The Baby Project

Chapter Nineteen:

'So close no matter how far.
Couldn't be much more from the heart.
Forever trusting who we are,
And nothing else matters

Never opened myself this way.
Life is ours, we live it our way.
All these words I don't just say,
And nothing else matters.'


They walked back to the common room, Malfoy's hand resting on her lower back
as they walked.

Something had just happened back there...but she wasn't sure what.

"Thank you" She said suddenly.
She realised she had never spoken them words to him before.

He looked at her curiously, his hand on her back still guiding her along the
corridors.
"For what?"

She looked up at him and smiled slightly.
"For pretending to get along with my friends"

He wasn't quite sure what to say to that.
"Yeah" He said, not looking at her. "You're welcome"

Was he pretending, or had he actually enjoyed himself?
This was a whole new kettle of fish for Draco...and he wasn't too sure how
he was supposed to handle it.

Hermione could still feel his hand on her back.
She didn't dislike it, because somehow it made her feel safe.

'Draco Malfoy makes you feel safe?' Her brain asked her quizzically.
'Bloody hell, Hermione! What's happening to you?'

She didn't know.

They stopped walking once they got to their common room entrance.

Draco said the password and they walked inside; Hermione instantly sat down
on the couch and started unbuttoning her top.

Draco felt that pang of suppressed lust when she popped her breast out of her
bra.
Yet again, he was unsure of where to look.
So he stood there beside one of the chairs, looking slightly uncomfortable.

"You don't have to stay down here while I'm doing this, if you don't want
to" She told him, looking up at him whilst she held the child to her breast.

Draco looked at her.

"I know you don't like it"

He put his eyes to the floor.
He knew it was quite the opposite.

Then suddenly words came out of his mouth that he never expected.
"What does it feel like?" He asked her, still keeping his eyes on the
patterned floor.

Hermione wasn't expecting that.
Malfoy?
Interested in what breast feeding felt like?

"It's..." She started, unsure of what to say. "It's a bit painful, but once
you get used to it, it isn't so bad"

Draco slowly took a seat on his usual chair, opposite Granger.

"I guess it's better than a bottle, though" He told her, looking at his
hands in front of him instead. "It's hard to get her to latch onto it...and
the milk tastes disgusting"

Hermione snorted.
She couldn't help it.

She looked at him, humour apparent in her eyes.
"Malfoy...you do realise that it's breast milk in the bottles, don't you?"

Malfoy's eyes snapped up.
He could see her laughing at him.

A rosy colour was suddenly apparent in his cheeks.

And then his eyes looked exactly where he didn't want them to.
And those feelings that he was trying to suppress were building inside of him
even more.

Ashamed of himself, he put his head back down.

"Look at me, Malfoy" Her voice came.

Draco frowned, and then slowly looked up at her.

And instead of the angry face he thought he was going to see for looking in
on something so private...
He saw a small smile on her lips.

"It's ok to look" She told him. "I'm sure there's nothing here that you
haven't seen before"

Draco wanted to retort...
tell her that there was no way he had seen something so pure before...so
innocent...
So innocent and yet so tantalizing to him at the same time.

He needed to change the subject.
"It's my room tonight, Granger"

She nodded.
Obviously their previous conversation was a little too delicate for him.

After she had finished feeding Airyn, she got up from the couch and started
doing her usual pacing-round-the-room whilst winding the baby.

Draco just sat back on the chair and watched her.
Watched the way she seemed so determined to do everything...
watched the way her hair flicked from side to side as she paced.

Watched the way her rounded bottom moved every time she paced away from him-

'Draco!' He scolded himself.
None of this was doing any good for his hormones.

Hermione could feel his eyes on her.
She tried to ignore it, but lately there was some kind of tension between
them whenever they were alone together.

She had tried to put it down to hormones...but after today's performance
from him, she wasn't quite sure.

Airyn was suddenly sick on her bib, on Hermione's shoulder.

Draco wrinkled his nose.
That was definitely one of the lesser things he enjoyed...that, and changing
shitty nappies.

"I think she might settle down better, tonight" Hermione told him, taking
Airyn down from her shoulder and wiping the sick from her mouth.

Draco hoped so...
It was getting very demanding, getting up at all of the ungodly hours in the
morning.
Not that he would have changed it for the world.

"There are some baby grows in my room she can sleep in" He told her, getting
up from the chair and holding out his arms.

Hermione was used to handing over her daughter every night.
Just like the first night, when Malfoy had taken her to bed.
He had done it ever since...

Hermione didn't begrudge him because of it...for some reason, she liked the
way he wanted to take charge of the bedtime situation.

"Come on" He said quietly to the baby. "Bedtime"

Hermione smiled to herself.
There was something about the way he spoke to her...
His voice was so soft...and he really didn't care.

As always, Hermione followed him up the stairs, towards his rooms.
She had been up there a few times now, but she always seemed to feel very
self conscious while she was up there.

Everything was Green and silver.
House colours, obviously.

But that wasn't what made her feel like she had to keep her distance.
It was the way he was when he was up there...he felt at home there...he
could be himself up there.

Draco went straight over to the moses basket, keeping it directly next to
his large bed.
Whenever Airyn slept in his room, he felt the need to be as close to her as
possible. So since the first time she had slept in his room, he had put the
basked as close to him as he could.

He laid her down in it, admiring the way her bright baby blues looked at him
tiredly.
He slowly took her out of her pale pink babygrow, and began placing a new
nappy and new babygrow on her small body.

Hermione had now seen him do this so many times...and she still couldn't get
over it.
He was completely at ease with his feelings for Airyn now...and although she
hadn't seen him with his Slytherin friends yet, she knew that he wouldn't
falter his behaviour towards his daughter.

His love seemed unconditional.

"Say: Night night, Daddy!" He said quietly in his soft voice, looking
adoringly into the moses basket.

Hermione walked closer until she was sat next to him on his bed, looking
into the basket herself.

Airyn opened her eyes every now and again, still wanting to know what was
going on around her.

Hermione leaned in and gave her a kiss on her tiny forehead.
"Night, Cutie" She whispered.

Draco kept looking from Airyn, and then to Granger.
It was funny how their little 'family' was working out...he loved his little
girl to bits...and now he was feeling something towards her mother...

"She looks so peaceful when she's sleeping" Hermione pondered, more to
herself than Malfoy.

He smiled at her.
"It's just when she opens her gob...that's when the problems start"

Hermione laughed.
Yes...they could definitely do without the crying...

"I remember watching her the first day she was born" he told her, not really
realising he was saying it out loud. "I sat there for hours just watching her
sleep...I couldn't take my eyes off her"

Hermione looked at him curiously.
"I thought you had only just arrived when I woke up?"

Draco's head snapped up to look her dead in the eye.
Why had he just admitted something that he wanted to remain a secret
forever?
Did he do it intentionally to see what she would say? Or did the words come
out because he was totally lost in his thoughts about his beautiful baby
girl?

He knew the answer to that, and it wasn't the latter.

"No, Granger" He told her innocently.
He put head down into his hands, trying to think of the best way to admit
it. "I stayed even though you fell asleep...I just wanted to look at her..."

Hermione was still in shock.
She did have an inkling that something else had happened, but she put it
down to her wanting him to have stayed...she didn't actually believe
that he did.

But she did now.

She took in his posture; sat on the bed, elbows resting on his knees and his
head in his hands.
She had honestly never seen him sat in this position before.
It made him look weak...and she had never seen Draco Malfoy weak...

Hermione hesitantly reached out her hand and touched the arm that was
closest to her.
"You don't have to be embarrassed" She told him. "I think everyone is
feeling uncomfortable when it comes to how they feel about their newborns...no one is really sure how to act"

Draco could feel the warmth of her hand on his forearm.
It sent little ripples of pleasure through him, knowing that she would want
to touch him on her own accord.

"It's not just that" He admitted, rubbing his face with his hands before
looking up at her. "It's everything that's going on now...everything is
changing for me"

Hermione looked down at her hand as it seemed to be making little patterns
on his skin with her fingertips.
She could feel the bicep beneath the skin...not too big, but not small
enough to not know it was there...

She wanted to ask him so many questions, but when her gaze traveled up to
his eyes, she couldn't think anymore.

Draco couldn't take his eyes off her.
For some reason, over the past few days he had found himself trying to fight
this sudden surge of lust that had come upon him...he wondered whether it
was because of Airyn...

But he knew he would only be in denial if he carried on thinking like that.

He was attracted to the girl...it was as plain and not-so-simple as
that.

And why?
Why was he so attracted to her?

Was it a sudden awakening of feelings?
or had they been there all along, and never been allowed to surface?

...He knew that both he and half of the population of the school could
probably answer that one.

Hermione could feel his body heat as he sat next to her.
She had found it harder to look at him lately...as if letting him see into
her would show him something that she wanted to keep hidden...

What was she going to do?

And why was she still sitting there?

Hermione stood up from the bed rapidly, and then turned to walk around the
other side of it.

But his hand stopped her.

She turned around to find him standing there beside the moses basket, his
eyes looking into hers with an emotion that she didn't think she had seen
before...

Not since that night.

Draco wasn't sure what his body was doing...but his mind was telling him to
go with it.

Hermione looked down at his hand, clasped around her wrist.

"What's wrong?" She asked him, not wanting to look into his eyes.

She felt his body move closer to hers.
Felt his finger tips relax slightly against her delicate wrist.

He hadn't meant to startle her, but his sudden rush of emotions had told him
to stop her before she walked away.

"I need to do something" He told her simply.

He was standing right in front of her now, his lean body a few inches from
her own.

She looked up at him then.
"What?"

His eyes were trying to tell her something.
He could feel the heat of her body again...his own getting desperate to feel
her against him.

"I just need to see..." He told her, the hand that had held her wrist had
suddenly come up to her face.
He brushed his thumb across her cheek experimentally, hoping that she would
let him.

Hermione knew this wasn't right.
But she couldn't move.
And she didn't want to.

She felt a shiver go right through her as Malfoy gently placed his palm
against her cheek, still rubbing his thumb against it in small circles.

What was happening to him?

What was happening to her?

What had happened to the days when she wished it was Ron that was holding
her like this?
For some reason, it seemed all so long ago now...
So much had taken place and changed her emotions since then...

Draco took in her appearance.
Her cheeks were starting to flush slightly, and she had closed her eyes as
his palm came in contact with the smooth skin of her left cheek.

Hermione wasn't quite sure what to do when she felt him pull her flush
against him.
Her eyes snapped open and instantly sort his out.

"What are you doing?" She asked him, feeling his right arm slowly winding
its way around to the middle of her back, whilst his left hand continued to
smooth her cheek slowly.

Draco looked deep into her eyes.
For once, he didn't care what she saw inside his.
He would let her see the lust that was causing havoc with his hormones...
He would let her see it because she had been the one to cause it.

"I'm going crazy" He told her, before giving in and capturing her mouth with
his.

Hermione took a few moments to realise what was happening.
When she felt Malfoy's warm lips against her own, she moaned against her
will.

Draco nibbled her bottom lip, kissed it and sucked it into his mouth.
Then he felt her giving in and opening up to him.

Hermione felt his tongue wind around her's smoothly, searching the crevices
of her mouth...wanting to taste every last bit of her. She fought back with
him experimentally, liking the way he nipped at her lips with his teeth.

Draco almost moaned when he noticed Granger's arms winding around his neck,
bringing them even closer to each other. He felt one of her hands reach up to
his hair, grabbing a handful of it to bring their mouths together more
forcefully.
He could have swore that he was going dizzy from the taste of her.

Hermione noticed how close their bodies were now.
She was pressed firmly against him, both of his arms wound around her...one
now on her bottom and the one reaching up to wind its fingers through her
tousled hair.
She knew he had made the right move by putting her hand in his hair...it
felt soft to the touch, and she couldn't get enough of it.

Draco suddenly withdrew from her mouth, and dove further down for her neck.
He kissed the sensitive area at the nape, and then under her chin, before
going for the smooth skin just above the shoulder blades.

"Oh..." Hermione gasped, feeling herself grow wet, against her better
judgment.

If they didn't stop now, then they were going to be in big trouble...
But at this moment, she didn't care.

As he carried on kissing her neck, he could hear her breathing grow
deeper...and then he heard her moan.
And it was enough to cause the erection that was now tenting his pants.

Hermione moved experimentally against it, her mind not fully focusing on
exactly what she was rubbing against.
He wasn't too much taller than her, and so it rested on her lower stomach.

Then she heard him moan.
"Shit..."
And she was lost.

Draco brought his lips back to hers, more forcefully this time.
Their lips fought for dominance, their tongues clashing rhythmically
together, trying to win the battle.
Hermione felt herself being propelled backwards, and her back suddenly hit
one of the wooden pillars that held up Malfoy's four-poster bed.

Draco leaned into her, loving the way her breasts felt against his chest,
even through the fabric of their shirts.
Still kissing her passionately, Draco put one of his legs between hers and
separated them.

Hermione felt her clit throb when she felt his strong thigh in between her
own.
Her lust had now finally taken over her senses, and all she wanted to do
feel was him.

Wasn't this experience supposed to be shared with someone that she felt
deserved it?
Hadn't she thought that Ron would be the first to share this with her?
She now found herself pushing that thought out of her brain, her need for a
strange sense of release being the first thought on her mind.

He ground his thigh against her.

"Please..." She breathed, as he pulled back and started kissing her neck
again.

"Please, what?" He asked her between kisses as he ravished her collarbone.

Hermione's hands traveled down his body slowly, putting away the little
niggling feeling in the back of her mind that told her she shouldn't be
doing this...

Draco groaned against her skin when he felt her hands squeeze his ass;
bringing his leg closer to her now moist centre.
He could feel her need through the fabric of his pants, and it was killing
him.

"I need..." She couldn't finish her sentence.

As if he had read her mind, Draco suddenly brought one of his arms down to
her outer thigh, and lifted the back of her knee gently as he slowly hoist
it up and onto his own hip.
He felt her tremble as she felt their position move.

It was far more intimate now...she could feel his erection up close and
personal...and it was seeking out her centre through his pants.

Hermione looked into his eyes as he looked at her.
Passion with such intensity, that she knew it was a good job he had trapped
her against the post...the look on his face would have made her melt into a
puddle on the floor otherwise.

He suddenly looked serious.
But he needed to know.
There was no use going here if they were going to tip-toe around each other
afterwards...

"Do you want this?" He asked he quietly, the tip of his nose touching hers.
His hand was stroking the area at the back of her leg as he held it
there...feeling the smooth skin on his fingertips.

Her was answered by a bold thrust of her hips towards his.
And it was all he could do to not throw her onto the bed and take her right
there.

Hermione didn't know what she was doing.
Maybe it was lust...maybe it was the thought of this being her first time to
do anything as intimate as this...

Or maybe it was because she had never realised just how passionate Draco
Malfoy could be...

Hermione did the only thing she could think of when she looked at his
face...seeing his own reserves melting in front of her...

She kissed him soundly on the mouth...
A slow and tantalizing kiss that seemed to last forever.

She felt him thrust his hips against her again, and she held back the small
growl that was threatening to escape from her mouth.

Her eyes rolled into the back of her head however, when she felt his other
hand slowly making its way up her shirt...working its way underneath the
fabric, to feel the hot skin beneath it.

Draco's fingers inched up until he felt the small mound of her breast
through her bra.
Experimentally, he thumbed the erect nipple that was betraying Hermione's
lustful state, hearing her breath become even more ragged as she fought to
keep her groans from escaping her thoroughly kissed lips -

"'WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!'"

Draco's head shot up immediately.

His head frazzled from lust; he didn't even register where the sound was
coming from...

"Oh, god!" Hermione shouted.

How could she forget?


Draco looked at her.
He suddenly looked uncomfortable.

Hermione understood why.

In the midst of everything, they had forgotten the one thing they shouldn't
have;

'Airyn...'

Hermione suddenly couldn't look at him.

'Oh god...' she thought to herself, her logic suddenly returning to
her.''What have I done...?'


In Draco's head, he was rethinking the whole situation...

'Well...at least I got my answer' He thought to himself. 'It's not
just a passing fancy...'

And he knew that because of that answer, he would never be the same again.



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A/N:
Oh, aren't I evil!!!!!!

Well...i kinda gave you want you wanted...in a very small doseage lmao!!
Don't kill me as there is more to come ... but how long will that be?! hehehehehe!!!!


Hope you enjoyed it anyway, and I also hope that i have satisfied a few of you that have been waiting for this lol!!!





HOUNDOG5383:
Hey, thankyou for reviewing!!
Alot of people are asking what will happen at the end with the babies...I have thought of a few ideas, but the one that i am going to go with is top secret lmao!!

SHYTOYSHTED:
i'm glad you are enjoying this fic!
And i would love to see what your portreyal of this kind of story is!! Everyone usually comes up with things that are better than what I have written lmao!

WILLOW ERIS:
Yeah, i love the fact that malfoy is the only one who actually knew how to change a nappy...i suppose i had to show his change in someway that the other characters could see...afterall, seeing is believing lmao!

ALLY:
Glad you could catch up! lmao!!!
Glad your still enjoying it!!

SCARLETTE:
Don't worry about it, i dont take offence to anyone comparing this to the future parents program (and i am honoured that people do compare it because it is an absolutely terrific story lol). I read it a few weeks ago, just AFTER i started writing this lol.
Anyway, im glad you gave this story a chance, as i never like to copy other authors....i need to be original lmao!!!






For those of you that are in this for the long haul...i have to say that this fic isn't going to be completed anytime soon, and will probably go over 30+ chapters....
I apologise if this is too long for people, but it is the only way that this fic is going to go with any sort of time line that i have set myself lmao!!

Keep reading and reviewing!!
Reviews are like oxygen for me at the moment lmao!!!

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