My Immortal

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I hope that everyone likes the contiuation of My Immortal. This is my first fanfiction and would like to hear from everyone that reads this so please read&review because I could do with everyones opioions. Thanks, Fae

Ch. 2

“These wounds won’t seem to heal
This pain is just to real
There’s just too much that time cannot erase”

With a sigh he turned and walked out of his chambers. He was going to miss this place. Hogwarts had become a home to him but he need to leave old memories behind. After 23 years he had finally retired from the position of Potions Professor. He just could not stand memories of Harry any more, still lingering in the hall ways like when he would sneak past curfew under the invisibility cloak to see him. Or when he had cornered him in a deserted hallway for a quick kiss. After summer was over he was going to sell Snape Manor and leave all those memories behind as well. He was going to start a new life after this summer. This was the last summer that he would look for Harry. He was going to finally go through with Harry’s final wishes for him to live his life free. He remembered the day that they had read his will. He still carried the last letter that Harry had wrote to him.
Flash Back
They were in Dumbledore’s office a year after Harry had disappeared. Everyone had agreed that it was time to read Harry’s will saying that if he was going to come back he would have already. Nobody wanted to really give up hope on him but there were so many doubts. The only people present were Ron and Hermione Weasley, having got married 3 months ago, Remus Lupin, and Severus Snape. Ron and Hermione were on the couch by the window sitting there offering comfort to each other. Lupin was in a chair by the fire place starring into the flames not really believing that they were actually here doing this. And Severus was in the corner hiding in the shadows wishing that he wasn’t here. Over the last year Harry’s disappearance had take a toll on the Potions Master. His hair was now lined with silver and he had lost weight making him look skeletal. He no longer wore a mask to hide his emotions and had almost killed himself if it hadn’t been for Harry’s best friends. They had found him one night at the top of the Astronomy Tower looking over Hogwarts with a bottle of firewhiskey in one hand and a picture of Harry smiling and waving up at him from its frame. He had just put a foot up on the ledge when Ron had come out of the shadows where he had been watching him. He told him that Harry wouldn’t have wanted his death and that he should come down and talk. He had just because his Harry wouldn’t have wanted him to plunge to his death. Just then the Headmaster came in and called for everyone’s attention.
“Thank you for coming here today. I know that nobody in this room wants to be here because even the act of reading the will says as much as Harry is dead to us. It has been a year to the date that Harry defeated Voldemort. I think that Harry would want us to continue with our lives. Harry left letters for all of us and he left a message to be read to everyone at this time. He writes:
“Hey Guys,
I am sorry that I can’t be there for you. I know that the last battle will be hard and I know some where deep in me that I won’t come back from it alive. Please don’t mourn my loss. I know that I have saved countless lives with my sacrifice over the years. In my letters I have given each of you a share of my vaults. I have also give Hermione and Ron, for I know that you are probably married by now and have finally admitted to one another that you love one another, Godric’s Hollow and the surround land. I give Remus Black Manor for I know that it is where he belongs. To you my Headmaster and mentor I leave you Grimuald Place, please keep the Order going and protect everyone with the Light like I have always done. And to my Beloved Severus. I have nothing but my heart to give to you and one special place that I thought could be our home if I ever survived this war. Live your life and be free from everything. Open up your heart to the people that care for you. Go with love everyone and be at peace for I know that I am,
Harry.”
Everyone sat or stood there in silence, then Hermione started to cry into Ron’s shoulder and Ron had silent tears running down his face. Severus just stood there then he quietly went to the Headmaster and took his letter from his beloved. He then turned and walked out. He walked like a zombie would, not seeing and not caring about the outside world. When he finally reached his chambers then and only then did he collapse onto the couch. He started down at the last letter from his beloved with tears flowing down his face. With shacking hands he broke the seal and read the words that his beloved wrote to him.
“My Dearest Severus,
I’m sorry that I can’t be with you. Please know that I wanted to be with you forever even though I know that you never showed me any of the love you had bottled up inside. I know that down in my heart and soul that you loved me but could never say the words after so many years of hurt and lies. I love you. Three simple words can hold so much truth. You are now free, my Sev. I have a castle that no one knows about hidden in Ireland. There is where our home would have been once this war was over. It was perfect for us, my beloved. Open fields and a dark dungeon that was a potions laboratory. I was only there briefly when I got away from you one night at the beginning of the summer after graduation but I found that it was perfect. Make your dreams come true and be what you always wanted. Do not give up on love, Sev. Find another. Be loved like you should be and go with love. Don’t mourn just live the life you always wanted. Go with my love. Harry.”
Tears fell more and more as Severus remembers every wrong he had done to Harry. He tries to get up, to move, but falls to the floor and weeps for what he could have had.
End Flash Back
He makes his way through Hogwarts thinking of his new home. He had been wanting to stay where memories of Harry were still strong but he finally after five long years of wishing and looking he was finally going to bury the memory of Harry and move on like he had wished him to do. Making his way out of the entrance of Hogwarts he makes his way down to the Forbidden Forest.