Forgotten

In case you might like to know, there is going to be another point of view after this one. iwill be done by hermione and another small chapter after that one and that will be where this story is going to end, mainly because i cant be bothered doing more thn four chapters, and because im doing another story. in some places the song might seem wierdly used for this story such as with the lines \"grieved for the girl that i loved as a child\" but other than that you kind of get the menaing as to why i put this song with the story. at least i hope you will.

DISCLAIMER: THE SONG USED IS BY SINEAD O\'CONNER AND IT IS CALLED \"I AM STRECHED ON YOUR GRAVE\"

I am streched on you grave
And will lie there forever

Everything changed for me when i turned Harry over to my fathers friends. I felt dirty and tainted. I felt ashamed of what i had just done to him. His expression when he saw me, just about tore me in two. I wanted to screma and shout at everyone around me, but no, i was a Malfoy, i had to keep my cool.

And if your hands were in mine
I\'d be sure we not sever

When i returned to Hogwarts the day you were stolen, boy did i ever get an earful. Man can Hermione yell when she wants to. She looks very pretty when shes angry you know? i think i mentioned that to you once and you got a little bit jealous. made her blush too, since she was sitting only three seats away from us at the time. Kind of made ron abit angry though.

My apple tree, my brightness
It\'s time we were together

They all miss you, you know? They never really hated you. they just hated the fact that you loved me. the son of a death eater and a soon to e death eater himself. I\'m really sorry that i turned you over, but it was the only way i could think of to flash the rest of them out you know?

For i smell of the earth
And i\'m warm by the weather

Your funeral was the most extravagant thing i have ever been to. Though it was me and hermione that arranged everything, of course. Do you relise that she didnt know what you favorite smell was? It was kind of a surprise to know that i was the only one who actually knew that. She cried because of that. The big stuff about the battle you told them, she had said, but all the small and simple things about his favorite smell she never even knew about. Ron on the other hand knew quite afew things about you that even i didnt know. Now that, shocked me. wasn\'t even aware that Ron could smirk in such a way.

When my family thinks im safe in bed
From night till morning,
I\'m streched by your head

They still dont trust me, no matter what i try to do. I sneak out every night to see you. Every single night and they think that i\'ve gone out to see some of the excaped death eaters. Amazing isnt it. I wonder when they will finally relise that i have been with you all of these nights. i wonder what their reaction will be when they find me lying on top of your grave, tears streaming down my face, whispering you name over and over again, holding the piece of glass that you killed yourself with.

Calling out to the air
With tears hot and wild

You and me. thats what we had talked about. that if we both get out of the war alive, we would go away somewhere, where nobody could find us, maybe we would even travel the world. We had whispered out\\r secrets to each other in the deepest and darkest hours of the night untill we had both fallen asleep in each others arms. I think it was on one of these nights that we had first been discovered. Can\'t really remember.

As i grieve for the girl
That i loved as a child

I turn my head just now when i heard the crunch of something afew metres away. Probably just a small animal of some form, though you never know.

Do you remember the night we were lost
In the shade of the blackthorn
And the chill of the frost

Its cold now, as i lay here on your grave. Really cold. Theres that crunching sound again, only this time i know it isnt an animal. Its people running towards me. I wonder what they could want.

Thanks be to Jesus
We did what was right
And your maiden head still
Is your pillar of light

Well hello there. I can see them now. Ah, yes, your friends and so they still consider themselves, my enemies. I suppose thats how it is always going to be. they see me as the person who killed you. i guess that they are right in a way. if it hadnt been for me you wouldnt have gone and cut yourself to death you stupid idiot.

The priests and the friars
Approach me in dread
Because I still love you

Hah, would you look at the Weasels face. Its bright red. he demands to know what i am playing at and why i am here lying on your grave. i think that Hermione might be the only one who actually sees the tears in my eyes... And the blood on my hands.

My love and you\'re dead

Guess who i found befor i came here. A dear old friend of mine. I think you might know him, he was one of the death eaters who took you away. Not really a death eater anymore though is he. No not at all. He\'s somewhat torn in half. No pun intended. No joke either. He has literally been torn in half. Not a pretty sight the last time i saw him either.

I still would be your shelter
Through rain and through storm

Ron has been pulled away. Have you noticed how i keep going back and forth either calling him Ron or Weasel? Someone, i think it might be Hermione, never seen such bushy hair in my life, so it must be her, leaning beside me. She\'s telling me i dont deserve this and that i shouldnt punish myself for whjat happened to you. Funny really. they have been punishing me themselves for week on end and yet they dont want me to punish myself and let me die. Stupid that.

And with you in your cold grave
I cannot sleep warm

Cold. Whys it so cold? Ah yes the blood loss. he stabbed me you know? That damned bastad stabbed me. Alot of good that did to help him. My side still bleeds. Dont really mind it all that much. I think the people around me do though. Dont think they have relised they can\'t help me yet. Lifting me isnt going to help either and why the hell is Ron doing the lifting!


So I\'m stretched on your grave
And will lie there forever

I want to remain on the ground you twit. Hah! I punched him on the nose. I\'m in pain because he dropped me, but at least i\'m on the ground again. Who\'s laughing? Oh right, i am.

If you hands were in mine
I\'d be sure we\'d not sever

Somethings not right. I\'ve stopped breathing i know that i have stopped breathing, but i\'m still thinking. I can see myself on the ground and everybody is around me. Ron looks upset that he dropped me, Hermione is crying. Hey! there professor Snape, hadn\'t noticed him standing there.

My apple tree my brightness
It\'s time we were together

Whats he doing? No. No. He can\'t. I want this to happen! Don\'t you understand? I want this to happen! I want to join Harry! i don\'t want to live! Don\'t you undertsand! LET ME DIE!

For I smell of the earth
And am worn by the weather

NO! I\'m back in my body and im breathing. No... no, no, no, no, no. I don\'t want to be. Stop moving me. I bite Rons hand. He\' not happy about it, yeah well, I\'M NOT HAPPY ABOUT BEING MOVED! Severus is pouring something down my throat. I try and spit it back up, but it doesnt work. They are moving me away from your grave harry! Stop them!

I\'ll come one day and visit. I promise. And this time no one will be able to stop my wishes.
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