Love\'s Worst Enemy

Disclaimer: I don't own the Harry Potter character's...that would be kinda cool though.

Warnings: Male/Male...I'm sorry if you don't like that kind of thing...really, I am. Mild angst. A depressed and sexually frustrated Remus. Probably OOC too. Some Sirius/Remus action going on too. I had to, it's part of the plot...

Dedication: To Jasmine, Love you!

Rating: NC-17

Author's Note* I've had some people tell me that the last part was a bit confusing. I think it was the whole Lucius smirking thing at the end. All of that will be worked out in later parts. Just not in this one.
// Spank me harder!// = Remus' thoughts. I know Lucius is major OOC, but it's part of the plot.
******* = time change, and ~.~.~.~.~.~ = POV change.
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~= small time change. This part is Remus' POV. That should cover it. Sorry it's taken so long! Writer's block sucks, and I'm just lazy.


Love's Worst Enemy
Pt. 2
(Cold Hearted)




I sat silently in double potions staring at my desk, while the teacher went over some potions that might be on the test we were having next class. After Lucius found out that Sirius and I had kissed, he dumped me,but not after making a scene in front of half the school. I kept trying to talk to him and explain what really happened, but Lucius would just shrug me off and walk away, or start yelling at me.But all that was three months ago and I finally started taking James' advice and stopped trying to talk to Lucius.

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"Remus, listen to me. You have to get over Lucius. I know how much you love him, but you can't keep going on like this. I don't mean to sound cold-hearted but he's moved on. So should you. Please."
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It had worked. James was right. I had needed to move on and that's what I did. It wasn't easy at first. Severus rubbed it in my face whenever he got the chance, and Sirius was a constant reminder of why our relationship failed. But I really couldn't blame Sirius, I had forgiven him a long time ago. After it all happened, James made us sit down and talk. There had been yelling, screaming, anger, pain, tears, and then, eventually forgiveness. Sirius and I had decided to forget about the kiss completely and pretend it never happened.


So, here I am sitting in class trying not to look over my shoulder at Lucius. //I hate this! IhatethisIhatethisIhatethis.// I sighed and cast a look back at James, who was taking notes down. //Why do I have to take this class? It's not like I'm going to need to know any of this in the future. What's a werewolf going to need potions for?// I sighed again and ran my hands through my hair. James looked up from his notes and gave me a sympathetic look. I hate it when he gives me those looks. I don't want him or anyone else to feel sorry for me. I look away from him and raise my hand. The teacher looks at me, "Yes Remus?" I put my hand down and give her my best pathetic look, "Can I please be excused?" I hear a few snickers behind me, which I choose to ignore.
" What's wrong?"
I take a ragged breath, "I don't feel so good."
The fact that it was only a few days away from the full moon, and that I probably looked like crap run over twice helped my case.
She looked at me and nodded, "Okay then."
I gather my things and stand up.


James mouths 'are you okay?', and I nod walking down the aisle. I try not to look at Lucius as I walk by, but my eyes drift to him anyway. I'm slightly surprised at the blank look on his face. No expression is better than anger I guess. I manage to keep my composure until I shut the door behind me. I look around and head straight for the library. The librarian doesn't notice me, so I walk to the back of it, and drop my stuff on the floor next to the back wall. Leaning against the wall I slide down to the floor. Burying my head in my hands as tears silently running down my face. //Why do I keep crying over him?// I'm never going to get over him. "I love him too much." I sit there for God knows how long, when I sense someone standing next to me. I take a deep breath. I little bit of fear, anxiety, and concern. Who...?


I look up to see Sirius staring down at me. He smiles and sits down next to me, "Why'd you leave class?"
I stare at my feet like they were the most fascinating thing I've ever seen in my life. " No reason." I mutter. I see Sirius give me a 'I don't believe you look' out of the corner of my eye.
"I can't even be in the same room as him. It hurts so much!" A sob escapes my throat as Sirius pulls me into a hug. I bury my head in his shoulder and cry freely. He just holds me tighter and rubs my back, trying to comfort me. After what feels like another eternity I can hear the bell announcing Lunch. He pulls away from me and smiles, "You okay to go to the Great Hall?"
I look at him and shrug.
Sirius laughs and stands, pulling me up with him. "Yes? No?"

"I don't think I can go in there. I won't be able to stop myself from looking at him."
Sirius picks up my bag and hands it to me. "How about this? You go back to our room, and I'll go see if I can get some food from the house elves. Sound good?"
I give him a small smile, "Thanks."
We leave the library and part. I go to the Griffyindor common room.
"Spliggilysploo."
The portrait swings open and I go straight to my room. I drop my bag to the ground and take off my robe. I straighten out my jeans and T-shirt, and fall back onto the bed sighing. My eyes gradually close and I welcome sleep.


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I yawn as I slowly start to wake up. I feel a weight next to me, and I open one eSiriSirius asleep next to me. I smile softly and turn on my side so I can face him. I push his hair out of his face, "Padfoot. Wake up."
Sirius mumbles something and snuggles up to me. I laugh softly wrapping my arms around his waist, and resting my chin on the top of his head. "Sirius, there's a hoard of girls outside waiting for you. They want your body." Sirius moans, still asleep.

Suddenly a thought comes to my mind. I shake him,"Wake up Sirius!"
Sirius jolts up and looks around, "What? Remus, what's wrong?"
I look down briefly, then up at him, "Do you love me?"
A confused look comes across his face, "Wha...?"
"Do you? Please be honest with me."
Sirius looks down not saying anything. After a few minutes of silence I start to climb out of bed.
"Yes." Barely a whisper, but still audible.
I pause, turning to face him. The next thing I know I'm straddling him, and kissing him like there's no tomorrow. I have no idea as to what I'm doing. All I know is that I need to take my mind off Lucius, and Sirius is the best way to do that. I know he wants this. He pushes me away and holds me at arms length," What are you doing?"
I blush a little, "Kissing you."
He rolls his eye's, "I know that, but why?"
I know I need to word what I say next carefully, "Because I want to." Yeah, that wasn't exactly how I wanted it to come out.


I hear him sigh quietly and shake his head, "No. This isn't right. We can't."
I frown slightly, "Why?"
He sits up and looks into my eyes, "Because I know your only doing this to get back at Lucius or something like that."
I glare at him, "Who cares?" I snap, slowly losing my temper. I force myself to calm down. I get on my knees in front of him, "Please Sirius."
He shakes his head again.
"For the love of God Sirius! Do you want me to beg?! I need this. Please?" I look away, "Why wont you take me?" I whisper, not looking up.


My chin is gently forced and and my eyes meet his. He leans forward and captures my lips, pulling me into a demanding embrace. I open my mouth to his prodding tongue and lay back, pulling him down on top of me. I let out a small moan as he grinds his hips into mine. I push the voice inside my head that's telling me this is wrong, down. I really do need this. I quiet my inner turmoil as I concentrate on kissing the boy on top of me. My hand slides under his shirt, as I pull it up. We break contact briefly to pull the shirt over his head, quickly finding each other's mouths soon after. My hands glide up and down his smooth back, as I wrap my legs around his waist forcing him harder against me. He gasps as I bite at his neck. I pull back stretching my neck, encouraging him to do the same to me. He brings his head down, and lightly nips at my collar bone.


"Harder." I whisper, licking my suddenly dry lips. His lust-filled eyes briefly find mine, before roaming down my body. Sirius sits up a little, ripping off my shirt. He slides his body down mine, biting and licking at my nipples. I sigh as he kisses his way down my stomach, swirling his tongue around my navel. He rests his hands on either side of my hips, while he grazes over my erection with his teeth. I gasp, lifting my hips upward for more. I want more. Harder. Sirius pushes me back down to the bed, lightly tickling my sides in the process. His hands slide down my hips, up and over. They slowly start unbuttoning my jeans, as I lay there in painful wait. He finally pulls my pants down my legs, throwing them on the floor.


"Close your eyes." he demands his hot breath against my ear. I shudder, "Trust me" he whispers, while my eyes close. I do trust you. God help me I do. I still my body as I wait for what's to come. Suddenly I feel his warm, wet mouth covering me. A moan falls from my lips as Sirius sucks and licks me to orgasm. My loud moans filled the room. All my pent-up stress and frustration jetted out. My hips rose and fin rin rhythm with Sirius' menstruation's. My body tensed and for a moment I saw nothing. I spasm as a wave of pleasure coursed through my body. My eyes now squeezed shut. And as I gradually felt myself fall to the end of the wave, I sighed content. I lay still for several moments, basking in what just happened.

I finally open my eyes, and look down at my friend. He smiles and stretches out next to me, wrapping his arms around my naked waist. I lay my head on his bare chest, smiling. Neither of us says anything to the other for several minutes. I feel his hardness pressed against me and I sit up. He looks up at me and questioningly tilts his head to the side.


"What about you?" I say my voice breathy. He glances down at his erection stretching against his pants.
"I'm fine. This is for you, not me. Now come here." He reaches up and pulls me back down to him. I spread myself on top of him.

"What are you doin-"

I cut him off, sitting up and grinding into him. "This is for you too." I reply, resting andsands on his taunt stomach. I rock back and forth, grinding myself harder and harder into him. I lean back, putting my hips into it.* Sirius digs his hands into my hips, thrusting upward just as hard. I move faster and faster as I feel him tense beneath me. He stiffens, then shudders his back arching. Afterward, I lay at his side and this time it's my turn to give him the smile. He kisses my forehead, nestling against me. We slowly start to drift off to sleep when we hear someone clear their throat. We both tense as we turn to see who it is. Sirius hides his face behind my back, as I turn pale.

James and Lucius stand there staring at us, twin looks of shock gracing their faces. I stare into Lucius' eyes, and something inside me breaks as I see the hurt and pain in them. I open my mouth to explain but nothing comes out. Lucius's eyes harden and he shakes his head.

"I...Lucius please."

He looks away before spinning around and storming out of the room. I feel my heart stop as I watch the man I love run away. Go after him. I tell myself, completely frozen in place.

I've lost him again.


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*Author Notes:
I lean back, putting my hips into it.* Think Jason Issacs riding the horse in 'The Patriot'.