius emptied himself inside him.

Remus grabbed his wand pointed it towards Remus chest.

“Scourgify.”

“Sorry nothing as extravagant as last night, babe.”

“We have a life time for that.”

Remus looked at the clock he has a few hours before Harry showed up.

“Bored already you have to look at the clock.”

“Nah, making sure I have time before I have to get up and ready for your surprise.”

“Can I have a hint?”

“No.”

“And if I tickle you?”

“No. So don’t even try.”

“If I ravage you?”

“You just did. I’m not telling Paddy. If you go to sleep when we wake up it will be closer to the time.”

“Okay.” He looked up at his lover with puppy dog eyes.

“C’mere.” He took Sirius in his arms and kissed him. “Go to sleep.”

“REMUS!!!”

Remus woke up with a start. “Fuck what time is it?” He looked at the clock and it was noon.

“Harry, I’ll be down in a minute.”

Sirius stirred, “Did you say Harry?”

“I invited him for lunch do you mind?”

Remus hurriedly got dressed. “My surprise, right?”

Remus smiled at him leaned down and kiss him on the top of the head. “There should be some muggle clothes in the bottom drawer that fit you. Join us when you can. Oh and I love you.”

“Thanks babe and I love you too.”

Remus left to go downstairs, looking all disheveled. “Harry so glad you could make it.”

“Did you give me much of a choice? So where’s the surprise?” Harry sounded annoyed.

“Well if you don’t want it?”, said Sirius as he walked in casually.

“Sirius is that really you.”

“It’s really me, in the flesh.”

“But how?”

“No idea, ask Remus over here.”

“It’s long and complicated.”

“If you brought Sirius back then you can bring back my parents?”

“No I can’t Harry they’re dead. Sirius was merely unconscious behind the veil.”

“But you said he was dead.”

“I was wrong.”

“How long have you been back?”

“Since last night.”

He wanted his lover and godson to get reacquainted so decided to make himself scarce. “I’m going to get some take out what would you guys like.”

“How bout some Chinese?”

“Fine, I’ll be back in a little while.”

“How have you been Harry?”

“Hangin in there.”

“I didn’t realize that I missed you until I saw you. You’ve grown so much, you’re an adult. I wish I could have been there for you. Remus told me about the horcruxes, about Albus’ death and Snape’s involvement.”

“He died a hero you know.”

“No I didn’t know.”

“He took a killing curse meant for Remus.”

“He saved Remus’ life?”

“It’s weird for all the hatred he showed on the outside, I think deep inside that he really cared about him. Not that it mattered.”

Sirius remembered that Snape gave Remus a delusional charm to make him think he was Sirius. “In his own twisted way I think Snape did. What do you mean not that it mattered?”

“Remus was in love with some one else.”

“Speaking of, this might be hard to swallow.” Sirius took a deep breath. “Remus and I have been lovers off and on since we were fourteen.”

“I don’t think so.” Harry looked deep into his godfather’s eyes. “You’re not kidding?”

“No. I love him. I hope you can understand?”

“I can, but does he know?”

“Of course he does. He loves me too.”

“Funny I thought he was in love with Tonks?”

“What do you mean?” Sirius eyes showed so much hurt.

“Up until two months ago, they were living together.”

“What?”

“He gave her an engagement ring.”

“What happened two months ago?”

“Tonks disappeared, and Remus came back here. Nothing more was said on the subject.”

“Remus and Tonks were engaged. My Remus and my cousin?”

“He came home after a transformation and she was gone. She left him a note.”

“What did the note say?”

“I have no idea. Remus packed his things and came here. And started working on something. He threw himself into this work.”

“Bringing me back.”

“Probably.”

Just then the door opened. Sirius looked over at Remus with nothing but rage in his eyes. “So when were you going to tell me?”

“Tell you about what?”

“You and my cousin.”

“Sirius, let’s sit down and talk about this.”

“You brought me back because Tonks wouldn’t fuck you any more. With Snape gone, you figured who the fuck else would fuck a werewolf. Let’s see maybe I can trick Sirius into loving me again? He’ll never know. Did you fuck Snape while with her too?”

“Sirius, that’s not fair and you know it.”

“All I know is that I seem to be your little fuck toy now that no one else is around. C’mon Harry let’s go.” Sirius stepped into the floo “Twelve Grimmauld Place.”

“Remus, I’m sorry.”

“I’ll give him time to cool off.”

Harry flooed back home. “Sirius I’m sorry.”

“It’s not your fault.”

“You must really love him.”

“I only love one person more and that’s you Harry.”

“Excuse me?”

“Like a son Harry. It’s going to be just you and me. Please don’t mention the name Remus Lupin around me again.”