A Question Of Need

A/N: Thank you very much Girttie for your lovely review. Here is the second chapter. I hope you like it. I do. *smiles* I DEDICATE THIS STORY TO DYLAN; AN AMAZING FRIEND OF MINE.




Flashback-The Marauders 6th Year


Sirius lay upon his four-poster bed scribbling on a roll of parchment. He was exhausted; it was nearly one o’ clock in the morning. His potions essay was due tomorrow and he wasn’t about to get anymore-bad marks in that class. It wasn’t that Sirius had always gotten bad marks in potions but he had recently been rather distracted which was the main cause of his recent bad marks. What had he been distracted with, eh? He had recently realized that he had more than brotherly feelings for another marauder. Well, actually Sirius had always known that he had had these feelings for this other marauder but they had always occupied a place in Sirius’ heart that he wasn’t completely positive of before recent times.

It is true that he loved James and Peter but his feelings from Remus ran deeper still than love. What were these feelings? As of late Sirius had felt feelings of passion and lust toward his amber-eyed companion that he couldn’t shake although he had tried numerous times. Sirius had known for as long as he could remember that he was different from other boys. During third year, the boys in Gryffindor were getting major crushes on members of the opposite sex but Sirius had not had a crush on any girls although plenty of girls had had crushes on him. Even at thirteen, Sirius had amazingly good looks that only seemed to get better with age.

His feelings toward girls never changed his only feelings for girls were of the friendly sort. Boys on the other hand were much more complicated. In third year when all the other boys in Gryffindor were chasing after various girls, Sirius had taken fancy to a certain friend of his which scared him a little bit to tell the truth. Sirius stopped scratching on the parchment and stuck the end of the quill into his mouth sucking it lightly. Sirius wondered naughtily about the things he could do to Remus with his lips and tongue.

Sirius got up to look for his potions book trying and yawned loudly and stretched his arms above his head as high as he could get them by standing on his tip-toes. He shook his head trying to rid himself of his naughty thoughts about Remus. He crept around to the front of his bed to look for his book in his trunk and to get another bottle of ink since his old one was almost spent. He glanced over to the bed next to his and saw that it was empty. Remus’ bed… he must have fallen asleep in one of the crimson armchairs down in the common room while reading. Remus loved to read Sirius thought that he looked so peaceful and placid while reading and he had often caught himself staring at him with dreamy eyes.

Should I go and wake him up? He might be more comfortable on his own bed wouldn’t he? , Thought Sirius. The fact was that Sirius could hardly get to sleep himself if Remus wasn’t sleeping soundly on the four-poster bed next to his. Sirius felt so lonely when he wasn’t near Remus. He decided to go down to the common room to wake Remus up. He walked into the common room and saw Remus sleeping soundly (or so he thought) on his usual armchair in front of the roaring fire. Sirius walked slowly over to the armchair that contained the dark-blonde haired angel. He kneeled down in front of the armchair and looked upon Remus’ pale face. Remus’ head had fallen onto his shoulder and his dark blonde hair had fallen over the front of his face.

His hair was almost as long as Sirius’ was at the time. Sirius reached his hand out and moved Remus’ hair out of his beautiful face. The recent full moon had taken a lot of the color out of Remus’ face. Although his face was pale, his cheeks were tinted a light shade of pink. The warmth of the fire must have gotten to them, thought Sirius. Remus was moderately tall and thin built but he had a muscular frame perfect for quidditch although he didn’t play on the house team. His face was thin and somewhat girlish.

Remus stirred and opened his amber eyes. His long eyelashes make him look even more beautiful. Sirius took a deep intake of breath his heart beating wildly behind his ribs. “Remus mate, I just thought that I’d come down wake you. You fell asleep in the common room again and I thought that you would be a lot more comfortable in your own bed.” Sirius said his heart still beating rather fast.

“Thanks Sirius, I was reading and I suppose I fell asleep…again.” Remus said looking bashful.

Sirius chuckled and said “You and your books. James, Peter, and I were just talking about how unnatural it is to read as often as you do. It’s bloody strange. How can you enjoy reading so much?”

Remus smiled and Sirius’ heart almost burst with longing. Remus replied “I really don’t know why I like reading so much…I guess I just enjoy learning about new things. Do you know what I mean? Well, I guess I am a bit of a bookworm.”

Sirius said, “Bookworm doesn’t even begin to cover it. You are extremely intelligent…a lot more so than I am. You are most likely going to graduate top of our year. I envy you.”

Remus said sighing and laughing at the same time, “ I guess you all can’t have as much brain power as I possess. It’s hard being a genius, you know. I might be smart but I am not as charming, good looking, and suave as you are. Do you realize how beautiful you are?”


Sirius’ heart leaped and he thought to himself, was Remus flirting with him? He thinks that I’m charming, good looking, and suave? Does he feel the same way about me as I feel about him? He thinks I’m beautiful. There was still hope. There was a silence for awhile and Sirius looked down at his hands. When he looked up, he saw that Remus was staring at him with eyes he had often seen looking at him. These eyes were eyes filled with love, want, and passion. Remus leaned forward and ran his hands through Sirius’ hair. Sirius shivered.

Remus stood up and pulled Sirius up from his knees. Remus looked Sirius straight in the eyes. They stood staring into each others eyes for a long moment. Sirius said in a husky voice, “Remus…”


Remus put on finger on Sirius’ lips and whispered, “Shhhh…don’t talk. I think you’ll enjoy this a lot more than speaking.” Remus brushed his lips up against Sirius’. His lips feel like rose petals. This must be another one of my dreams. Dreams don’t feel this good…thought Sirius. Remus pushed his mouth up against Sirius’ engulfing the two young men into a passionate kiss. Sirius moaned loudly as Remus slipped his tongue into Sirius’ mouth. This was the first time Remus had set every one of the nerves in Sirius’ body on fire but it wouldn’t be the last. Sirius didn’t remember how long they stood kissing in front of the fire. Upon looking back, Sirius had thought that it was not long enough.

Remus pushed him pelvis into Sirius’ grinding both of them together. He’s teasing me and it’s working, thought Sirius feeling what seemed like all the blood in his body surge below his belt. Remus fluttered his hand over Sirius’ groin sending chills of pleasure throughout Sirius’ whole body. Everything after that happened so fast. Sirius in the heat of his passion became the initiator. He pulled Remus to the floor and they began making love. Remus was shocked, surprised, and delighted at the same time that Sirius had been so easily seduced.

The raven-haired man began slowly unbuttoning the dark blonde haired man’s white collared Oxford shirt. As each piece of Remus’ skin became uncovered Sirius licked it thoroughly inciting soft but audible moans from his lover. When Sirius reached the last button he hesitated and looked up at Remus. His eyes were closed and his long lashes quivered. Sirius unbuttoned the last button on Remus’ shirt and he pulled it off of his body altogether and threw it toward the bottom of the stairs leading up to the boy’s dormitory. Sirius moved up Remus’ body and kissed him softly asking permission to go further. Remus could only whimper and Sirius took that as a “yes.”

The black haired man moved down Remus’ body again kissing the length of every scar that graced Remus’ fair skin. These scars turned Sirius on immensely. When Sirius reached Remus’ belt he unlatched it, unbuttoned his pants, unzipped his fly and pulled his pants off in one clean movement. Sirius could tell upon looking at Remus’ boxers that he was extremely hard. Sirius grabbed the waistband of Remus’ boxers and pulled them off gasping at how excited he had made him. Sirius had never done anything sexual with a man before but he knew exactly what to do and it rather came to him naturally.

He licked the head of Remus’ cock and tasted the salty drop of semen that had oozed out of it. Remus seemed to be very sensitive there and he moaned deeply. “Sirius, please. I can’t take it anymore.” Remus pleaded in a husky voice that melted through Sirius. Sirius obliged him taking as much of Remus’ cock as he was able into his warm inviting mouth. Remus pushed forward almost choking Sirius and the raven-haired man tired not to gag. Remus gripped his hands into Sirius’ silky black hair straining against Sirius’ mouth. Sirius began to suck Remus off slowly and sensually.

Sirius gave into Remus’ whimpers a few minutes later and began to suck him faster inciting loud moans from him. Sirius knew Remus was at the point of no return when his breathing began ragged and he pulled Sirius head down farther onto his cock. Remus tensed up and screamed Sirius’ name as loudly as he could without waking up the whole of Gryffindor tower. Remus’ come shot down Sirius’ throat and he swallowed with all his might trying not to gag. Sirius actually like the taste of the salty cum wondering why many people thought it bitter. Remus pulled Sirius’ head up from his thigh and pulled him into a loving kiss tasting himself on Sirius’ lips. Remus spoke in a sweet voice that dripped with honey “Do you want to fuck me Sirius?” Sirius looked up into Remus’ amber eyes and saw that they were dilated so that there was only a thin circle of amber around huge pupils.

Sirius wanted to fuck Remus so damn bad but he didn’t want to hurt him. Remus must have read Sirius’ mind and he said confidently “You won’t hurt me Sirius. I want you inside me. Do you know how sexy you look right now?” Sirius smiled widely showing off his white canines. Sirius found Remus’ wand under the book that he had been reading before he “fell asleep.” Sirius conjured some lubricant and he asked Remus quietly to get on all fours. Remus flipped over and pushed himself into Sirius’ hard member brushing his lovely smooth ass up against it. Sirius pushed Remus away from him and said “Slowly Remus, we want to savor this, don’t we? Let me take my time.” Sirius leaned over Remus’s back and began kissing and licking every vertebra of the spine of the amber-eyed youth. Sirius made sure to pay just as much attention to each vertebra. Remus shivered with pleasure as Sirius licked and kissed his spine so thoroughly and so lovingly.

Sirius wanted to give Remus something to remember that night so he decided to give him a surprise. The raven-haired man leaned off Remus’s back hearing him whimper at the loss of weight upon him. Sirius spread Remus’s ass cheeks and ran his tongue slowly up the crack of Remus’s ass. Sirius took it a step further and began flicking him tongue in and out of Remus’s asshole soaking it with his saliva. Remus moaned and the moan turned into a sort of low growl that seemed to come from his chest and out his mouth. He is definitely a wolf thought Sirius smirking slightly thinking about how he would make him howl shortly.

Sirius spread the lubricant all over his rock hard cock and all over Remus’s asshole. With the lubricant still on his fingers, he pressed his pointer finger slowly into Remus causing a responding a moan from the wolf. Sirius added another finger and began scissoring him to prepare Remus for the intruder that would soon be filling him. Sirius asked Remus in husky voice dripping with passion “Are you ready, love? I want this to be as comfortable and as painless as possible for you. I would NEVER ever hurt you intentionally; I want you to know that love. If it hurts too badly tell me and I WILL stop. I love you Remus.”

Remus turned his head around and captured Sirius’s mouth in a lustful kiss and replied “I love you too Sirius. Always and forever love, always and forever. I want to pleasure you Sirius, very much so, and if that means taking a bit of pain on my part to do so then I definitely will endure it. You are the closest person to my heart and always have been…I am ready my love.” Two pearl shaped tears fell out of Sirius’s eyes and fell down his beautifully tanned face at the pure love in Remus’s words. He meant it, all of it and Sirius knew it. The raven-haired man positioned himself over his lover and slowly pushed into him. Sirius didn’t move for a few seconds when he became fully sheathed inside of Remus so his lover could get the get used to the feel of his cock inside him. Remus began moving back and forth fiercely.

Chills were ran down his spine as Sirius began to meet his hips with is thrusts. The thrusts came slowly at first and then they became faster and faster. The tension began to mount in the pit of Sirius’s stomach and he knew that he must help Remus achieve and orgasm. Sirius grabbed Remus’s erect member firmly in his hand and began pumping it with all his might. Remus began to moan and Sirius began to shake uncontrollably gasping for breath. Sirius came spilling his seed inside his lover panting “Remus…oh my god…so warm and so tight…perfect.” Soon after Sirius’s orgasm Remus came simply howling Sirius’s name. Sirius almost came again at the sound of it. Sirius closed his eyes for a couple of minutes still sheathed inside Remus and then pulled slowly out of him.

Sirius pulled Remus into an embrace that seemed to last a lifetime. Remus laid his head down upon Sirius’s chest kissing it and said quite plainly “Sirius, THAT was even better than reading!” Sirius laughed and laughed and laughed.

“Remus love, you aren’t going to be able to read that much anymore…especially if I’m around unless you’re reading something erotic to me before we shag. Remus dear, did you plan this whole deal?” Remus smiled wickedly and said, “I knew for awhile now that you wanted me and I certainly knew that I wanted you. And tonight I pretended to be asleep because I in knew that you wouldn’t be able fall asleep without coming to get me and bring me up to the dormitory. I knew that I could seduce you easily. I cast a few different silence charms on this room…because I knew that there would be a lot of moaning and such. I hope you aren’t angry with me love.”

Sirius giggled and said playfully “I am definitely not angry with you…even if I was angry with you I wouldn't be able to act on my feelings. I am so beat right now...I couldn’t kick your lovely round ass. You really wore me out love.”

“ Padfoot, you wore my ass out, literally. I never thought that you were a fairy Sirius until I saw you staring at my ass. It made me all uncomfortable…in my pants and I was forced to take care of myself. Shame on you Padfoot.”

Sirius said, “So…we are officially a couple now, eh? So many women are going to be in mourning…I cannot wait until they find out about us…they will flip shit and start bitching about how you took me away from them. Well, in fact I never was with them so you couldn’t take me away from them. Dumb whores…they will never stop stalking me though. I guess I am just too desirable.”

Remus put on a hard face and said, “ You are more than desirable love. If any of those bitches ever lay one of their filthy hands on you I will rip them from limb to limb. Werewolves are VERY protective of their mate. You will have to get used to it Padfoot love. You are mine…all mine. Muhahaha!”

Sirius giggled and said, “I am your property…Always and Forever. I might even get a tattoo that says, “Property Of Remus Lupin” on my ass. How does that sound.” Sirius and Remus laughed and laughed. Sirius remembered how wonderful it felt to be wrapped around Remus in a passionate embrace. The warmth was almost too pleasurable for him to bear. That night Sirius lost his virginity. He just didn’t lose his virginity he lost his virginity to the man he had loved since the first time he had laid eyes upon him.

End Of Flashback


Sirius took another swig from the spirit bottle and tears poured silently down his face. Will I ever see him again? I need him. The real question is…does he still need me?