Flawed Chemistry
18th, June
Flawed Chemistry
Pairing: Hermione Granger/Severus Snape
Category: Angst, Hurt/Comfort, drama, future-fiction, first-time
Rating: PG-13,with future R-rated chapters.
Warnings: None thus far. Unbeta'd.
Summary: Hermione Granger has finally done what everyone else
has said was impossible to do but was it worth the cost?
Story Notes: This is set post-Hogwarts, after the trio has finally
graduated. There will be little to no mention of the events in any of the books
but I do try to stay as close to canon as possible. Also, for every "real"
chapter there will be a connecting half-chapter that will either be an a. diary
entry, b. journal entry, or c. letter. Sometimes they will tie into the chapter,
other times they will be entirely independent of it. It's up to you to
distinguish which is which.
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Part 1 ½
Exert from the diaries of one Hermione Granger:
18th, June
It’s barely been a month since we’ve graduated from Hogwarts and I hardly
know what to do with myself. Ron and Harry say I’m being ridiculous. “You’re so
good at everything, ’Mione. You can do whatever you want.”
I wish that were true. They think that just because I got Excellent on all my
exams and even ranked first in all but two of my classes (Potions and DADA. I
was ranked #2 after Draco in Potions, but that’s no surprise and also ranked
second in DADA after Harry but, that really isn’t a surprise either. He did kill
the Dark Lord.) that that means I can just jump in and do whatever I want. It’s
just not that simple.
I have so many positions open to me. I have so many job offers I can look
into. Even Dumbledore has offered me a teaching position at Hogwarts. (I haven’t
had the heart to tell Ron that, though. He still holding out on the hopes I’ll
go into Ministry work with him.) It’s all so much. There are so many
possibilities of what I can do in my life that I find myself coming up with the
same answer every time: wait.
Just wait.
Everyone is so supportive, though. I almost feel bad. Mom and Dad have told
me I can take as long as I like to decide what to do. They said that they’re
just so proud of me and they wouldn’t dream of pressuring me because they know
I’ll make the right decision.
I think that’s worse than if they were pressuring me. I can’t
disappoint them. I can’t disappoint anyone. They all have so many hopes for me,
I’m not going to let them down.
I’m not.