Children Are Made Of Love

Harry was left in lots of pain but he had to go on even if he found himself all alone in the huge house that wasn\'t even his. And he had to wait for Lucius\' return to arrange whether he could stay there until he found a place of his own. Also he had work to do and now that Lucius trusted him enough to leave him in charge for the time of his business trip Harry simply couldn\'t let him down just because the man he loved brutally left him and his heart was broken and he felt and looked worse for wear with his eyes all puffed up and his lips all bitten and his hair sticking worse than ever not to mention terrible pain in other regions of his body. But he would go on. Draco never managed to break him down and this was not the case either. He left. Fine. Or if it wasn\'t fine at the time Harry was sure that one day he would be fine again. Now he just had to know where he stood with the elder Malfoy. Will he let him stay?

\"Of course he will!\" said Hermione who was now hugging Harry tightly. \"Everyone knows how much he appreciates you and what you\'re doing for the ministry. Lucius Malfoy is no fool and he won\'t let you go.\"

\"She\'s right Harry.\" said Ron who was trying hard not to seek Draco Malfoy out and kill him. \"Just because his son is a complete bastard doesn\'t mean that Lucius will fire you. From what you\'ve been telling us about the man he is not such a piece of shit as his son.\"

\"Lucius is great.\" mumbled Harry with a small smile on his still tearstained face. It seemed that Harry decided to cry out all those anguished tears that he kept inside for all those three years while he was married to Draco. He never let himself relax and cry. Sometimes he wanted to snuggle and to cuddle with the man he loved but Draco was clearly not the type to provide Harry with this kind of attention and he never allowed Harry to get too sentimental. Harry briefly wondered how come he married him in the first place if now it was crystal clear that Draco couldn\'t give him anything that he wanted and needed. How come Harry got into that trap of a life? Now it seemed like divorcing Harry was one of Draco\'s best ideas so far though it really hurt a lot for the moment.

Ron was a real support that day when Harry firecalled him and asked him to come and stay with him. Of course when Ron found out what happened and that once again it was Draco Malfoy at fault it took Harry quite awhile to force his best friend to stay calm and not to charge after him.

\"And I can have children! And lots of them!\" burst out Harry now wrapped in Ron\'s and Hermione\'s arms. \"I know it. I just do. I can feel it. And one day I will have a perfect child and Draco will be too sorry that he ever doubted me or chose his mother over me.\" continued Harry as his two best friends shared concerned looks.

\"God I\'ve been so stupid!\" he wailed suddenly hiding his face on Ron\'s shoulder who tried to soothe him by telling him what an ugly piece of slime Draco Malfoy was. It didn\'t help much though because Harry didn\'t seem to hear him as he went on. \"How could I ever love him? How could I ever fall in love with him? How could I ever believe that he would love me back? That he could love me back? Does he even know what it means to love someone? God he is Draco Malfoy for crying out loud! How could I let myself fall for him out of all people?! I am so so stupid!\"

\"Harry stop it! You are not stupid! The only fool here is Malfoy. Don\'t blame yourself for your hearts\' choice. Just hope that next time it chooses more wisely.\" said Hermione.
Harry snorted.
\"What next time, Mione? Who will want me after they find out that Draco divorced me because I couldn\'t give him an heir?!\"

\"Lots of people, Harry. And wasn\'t you the one to tell us that you can have children? I am positively sure that it is bloody Malfoy who\'s got problems. Let\'s wait and see if he manages to produce an heir for his mother anywhere else.\" said Ron hotly.
Harry smiled at his best friend.
\"Thank you, Ron.\"
Ron blushed. Even he was not immune to Harry\'s smiles.
\"You are welcome mate.\"

*
A week later Lucius Malfoy came back from his business trip. He decided to drop into the office first to see if everything was all right before apparating to the manor. So he was already in his office looking through and occasionally sorting out papers that Harry had been placing on his table every day of his short-term absence when Harry arrived. Though with Harry\'s knack with the papers Lucius had a really easy time doing it. Harry was like his own personal angel. It always amazed Lucius how Harry managed to make difficult things seem absolutely simple. Yes Harry was an angel with the dearest smile in the world and married to his son. Lucius wanted to curse and hex at that. But there was nothing he could do. Harry was deeply in love with Draco though Lucius always felt that his son being an ungrateful son of a bitch that he was would never appreciate it, as he should have.

Lucius couldn\'t actually remember Draco ever doing anything to please or to make Harry happy. He always seemed to be the one asking for all the attention. And Harry was not the kind of a person to refuse especially to someone he loved. No. Draco didn\'t know how to treat Harry right and to make him truly happy. Lucius on the other hand knew how to make Harry feel happy, wanted and loved. He was not blind and though Harry became rather could at concealing his true feelings Lucius often enough saw echoes of pain in his emerald orbs. But then Harry would always seem happy when working and doing something for other people. And he always seemed happy with Lucius by his side. Or so Lucius felt. And he always felt right. And here Harry was.

There was a timid knock on the door and Lucius smiled kindly when he saw Harry entering. Harry\'s heart instantly jumped up to his throat. This kind smile always amazed Harry who was quite sure that Lucius smiled only to him. He honestly never saw Lucius smiling to anyone else. Smirking yes. Smiling no. Harry wondered if that was a good thing. Draco never smiled. Not even to him. He only smirked or still worse sneered. Harry shuddered at the remembrance. God I\'ve been so stupid. Stupid Gryffindor indeed.

\"Good morning, Mr. Malfoy. I\'m glad you\'re back.\" said Harry politely as Lucius raised an eyebrow and looked at him questioningly.

\"Harry since when are you calling me Mr. Malfoy? I\'ve been away for only a fortnight and you already call me Mr. Malfoy?\" he asked and Harry was startled to hear hurt in the man\'s voice. Harry hastened to amend it.

\"I\'m sorry, Lucius. I didn\'t mean to hurt or offend you honestly. But I just thought that now it is no longer appropriate for me to call you that.\" said Harry with a small pained smile as he looked Lucius straight in the eyes.

\"And what could possibly happen while I was away to make you think that way, Harry?\" inquired Lucius frowning and crossing his hands on his chest.
Harry frowned as well biting on his lower lip.
\"But…don\'t you know?\"
\"Don\'t I know what?\" asked Lucius now rather perturbed.
\"Haven\'t he told you?\" asked Harry his heart clenching. Great. Just great. Thank you, Draco ever so much. You are as helpful as always. Ron is right you are a piece of shit. A cowardly piece of shit. I wonder how you ever got brave enough to ask me to marry you?! Now it is me who has to tell your father that you divorced me. I think I really hate you now Draco fucking Malfoy, love of my life and my ex-husband.

\"Who and what, Harry? What happened?\" asked Lucius gently seeing as how Harry became quite and pale. He felt an incredible liking for the young man that sometimes lead him to quite inappropriate thoughts towards Harry and he had to remind himself that Harry was his son\'s husband. But now Harry looked so miserable and unhappy and lost that Lucius wanted nothing more than to take him in his arms and kiss him long and hard washing away all the pain and making Harry happy again. He briefly wondered if Draco had anything to do with Harry\'s current state. Often enough Lucius felt that Draco brought Harry more harm and unhappiness than happiness and good. And it often made him want to strangle his only son. Sometimes Draco was too much like his mother whose guts Lucius could barely stand.

Harry took a deep breath and started explaining what happened though it actually took him much more efforts than finishing Voldemort off.

\"Well you see Lucius, your son…Draco…he…he…divorced me…\"

\"WHAT?!\" roared Lucius making Harry jump and stare at him in complete shock though Lucius didn\'t seem to notice as long as he was fuming inside. That ungrateful little slimy brat had actually divorced and hurt Harry like that?! Harry was quite taken aback by Lucius\' reaction. He never saw the man lose control like that. He wondered what it meant for him that\'s why he proceeded his voice slightly shaking.

\"Your wife…she won\'t give Draco…money…if he…doesn\'t produce…an heir…any time soon…and…well…I…\" he broke off. No he simply couldn\'t and wouldn\'t say that it was his fault. Because it wasn\'t. He was fertile. He could have kids and one day he would prove it to Draco. He knew it. He looked at Lucius who at the time was thinking of ways of torturing and murdering later on the bitch of his wife. No he positively cared for Harry too much. And how he could not. They lived and worked side by side for the last three years. Sometimes Harry spent with him more time than with Draco if his son wouldn\'t drag Harry away partying. They used to spent quite amount of time at the mansion in each other\'s company as well and Harry just as Lucius seemed to really enjoy and appreciate their evenings together.

Also Harry made absolutely amazing tea that no house-elf of his could rival and massage that sent Lucius heavenward. Those gentle hands and deft fingers that pampered his muscles when it was getting tough. And it is a tough job being a minister. Those smiles that Harry was only too glad to give that could lift Lucius\' spirits up and not only spirits in an instant. Draco positively didn\'t know what he was letting go. Harry always had so much love to give and he never hesitated in giving it if it only made you happy. Harry had the biggest heart on the earth and Draco had guts enough to break it. He stared at Harry who was now looking at him his usually brilliant eyes shattered and pleading.

\"Sir…Lucius…I was wondering…if…maybe…I could stay in the mansion…until I find a place of my own…\"
Lucius sighed and sat down beckoning Harry closer to him. Harry hesitated.
\"Harry surely you are not afraid of me?\" asked Lucius with an eyebrow raised.
Harry shook his head.
\"I do hope not otherwise I might get very much offended.\"
Harry shook his head more vehemently this time. He didn\'t want to offend the older wizard.
\"Then why won\'t you come closer, Harry?\" purred Lucius giving him an encouraging smile.

Harry couldn\'t help it. He smiled back. For some reason Lucius Malfoy always made it seem and feel much better. Not thinking twice Harry immediately plopped right down onto Lucius\' lap putting his arms around the man\'s neck and placing his head on his shoulder looking at him sincerely and a great deal amused. Why did it ever cross his mind to doubt the elder Malfoy? He was nothing like his son. Thankfully.

\"Now, sir I am as close to you as I can get.\" he whispered thinking that it felt terribly nice to be this close to Lucius. Why I never tried it before? Oh yes I was married to his son. The git. I suppose I should be feeling more miserable than that now but how can I feel miserable when such a man as Lucius Malfoy is holding me in his arms? God but doesn\'t he smell nice? I really shouldn\'t be thinking about my ex-husband\'s gorgeous father in this way. But what the hell?! I damn well like being in his arms so strong and warm and secure and offering comfort and support something Draco was never good at. Bastard! I can\'t believe I wasted three years of my life on him. That last showdown with Voldemort must have effected me more deeply than I thought. To screw up like that.

\"Indeed you are.\" replied Lucius as his throat has gone dry breaking through Harry\'s musings.

As soon as he got over the initial shock of having Harry this close to him and feelings and reactions that followed he cleared his throat and said.

\"Harry I don\'t want you to leave the manor. I am quite happy to have you there. Besides what am I supposed to do without your tea and your massage now? Without you it would be a definite waste of space. I don\'t see why you have to look for a place if you have the whole of the mansion in your disposition to live in?\"
Harry couldn\'t believe his ears.
\"Are you sure, Lucius? I mean I am no longer your son\'s husband and technically I have no right to live there now.\"
\"Harry you may indeed stay if I say so myself. Don\'t worry yourself about it.\"
\"Then I won\'t. Lucius. Thank you. You don\'t know how much it means to me. This past week ever since he left it was really hard on me you know…but it feels better now…\"

Harry offered him another timid smile his eyes shining with unshed tears.

\"I won\'t let him hurt you ever again.\" said Lucius his face hardening. Harry was startled at the fierceness of Lucius\' promise as the older man\'s arms tightened their hold around his slight form. Harry gave him another one of his smiles melting his heart completely before he hid his face in the crook of Lucius\' neck. Lucius felt tears moistening the place where Harry rested his head. He sighed heavily and started rubbing soothing circles down Harry\'s back as the younger wizard sobbed quietly into his neck. Draco was definitely a fool. He must have taken after Narcissa thought Lucius with disdain.

*
That evening in the safety and pleasant solitude of the manor Lucius and Harry shared a glass or two of wine. Then they shared a dance or two. Harry just couldn\'t hold himself when he heard music and Lucius seeing as Harry hesitated whether to dance or not swept Harry into his arms and they kept dancing until their feet couldn\'t support them anymore. Harry hadn\'t felt that happy in a long time. Neither knew how wine and dancing turned into hot sex or how they ended up in Lucius\' bedroom.

But when Harry woke up the next morning he was shocked to find himself wrapped in strong secure arms that could not belong to his husband. Then he remembered that he had no husband any more. But before he could get upset he remembered that he spent a great evening in Lucius\' company drinking and dancing. Something that he wasn\'t allowed to do for a long time. But the previous night he danced to his heart\'s content and Lucius was only too glad to assist him. Then he remembered hands and kisses all over. He remembered as he was falling on the bed with Lucius following him. Then Lucius stirred and Harry stared at him with a small smile. Lucius seemed to need a few seconds to assess the situation and their position before he addressed Harry with a tender smirk.

\"Harry is it what I think it is?\"
Harry laughed.
\"Oh yes Lucius it is.\"
\"Oh yes Lucius…\" murmured Lucius. \"Something you\'ve been repeating only too often all through the night as far as I can remember and I happen to remember quite a lot…\"
Harry blushed.
\"Lucius stop it!\"
\"As you wish Harry.\"
\"Lucius?\"
\"Hmm?\" asked Lucius as Harry put his head on his chest tracing small circles up and down.
\"I\'m sorry.\"
\"Whatever what for?\"
\"I didn\'t mean to…you know…to jump from son to father…from one bed to another…that\'s not like that…\"
\"Harry you don\'t have to explain…\"
\"No…I mean…I didn\'t try to substitute him with you…it was never like that with him…you seemed to care for me…\"
\"Shh…\"
\"But it won\'t change anything, will it Lucius? We will still stay the same? I don\'t think that I am ready to start anything new now but I want you to stay by my side like you always did. I need you. Really really need you.\"
\"Harry I\'ll be there for you. Don\'t worry.\" assured Lucius bringing Harry on top of him as Harry rested his chin on the man\'s chest.
And I\'ll wait until you are ready Harry dear…


A/N: tell me what you think!