What I've become

Chapter 18
I’m so sorry for this chapter because it’s very late.

1
Lucius left the manor, after stopping in his private chamber to retrieve his Death Eater mask, and made his way down to the main gates so that he could apparate.

Once beyond the gate he looked up at the manor and spotted where Hermione’s room would be, he had half expected her to be in the window watching him, but her window remained dark and empty.

Sighing softly he wondered if he had made the right decision in letting her go.

“Not much you can do about it now…what’s done is done.” His mind answered; sighing again Lucius twisted into the night and vanished.

Re-materializing, salty sea air invaded his nostrils as he looked up at Voldemort’s current hideout; he recognized the place at once to be the same mansion in which he was initiated.

Wrapping his cloak around himself tightly to protect himself from the bitter wind he set off towards the mansion.

Inside the mansion it was warm and very crowded, placing his mask firmly to his face; Lucius entered the main chamber which was packed with fellow Death Eaters.

Pushing his way further into the room he was greeted many times along the way, recognized beneath the mask for his long platinum blond hair that spilled down his back.

It was not long before he spotted a woman making her way towards him from across the hall, Lucius knew instantly who lay behind the mask by the way she held herself when she walked.

“Hello Catalina,” Lucius said as the woman reached him.

“Lucius,” She replied bowing sarcastically.

“It’s not often you’re called to these meetings,” Lucius remarked.

“It seems the Dark Lord has called for everyone,” Catalina said eyeing the crowd.

“But I notice your wife has not joined us?” Catalina continued and Lucius could practically hear her smirk.

“My wife is ill,” Lucius answered quickly, lowering his mask to show his face.

“Hmmm….and could that have something to do with the sleeping draught you got from me?” Catalina asked, as she lowered her mask also to reveal her smiling face, Lucius shrugged in response.

“You gave her too much and she took it with a large amount of alcohol,” Catalina told him knowing instantly why Narcissa was ill.

“Always the expert.” Lucius muttered, Catalina nodded in a cocky manner.

“And what else have you been up to Lucius…what of the Mudblood?” Catalina asked.

“Quite you idiot…” Lucius hissed, glancing around at the crowd. “It turns out I was wrong” Lucius lied in a whisper. Catalina raised an eyebrow.

“But you seemed so certain,” she said sceptically.

“I was….but I was wrong,” Lucius snapped, Catalina smirked knowingly.
“You were never a good liar Lucius.” Catalina mocked.

“Believe what you want but just drop it!” Lucius hissed turning his back on Catalina and began to walk away until her hand closed around his arm.

“Fine…” Catalina said loudly, “Say I believe you and you were wrong…did you kill her?” Catalina asked. Lucius turned to face her again his expression betraying him.

“You didn’t did you…I was right…you have feelings for the little bitch!” Catalina snarled in a whisper baring her teeth in anger. Lucius voice failed him and all he could do in protest was shake his head.

“You have…why else would you spare her life?” Catalina spat her face wrinkled in disgust. Lucius opened his mouth to protest when the room suddenly fell silent and peering over many heads he noticed Voldemort had entered the room and was taking his seat at the back of the hall, Catalina threw Lucius one last look of disgust and moved away from him.

“Welcome my Death Eaters.” Voldemort hissed softly, his shining red eyes surveying the crowd.

“Tonight is a very special night for us all, as tonight you will each be given a mission to fight back against Muggle and Muggle lovers alike…too long we have stayed silent, the ministry must think we have gone soft.” Voldemort hissed again and was greeted with murmurs of agreement and many nodding heads.

“So tonight I will be sending you off in pairs to Muggle dwellings and when you are there you are going to remind them how powerful we really are!” Voldemort hissed loudly, the room erupted in cheers and only when Voldemort held up his hand did the room fall silent.

Voldemort beckoned Wormtail forward and he came holding a pillow with an object on top which was concealed by a dark sheet, and came to stand next to Voldemort’s chair.

“And this is what we will use to decide what houses you will be....attending.” Voldemort chuckled viciously as Wormtail removed the sheet to reveal a jewel encrusted cup that was emitting red smoke, not unlike the one used for the Tri-Wizard Tornament.

“Once you’re before the cup it will regurgitate an address...this address is that of your victim but before you do so I wish for you to get into your group of two” Voldemort ordered and waved his hand at Wormtail.

Wormtail lowered the cup with shaking hands as the crowd before him started to chatter and move around as they paired up, Lucius stood in the middle of the room ashen faced and didn’t notice the approaching figure until it was stood before him.

“Haven’t you said enough Catalina?” Lucius groaned as Catalina lowered her mask to reveal her smiling face that told Lucius she was up to something.

“I haven’t even begun Lucius,” she sniggered tossing her sleek black hair behind her shoulders as she drew herself to her fullest height. “And I’m not leaving until I make you see sense.” Catalina said matter-of-factly with a sly smile.

“I suppose that means we’re partners then?” Lucius replied sarcastically moving away from Catalina and joining the queue in front of the cup with the Death Eaters who had also chosen there partners, Catalina came to stand beside him looking smug.

After what felt like hours Lucius and Catalina were presented before the cup, they both bowed before Voldemort’s feet and remained there until addressed like the couples who had gone before them had.

“Ah Lucius and Catalina....it’s been a long time since you both worked together,” Voldemort hissed as they both straightened up before him, Lucius suppressed a scowl while Catalina maintained her childish smirk.

The cup suddenly glowed blazing red and spat out a piece of parchment which then fluttered down into Voldemort’s open palm.

“Your address is 6 Normanton View,” Voldemort said with a hint of mirth. “This one is an interesting assignment.” Voldemort continued his pale long fingers tracing the parchment almost lovingly.

“These people are Muggle’s who know about our world as their daughter attends Hogwarts, further more the female is a doctor who saves other Muggle’s as a living and the male is what the Muggle’s call a fireman, he also saved other vermin...how the Muggle world will miss them.” Voldemort said with revulsion tossing the piece of parchment at Lucius who caught it in a fist.

“And the icing on the cake is that their Mudblood daughter will be home for the holidays” Voldemort continued his face twisting into what he called a smile.

Lucius and Catalina bowed again before turning their backs to Voldemort and moving though the remaining crowd towards the exit.

Once outside in the salty fresh air Lucius turned to Catalina who was leaning against the manor wall with her smarmy smirk still in place.

“Let’s get one thing straight!” Lucius snarled advancing on Catalina and slamming a hand against the wall next to her head. “You’re better off staying out of my business...” Lucius began but stopped when Catalina placed a hand on the arm that was imprisoning her against the wall.

“But Lucius darling, you brought me into it the moment you told me about it...I can’t just stand back and watch you make a huge mistake.” Catalina said seductively as she stroked Lucius arm, Lucius closed his eyes lazily as her finger nails trailed up his arm.

“Just tell me what you did with the little bitch,” Catalina purred as her nails reached Lucius face and trailed his cheek lovingly, Lucius grabbed her hand in a firm grip and threw it away from him.

“Just...stay...out...off...it” Lucius sneered his face close to Catalina’s, his teeth bared warningly before turning and heading for the beach where he could apparate leaving Catalina to follow.

2
They arrived at the Muggle’s street which was enveloped in darkness and looked upon the house of their victims, Catalina shook with excitement as they made their way up the garden path, Lucius following in her wake.

The front door opened with a simple spell and the pair entered the darkened house silently.

Catalina practically skipped down the hall to the foot of the stairs and danced up them with silent grace, Lucius glared after her as he followed.

The landing was narrow and filled with darkness, the pair stepped carefully as they made their way to the first room to their right.

Inside the room loud snoring invaded their ears, Catalina looked at Lucius with murderess glee and a smile full of pleasure danced on her lips.

Catalina made her way to the bed drawing her wand and stood before it, where two lumps lay sleeping; Catalina raised her wand and pointed it at the first lump, the one that was snoring.

“Avarda Kadava!” she whispered, the room went bright as a jet of green light shot out of her wand and struck the body making it jerk before death claimed it.

Catalina sank back into the shadows as the second lump stirred and sat up suddenly.

“Mark....did you hear something!” a woman’s voice said as she glanced around the darkened room.

“Mark?” she asked again nudging the man next to her, soon realizing something was wrong the woman panicked and turned over her husband who already felt cold beneath her hand.

“Oh my god, Mark!” She shrieked pushing his hair back and studying his features in the dark, rolling over she went for the lamp beside her bed.

“I wouldn’t do that,” Catalina chuckled from the shadows; the woman screamed in terror and pulled the covers closer to her body.

“Lumos.” Catalina said and the room filled with light revealing the woman’s husbands pale dead face making her scream again.

Catalina laughed at the woman as she made her way over to her side of the bed.

“Shush, no need to cry...What’s your name?” Catalina asked as the woman began to shake with silent tears.

“What...what do....you want?” the Woman whimpered her eyes glued to Catalina in fear, Catalina’s smile showed white, gleaming teeth as she bent over.

“First tell me your name,” Catalina repeated, the woman opened her mouth but seemed unable to talk until she croaked.

“Kristy.”

“Well I’ll tell you what I want Kristy...” Catalina sneered reaching out and touching the woman’s face making her flinch away.

“I want to wipe your filthy race from the face of the planet!” Catalina finished her finger nails brushing Kristy’s cheek.

“Lucius darling...do you want her?” Catalina asked glancing up though her lashes towards Lucius who was still standing in the shadows where the light from Catalina’s wand could not reach him, Kristy flinched again when Lucius replied not realizing the second presents in the room.

“I think you’re doing fine on your own,” Lucius grumbled moving into the light, Catalina scowled.

“You’re no fun.” Catalina pouted placing her hands upon her hips, Kristy moved her gaze to Lucius her eyes pleaded with him silently.

“I suppose you would prefer their young girl...that does seem to be your taste as of late.” Catalina mocked, Kristy’s eyes snapped back to Catalina at her words.


“No...No, please not Jenna, kill me but please leave my daughter, I beg you!” Kristy sobbed her words directed towards Lucius.

“Save your breath vermin.” Catalina snarled striking out and slapping Kristy’s face violently her head flung back and hit the headrest hard.

“Let me tell you something,” Catalina said sweetly as if she hadn’t hit her a few moments before and sat beside her on the bed, brushing a strand of hair behind Kristy’s ear she moved her lips closer to it. “What I just did to your husband and what I’m about to do to you is nothing compared for what’s in store for your precious daughter!” Catalina whispered, Kristy shoved Catalina away suddenly and launched herself at Lucius.

“Please...Not my daughter!” Kristy shrieked seizing Lucius robes and kneeling before him, Lucius felt the pain that emanated from her eyes and felt pity for the woman, he was so lost in his pity that he didn’t hear Catalina’s spell as she fired it into Kristy’s back, The spell she used was not the killing curse as blood bubbled to Kristy’s lips before she toppled side-ways to the floor.

“I was tired of her pleading,” Catalina said placing her wand back inside her robes and moving towards Lucius who was staring at the dead woman at his feet, her eyes where open and still upon him in an icy stare.

“Let’s finish this,” Catalina said piercing into Lucius thoughts and making her way out of the bedroom, Lucius glanced once more at Kristy’s lifeless form and took after Catalina.

He followed her up the hallway until she paused next to the only closed door in the hallway and turned to him with a smile on her face.

“So are you going to do this? Seems as though I have done all the work so far.” Catalina said glancing at the door and then back at Lucius.
Lucius pushed past Catalina and opened the door slowly to reduce the noise it made on the thick carpet and stepped into the darkened room, Lucius could clearly make out the bed that was placed under the window so soft moonlight eliminated it.

Lucius stepped car fully across the room with Catalina close behind him, he came to stand beside the bed and looked down upon the girl called Jenna, she looked young, even for a student.

Lucius could not help but notice the similarities between this girl and what Hermione used to look like in school, her hair was the same shade of brown and just as bushy, her face was also the same oval shape, the skin the same complexion the resemblance was uncanny.

“Well are you going to do it some time tonight?” Catalina snapped in a whisper making Lucius look away from the girls face.

Keeping his eyes away from the girl Lucius reached into his robes and pulled out his wand. He heard Catalina beside him breathing heavily with excitement.

Lucius took a deep breath and raised his wand, His eyes drifted back to the girl and the spell died in his chest, Catalina huffed impatiently behind him.

“I can’t do this,” Lucius mumbled lowering his arm and taking a shaky step back from the bed.

“I don’t believe this!” Catalina hissed taking Lucius arm firmly and spinning him round to face her, “Lucius bloody Malfoy afraid to kill one measly mudblood child...What the hell has gotten into you?” Catalina asked her face filled with fury, Lucius merely glared at her.

Catalina snorted and threw Lucius’s arm away in disgust and drew her own wand, before Lucius could do anything Catalina fired the killing curse into the young girls face lifting her small frame from the bed for a moment before it crashed back down and rolled onto the floor with a thump.

Lucius stared open mouthed at the icy dead eyes of the girl who resembled Hermione so and felt bile build up inside his stomach threatening to move up his throat.

“I can’t ignore this Lucius, the Dark Lord must know.” Catalina whispered replacing her wand inside her robes, turning from Lucius she made for the door and was almost clear from Lucius’s view before she was tackled from behind and thrown into the wall.

Catalina’s head swam as her head met the wall with a sickening thwack and barley had time to breathe before Lucius was upon her, pinning her by the throat roughly with both hands.

“I can’t let you do that Catalina,” Lucius snarled, Catalina gagged as Lucius lifted her of her feet and his fingers biting deeply into her flesh.

“...Et....e....g!” Catalina squeaked as she brought up her knee into Lucius’s groin, Lucius stumbled back with a grunt as Catalina crashed to the floor in a heap.

Lucius recovered quickly and fell upon Catalina again, pinning her legs with his body as she thrashed and screamed Lucius’s hands returned to her throat cutting her off mid scream.

His finger bit harder into Catalina’s throat until he felt her bones break beneath his hands, Catalina gagged feebly her eyes wide and afraid.

Lucius squeezed harder until all the fight left Catalina’s body and her now blue face went blank, Lucius sobbed and removed his hands slowly.

He sat for a long time beside Catalina’s body his breathing uneven, he could not bring himself to look at her dead form, she had been his friend since childhood and in a moment of madness he had killed her.

As he sat there he had to think about what to do now, he came up with two options, option one, go back to Voldemort’s manor and make something up, like they were attacked by the order, or option two, do nothing and tell no one...he favoured the latter but knowing that questions would soon arise the first option was the only way.

Getting to his feet his plan in mind Lucius drew his wand and proceeded to make small gashes upon his face and body, then ripped his cloak in so many places that it hung off him in rags once he was pleased with his work Lucius looked at Catalina for the first time, Her face was still blue her throat dented inwards with small puncture wounds where his nails had pierced her.

Bending over, Lucius lifted Catalina’s corpse into his arms and made his way down the stairs, he would first dispose of the body, her injuries too human for the order to have done, then he would go to Voldemort and tell him of her demise.