In a London House

Remus wanted to get as far away from Harry as he could, but he didn\'t make it any further than Harry\'s bedroom before his tired body gave up. He shuffled inside, inwardly snorting at the irony of hiding in Harry\'s bedroom while he was trying to avoid Harry, and leaned against the wall, trying to get his ragged breathing under control.

What was it with his lovers and his wolf form? First Sirius had thought it amusing to play a prank on Snape, using Remus\' condition. And now Harry figured it was a normal thing to let a werewolf shag him, and he\'d ignored Remus\' specific wish and had just used him, much like Sirius had all that time ago.

Remus\' throat burned with betrayal.

\"Remus?\" Harry slipped inside, still naked, just like Remus, and looking thoroughly shocked. \"Why are you so angry?\"

\"I think I have a right to be angry after I\'ve just been raped,\" Remus said quietly.

Harry blanched. \"But I didn\'t...\"

\"I gave you very specific instructions, Harry. I told you not to come near me during the full moon.\"

\"Yeah, but you didn\'t –\"

\"Didn\'t what? Didn\'t say \'no\'? That\'s a bit hard without vocal cords, now is it?\"

Heaving a deep sigh, Harry looked up at Remus and met his gaze. \"You went along with it. I didn\'t think you\'d mind.\"

\"You didn\'tnk.\nk.\" Remus let out a dry laugh. \"You didn\'t think that perhaps I have no control over certain parts of my mind when I\'m in that form. You didn\'t think that, despite my earlier objections, I might not want it. You didn\'t think that I could have infected you.\"

\"But you didn\'t –\"

\"Shut! Up!\" Remus had raised his voice, something he rarely ever diden ien in the throes of passion. \"You are going to sit down and you are going to listen to everything I have to say to you, is that understood?\"

For a moment, Harry seemed torn between wanting to shout back at Remus or wanting to flee the room. But then he gave a quiet nod and sat down on the bed.

\"I had no control over those ur Har Harry. I was stuck in there, trying to stop myself from making a big mistake. I had told you earlier to stay away from me and you deliberately ignored my request. You forced me into doing something I did not want to do, and in my book that counts as rape.\"

Harry buried his face in his hands, his body trembling.

But Remus wasn\'t quite done with him yet. \"Do you have any idea how close you came to getting infected tonight, Harry? One scratch of my claws or one nip of my fangs wohavehave been enough.\"

Harry quietly shook his head.

\"My saliva is infectious. One small scratch and one lick of my tongue and you would have been cursed. Do you want to become a werewolf, Harry? Is that it?\"

\"No,\" Harry said softly.

\"Do you have some romanticized notion of what it\'s like to turn into a monster every month? Do you want to spend the rest of your life as an outcast?\"

\"No,\" Harry said again, louder this time.

\"Then stay away from me during the full moon!\"

Nodding, Harry lowered his gaze, looking properly scolded and slightly defeated.

\"Isn\'t it enough to just have me?\" Remus wondered aloud, unable to stop from voicing his thoughts now that he\'d lost control over his normally so guarded mind. \"I go along with almost everything you want. I shared my memories, my mind with you. I let you see things I\'ve never shown to anyone else. Isn\'t that enough? Merlin, Harry, I love you, but what you did last night is completely unacceptable.\"

Harry\'s head shot up. \"You love me?\"

Remus blinked and frantically backtracked his own words. Yes, of course he loved Harry. He just hadn\'t meant to blurt it out like that. Finally, he nodded his head. \"Yes, Harry.\"

\"No one has ever said that to me before,\" Harry whispered, looking more shocked by Remus\' unintentional confession than he had when Remus had been yelling at him.

Remus deflated; the anger aetraetrayal he\'d felt only moments before melted away at the sight of Harry staring up at him in something that looked an awful lot like disbelief. Taking a deep breath, Remus sat down on the bed beside Harry.

\"You wanted me to show you nhinghings, didn\'t you?\" Remus gave Harry a small smile. \"Well, there you have it. I love you.\"

\"Really?\" Harry sounded hopeful and anxious at the same time.

\"Yes, really.\"

\"Even after what I did?\"

Remus chuckled. \"Loving someone doesn\'t stop you from getting angry with them when they\'ve hurt you. If anything, it makes you angrier when you get hurt by someone you love. But being angry with someone you love doesn\'t make your feelings go away. It takes a lot more than one mistake for me to stop loving you.\"

\"I\'m so sorry,\" Harry whispered, staring down at his feet. \"I had no idea I hurt you. I don\'t want to hurt you.\"

\"Harry, look at me.\" Harry looked up obediently and Remus shifted closer to him. \"You did something stupid and very dangerous last night. But I understand you didn\'t realize what you were doing. It\'s hard to know all the consequences of this curse when you\'re not infected. But Harry...I\'d sooner kill myself than let myself infect you. I wouldn\'t wish this curse on my worst enemies, let alone someone I love.\"

\"I can\'t believe I was so stupid,\" Harry whispered. \"I understand if you don\'t want me anymore.\"

\"Who said anything about me not wanting you anymore?\" Remus asked, rubbing Harry\'s back.

Harry shrugged. \"I practically raped you. I can\'t really see how you can forgive me for that.\"

\"I\'ve forgiven people for worse things than that, Harry.\"

\"Sirius?\" Harry asked, leaning into Remus\' touch.

\"Yes. Although ttooktook me a long time.\"

\"How long will it take you to forgive me?\"

\"Hmm. Let\'s see.\" Remus frowned, and Harry stared at him, worrying his bottom lip. \"I want to make a deal with you, Harry.\"

\"Okay.\"

\"You promise me you will stay away from me during the full moon. Unless your life is in immediate danger, you will not come near me and you will most certainly not spend any time in the same room as me. If you break that promise and if you approach me again like you did last night, I walk away, Harry. If you break that promise, our relationship ier. er. I\'d rather not be with you than risk infecting you. Do you agree to those terms?\"

\"Yes, I promise,\" Harry said solemnly.

\"Then it shouldn\'t take me too long to forgive you.\"

\"I\'m really sorry for being so stupid.\"

\"You aren\'t stupid,\" Remus said, pulling Harry into an embrace. \"You did a stupid thing. There\'s a difference.\"

Harry sighed and wrapped his arms around Remus. They leaned against each other for a long time. Then Remus pulled the covers back and they both crawled into bed.

\"I could use some sleep,\" Remus said and Harry nodded, wrapping his arms around Remus again and lying against him. Remus closed his eyes, and feeling exhausted, he drifted off almost immediately.

When he woke to the feeling of soft lips placing kisses on his face, he felt rested but still weak from his recent transformation. Harry kissed his forehead and his nose and his lips, and Remus smiled, pulling Harry closer.

\"That\'s a nice way to wake up,\" Remus said and kissed Harry back. Harry seemed slightly subdued, not as forceful as he usually was, and Remus realized that Harry was probably worried he\'d do something wrong and was therefore scared to show any real initiative.

\"Turn around,\" Remus whispered, and Harry rolled over, pressing his back against Remus. \"Do you want me to fuck you?\"

s, ps, please,\" Harry said softly.

Remus stroked Harry\'s arse and probed against Harry\'s entrance. Harry was relaxed and Remus easily slid two fingers inside. Harry moaned and pushed back, but Remus took his time even though Harry didn\'t need any real preparation.

\"Remus, please,\" Harry mumbled, and Remus grinned against the back of Harry\'s head, nuzzling his hair.

\"You sound delicious when you beg.\"

\"Please, please, please,\" Harry sighed. Remus chuckled and pulled his fingers out, replacing them with his cock. He was inside Harry in one thrust, but he stilled his hips and just enjoyed the feeling of Hars bos body around him.

\"Remus?\" Harry sounded uncertain. \"Can you say that again?\"

Even though Harry was being vague, Remus had no doubt what Harry wanted to hear him say. He pulled out and slid his cock back inside Harry slowly. \"I love you,\" he whispered into Harry\'s ear and Harry let out a strangled groan.

Remus reached around Harry and curled his fingers around Harry\'s prick. He kept his motions slow, and not just because he wasn\'t back to his normal strength yet. He wanted to savor the moment, because everything had changed since the previous day. Harry had accepted the new rules Remus had set, and Remus had admitted his feelings for Harry.

Even though Remus had fucked Harry many times before, it had never felt this intimate. Harry was responsive, as always, but he also seemed aware now that whatever they had was a real relationship. Not just sex.

\"God, Remus,\" Harry moaned. \"Feels so good.\"

Remus hummed his agreement, fisting Harry in the same slow way he drove in and out of Harry. It lasted forever, or so it felt, y hoy hot and slick against him and around him. Harry\'s climax was silent and Remus didn\'t realize Harry was coming until he felt Harry\'s semen spurt over his fingers.

\"So good,\" Harry moaned quietly as Remus continued to fuck him as slowly as his arousal allowed him to. And when he did give into the need for release, Remus pullerry rry tightly against him, his cock buried deep inside Harry and he came with a gasp of breath, his face pressed against Harry\'s neck.

Kissing Harry\'s shoulder, Remus held Harry, his softening prick still sheathed in Harry\'s body.

\"Remus?\" Harry asked in a small voice.

\"Hm?\" Remus pressed a kiss just below Harry\'s ear.

\"I think I love you too.\"