Loving and Hating Time

What would you do for the ones you loved? Would you go back in time, knowing you will be with him and not be able to hold him, kiss him, love him? Would you die for the ones you love? But more importantly would you kill? Sirius/Harry



Read this BEFORE reading this story!!!! Ok I¡¯ve taken the movie Serenity and put it into this story! But it will come up more in Sequel. Some of the words will be from Serenity/Firefly I LOVE that show!!! This will be slash (m/m) and brief ((not hugely part of story)) incest, Self mutilation, rape, and torture if you don¡¯t like it please leave! I do not own Harry Potter or company! Please no flames!!

¡°Talking¡±
¡®Thinking¡¯
*Parseltongue*
¡°Another Language¡± ((Sometimes I wont use that and just write the language))
¡°Dream/Memory¡±


Loving and Hating Time

Chapter 1
¡°Landings and Talking¡±

Harry sat up on the bed and looked around the room he was last with Remus in. Harry had moved down to Remus¡¯ rooms to keep him safe in case anything happened. Harry picked up one of Sirius¡¯ hoodies, it was dark blue and smelled of Sirius, and Harry loved it; the only people who knew of Harry¡¯s love for Sirius was Remus, Dumbledore, and Ginny. It had been 2 months since the war ended and people were already rebuilding and trying to get on with their lives.

Sirius and Harry had started a relationship the summer after they met. Harry told Sirius everything¡­ they fell in love quickly and would have stayed together if it weren¡¯t for¡­. They were mates¡­Harry had marked Sirius and after Sirius¡¯ death his hybrid-vampire screamed for revenge¡­it screamed to be with it¡¯s mate and that just made everything worse¡­ Harry felt like dieing but Remus and Ginny had helped him¡­

Harry walked out of the bedroom to the living room and walked over to a desk, where books and papers were all over the place. At the edge of the desk was a trunk that had his name (Zion) on it. This trunk he made in case things went bad in the war. There was a Potions Room, Study, Library, and a Training Room. The potions room had all kinds of rare and non existent ingredients; Harry had also cut down the basilisk and made ingredients out of it. The study had all his pevsives, pictures, art books, and a few of Sirius¡¯ clothes. The training room had all his computers and weapons¡­everything he would need.

There was also another trunk there, which had his clothes and a few hoodies and shirts of Sirius¡¯; there was also a shoulder bag, which would hold his big trunk, a few notebooks, iPod, and a few other things. Harry put the blue hoodie on over his clothes and, after shrinking his trunks, put his things in the shoulder bag. Harry took a deep breath and opened the door to the hall.

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The entire place was destroyed¡­the portraits were burned and their ashes were everywhere. There was a smell of death, pain, sadness, and hate in the air that made people on edge. Harry walked into the library were he saw Ginny surrounded by books. She didn¡¯t look up at him when she said calmly, standing, ¡°You cannot do this!¡± that¡¯s when she looked up, she had been like him; ever since everyone died she had taken off the glamour¡¯s. (((A.N. the bond had made her an Angelic-Demon/Vampire hybrid like Harry)))

Harry didn¡¯t look fazed ¡°I will go back!¡± he growled lightly. Ginny shook her head lightly ¡°Dumbledore expects you to go back just to spend time with them¡­thinking it will help you mourn. You cannot change anything! You must not intervene with Fate¡­¡± Harry¡¯s eyes snapped to her face ¡°Fate?!?! How could you say Fate had anything to do with what happened to us¡­to anyone mei-mei?!!?¡±

Ginny looked at him sadly, from behind her own pair of glasses ¡°Dumbledore is putting a spell on the portal when you return their memories will be swiped¡­You must not fall in love with Sirius¡­ Tyen-sahi¡­ you can¡¯t save them¡­they won¡¯t remember it and the thing with Sirius¡­when you come back it will just give you more heartache.¡± She whispered knowing her words will hurt her brother more then anything.

Harry looked at her with a gleam ¡°I know you know how to slip through Dumbledore¡¯s rule¡­please Max¡­please mie-mie?¡± he said pushing all his pain and sadness through the bond to show her how much it was killing him. Ginny sighed, feeling it, and reached inside her trench coat and pulled out eight pendants ¡°There are eight pendants¡­each have a drop of both our blood, freely given Unicorn blood, and Fawlkes¡¯ tears. If they wear these then after you leave everything that you say¡­and do they¡¯ll remember.¡±

¡°Zi¡­ I want you to promise me something¡­¡± she paused and looked at him. Harry nodded for her to continue Ginny licked her lips ¡°I want you to swear that know matter how happy I am¡­know matter what¡­ I want you to give me my memories back, when you come back¡­I need you to do this for me¡± she said and though Harry didn¡¯t want to, he could see why she¡¯d want this. He nodded and hesitated for a minute before grabbing her and hugging her tight. Ginny gasped as she grabbed her brother and held him for who knew maybe the last time.

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Harry looked upon the blackened field which days ago held bodies of both dark and light. Harry walked to the lake, which was red with blood of both innocence and evil. Dumbledore had given Harry the spell after he finished saying good bye to Ginny. Harry sighed as he stretched his, midnight blue/black feather, wings and arched his back. He would go back to August, before school had started.

Harry concentrated and watched the portal open before his eyes; it was a huge hole that had electricity and amazing colors all around it. As the portal opened Harry let his wings retract back into his back. Harry slowly walked into the portal, he gasped lightly as he felt the volts travel threw his body.

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Things went black as he fell onto hard ground he heard voices ¡°My God it¡¯s a child!! Get him to the hospital wing!!¡± a shrill voice exclaimed.

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Harry opened his eyes and saw bright white and groaned. ¡°God damnit, Albus!¡± he cursed and saw something move in the corner of his eye. Harry sat up and, ignoring the pain, stood; wrapping the blanket around his naked waist. ¡°Albus that you?¡± he asked as he squinted in the light. ¡°Yes my boy but may I ask who you are?!¡± came a reply, but the voice was younger.

¡°What the bloody hell is a matter with you? I thought I was the one who couldn¡¯t see in the light? It¡¯s me Zion! Damn Albus you been drinking or something¡­? And where is my stuff like oh I don¡¯t know ¡­ my clothes!!¡± Harry said pissed off. He felt someone hand him his bag, Harry searched through it and took out cigarettes, matches, and his sunglasses, which were specially made for his eyes.

Harry put on his glasses and saw the much younger faces of Dumbledore, Pomfrey, McGonagall, and Trelawney. Harry stared at them then narrowed his eyes at Albus ¡°This is your entire fault!¡± he whispered dangerously, remembering everything that had happened, they all blinked at him. Trelawney opened her mouth but Harry beat her to it ¡°Shut you cork hole you stupid bint! I can not fucking believe this ¡®Oh Zion my boy it will perfectly safe!¡¯ safe he says!!¡± Harry muttered to himself as he pulled out his pants that he had worn his shirt, Sais, and hoodie. The bracelets couldn¡¯t be taken off by anyone but him so they were still on his wrists.

Harry removed the blanket that was wrapped around his waist, and ignored the gasped and on lookers, he put on his clothes. ¡°What year is it anyway?!¡± he growled as he put on the hoodie. ¡°Um...August 5th 1984 you¡¯ve been out for two days¡­ Mr. um Zion what exactly did you mean?¡± Dumbledore asked. Harry picked up his cigarettes and matches and shoulder bag and walked out of the Hospital Wing ¡°I¡¯ll be in your office.¡± He muttered and continued walking out.

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Harry walked into the office and carefully closed the door. In his time this entire office was gone¡­ Harry looked around the room then smirked as he walked to Dumbledore¡¯s desk. Harry looked at the closed door as he opened the top draw, to the desk, and took out a bag of Lemon Drops. Harry smirked as he threw them up in the air and caught them; he put them in his pocket as he heard a coo.

Harry turned to Fawlkes and stared ¡°You remember me don¡¯t ya?¡± he asked softly and Fawlkes seemed to nod. Harry took out his Sais, twirling them, and held them out in front of Fawlkes ¡°You remember these? Freely given Phoenix tears, Unicorn blood, grinded Basilisk bone, and Angelic-Demon blood¡­let them soak in the steel then make these.¡± He said as he examined his Sais, Remus and Severus had helped him make these. Before Severus had died; him and Harry had talked and became close.

Harry pet Fawlkes after putting his Sais away, he was so absorbed he didn¡¯t hear the door open. ¡°Well it seems Fawlkes likes you¡­ I guess that means I can trust you.¡± He spun around to see Dumbledore sitting behind his desk. Harry sighed and sat in a chair in front of the desk ¡°My time is 2007 ¡­ the war with Voldermort had taken new heights, none of us knew, and by the time we found out it was too late. Voldermort had opened the hell dimension that held the demons of Zorko¡­¡± he paused at Dumbledore¡¯s gasped, full of fear and sadness, he glanced at him to see Dumbledore close his eyes.

Harry stood and walked in front of the window and looked out, with his glasses still on. ¡°You have to understand I ¡­ when I was a year old I was taken and trained in a hell dimension ¡­as a weapon. I know how to manipulate the dimension sequence to allow a small holding dimension where you could put weapons and then store then inside these¡± he paused and held out his bracelet ¡°bracelets. You would upload them on the computer and then hook up a transporter, which looks like a big hook, and hold your bracelet underneath and let the weapons upload on them. No there aren¡¯t guns just swords daggers bows arrows¡­ but mine are special they help with a few other things for me¡­¡± Harry finished and looked up at Dumbledore who was looking at him in astonishment.

Dumbledore coughed and sat up straighter ¡°What happened exactly¡­start from the beginning please¡­¡± he said and poured himself a cup of tea; that had a calming draught in it. Harry turned to him ¡°My name is Harry James Potter I was born to Lily and James Potter on July 31, 1990. When I was 15 months on Halloween Voldermort killed my parents and tried to kill me¡­ I got this scar; which associated me with a prophecy. I killed Voldermort that night but his soul never died.

Before anyone could get to me a person with the Ministry came and took me, leaving a golem in my place, he sent me to the hell dimension. I was trained for 600yrs that time; which only concludes to 6yrs time here. I stopped aging at 17yrs and I came out of the portal here¡­¡± he paused looking around ¡°You were the first person I saw, you took care of me; making everyone believe that I grew up with my aunt and uncle¡­ you taught me how to be human.¡± He stopped and gave Dumbledore a smile that told him it was the truth. Harry then went on to tell him bits and pieces of his time at Hogwarts.

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By the end Dumbledore had four cups of Calming Draught and Harry had 5 cigarettes. They sat by the desk, an ash tray by Harry and a tea set by Dumbledore. Between them Harry was showing Dumbledore some of his books and lap top and everything with the dimension compressor that he created. He showed Dumbledore some photos of people and told him about Remus and Sirius and Severus, he told Dumbledore about the Malfoy¡¯s, told him what Draco went through. He even, after a few hesitant minutes, told him about Ginny and about their bond.

Finally when Harry couldn¡¯t talk anymore¡­just too much was told, too much emotion, Dumbledore looked over at him ¡°Well would you like to start in September? I¡¯m sure you know someone who could show the students your inventions¡­ we could start them training. I realize the computer is just starting up in the muggle world ¡­I will tell them it is a new product. But I think it would be wise for them to start a class with these guns and the dimension compressor weapon. Would you be able to make more of those bracelets?¡± he asked.

Harry took a long drag of his cigarette and sighed, licking his lips, ¡°The Returning Feast you can get a list of everyone who isn¡¯t a Death Eater and who won¡¯t become one, and won¡¯t give out info. I don¡¯t want any info getting back to Voldermort¡­¡± He whispered as he leaned his head back, closing his eyes. Dumbledore nodded ¡°I will need you to take the O.W.L.¡¯s to see what classes you can be in. then you will need to pick classes.¡± Dumbledore said quietly.

Harry opened his eyes ¡°I could make a replica of a friend of mine and that could teach the class. Her name¡¯s Sydney she might look small but she¡¯s just as old, strong, knowledgeable, and capable as I am.¡± He said as he relaxed back into the chair.

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For the rest of the summer Harry trained and taught the teachers about the weapons and everything that he knew. Dumbledore and Harry both put charms and spells over them so no matter what, even truth potion, no one would be able to find out what they knew. Harry had taken the O.W.L.¡¯s and past with flying colors. He would be taking all Advanced classes in Potions, DADA, Transfiguring, Charms, and Astronomy, he then would take the class and Art and then CoMC. They had agreed that the class would be called ¡®Advantage Class¡¯.

Harry had found that Professor Flick was head of Ravenclaw and Sprout was head of Hufflepuff, McGonagall was still head of Gryffindor and Professor Maurice was head of Sytherin, though Harry really did like him¡­he was potion¡¯s master and he really listened and talked to the students and he hated Voldermort, which made it all the better. Harry hated the DADA teacher Professor Paves; he was a jackass! and was constantly making fun of Hagrid who taught CoMC, who became quick friends with Harry, just because Hagrid being a half-breed. Harry was going to end up killing the bastured by the end of the year; he didn¡¯t think any of the teachers would stop him either. There was Professor Alexia who taught Astronomy, she liked being called by her first name, she was nice and loved her teaching. Then Professor Travis who taught Art, he loved it and really didn¡¯t bother anyone; one of those I hate people and love my work people.

Harry sighed as he looked at his schedule for the New Year. It was the night before he would get on the train; acting like a new student. The day before he finished the copy of Sydney and the teachers were all amazed that she looked and acted real.


Harry Zion Parker Year 7

Monday
Double Advanced DADA : 9am ¨C 11am (Professors Paves)
Art : 11am ¨C 12pm (Professor Travis)
Lunch : 12pm ¨C 1pm
Advanced Astronomy : 1pm ¨C 2pm (Professor Alexia)
Advanced Charms : 2pm ¨C 3pm (Professor Flick)

Tuesday
Double Advanced Transfiguring : 9am ¨C 11am (Professor McGonagall)
CoMC : 11am ¨C 12pm (Professor Hagrid)
Lunch : 12pm ¨C 1pm
Double Advanced Potions : 1pm ¨C 3pm (Professor Maurice)

Wednesday
Advanced Charms : 9am ¨C 10am (Professor Flick)
Advantage Class : 10am ¨C 11am (Professor Sydney)
CoMC : 11am ¨C 12pm (Professor Hagrid)
Lunch : 12pm ¨C 1pm
Art : 1pm ¨C 2pm (Professor Travis)

Thursday
Advanced Potions : 9am ¨C 10am (Professor Maurice)
Double Advanced DADA : 10am ¨C 12pm (Professors Paves)
Lunch : 12pm ¨C 1pm
Advanced Transfiguring : 1pm ¨C 2pm (Professor McGonagall)
Advanced Charms : 2pm ¨C 3pm (Professor Flick)
Advantage Class : 3pm ¨C 4pm (Professor Sydney)

Friday
Advanced Astronomy : 9am ¨C 10am (Professor Alexia)
Advantage Class : 10am ¨C 11am (Professor Sydney)
Advanced DADA : 11am ¨C 12pm (Professors Paves)
Lunch : 12pm ¨C 1pm
Art : 1pm ¨C 2pm (Professor Travis)
Advanced Transfiguring : 2pm ¨C 3pm (Professor McGonagall)


Harry stared at the schedule and sighed it didn¡¯t seem real. Anyone who has been through something tragic wanted so desperately to go back¡­maybe this was a dream. But it couldn¡¯t be because every time he closed his eyes he could hear his friends screams, see their bodies, smell peoples sadness. Harry put his schedule down on the coffee table; he had been sleeping in the Room of Requirements.

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The room was dark, done in greens and dark blues, with the night sky on the ceiling. All the wood was mahogany; there was a dresser, wardrobe, and queen size bed. Across the room was a small sitting area; a fire place lined the wall with a couch in front of it, where he was sitting, a coffee table in front of the couch, there was a desk next to the fire place and a boombox (((A.N. One where the iPod plugs into it to play your music))). A door stood next to the bed which was the bathroom.

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Harry got up off the couch and walked into the bathroom; the bathroom was huge and had a Jacuzzi/tube that could fit about eight people. There was a huge shower that had six different sprays, in different angles, the sink was marble and had two sinks. Harry looked at himself in the mirror and slowly took off his glasses and winced at the bright light.

He let his eyes adjust and sighed; his eyes, which because of the vampire blood, were extremely bright and would glow like a cat in the dark. His eyes were still green but they were brighter and darker at the same time, they also held knowledge, pain, anger, strength, and hate. His eyes were very sensitive, he could take them off in the light it just was harder to see clearly, and most people never saw him without his glasses.

Harry stripped off his clothes, so he was standing naked with only his bracelets on. He slowly took off the glamour charm and watched as hundreds of scars showed up on his skin. On his upper biceps he had tribal symbols, the one on the right had his and Sirius¡¯ names intertwined; on his shoulder blades he had midnight blue wings. Harry looked at his six pack and watched as a black 8¡å viper tattoo slither up his stomach.

He had gotten a snake from Remus after Sirius had died. The snake was a magical viper and the most dangerous and deadly snakes in the world. Harry loved her; her name was Sera. Sera, since she was magical could act as a tattoo or ¡®pop¡¯ out and be a normal snake. Harry also had a magical Falcon whose name was Echo. Echo could also combine with Harry¡¯s skin but usually, like now, was resting in Harry¡¯s four room trunk.

Harry hissed at Sera *Sera¡­Why don¡¯t you go explore the rooms and go hunting alright?* Sera sorta became a regular snake again, slowly as she slithered down his arm. *I will be back soon Zion¡­* she hissed as she left the room. Harry let his magic reach out and turned on his music to Linkin Park.

Harry looked down at his arms; which were full of self induced cuts. He looked into the mirror and hated the image he saw, he hated feeling like this! He hated himself for letting Dumbledore put these emotions in him. Harry opened the mirror to show a razor ¡­Harry swiped the razor across his arms over and over again. He wanted to go home¡­he wanted the entire war to have been a dream. He wanted Remus, the father who would let him scream and throw things¡­he wanted Sirius who he loved so much it hurt¡­it hurt knowing he died because of him. He wanted his sister¡­

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20 minutes later Harry was in bed; on his back, wings out and wrapped around him like a blanket. Tomorrow school began¡­ would he meet his parents? Would they like him? What about Remus, Sirius, Lucius, and Severus? Would Dumbledore expel him if he killed Peter? I wonder what house I will be in¡­were his last thoughts before sleep over took him.


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OK people I know most of you are confused please forgive me!?! Anyway I hope u like the new chapter!! Usually and from now on I¡¯m updating every Friday! PLEASE review?!!!! Please?!


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