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Ch 17 Paint it black
CH 17 PAINT IT BLACK
Zephyr, as always, a big thanks
Thanks at the bottom
Not mine, have no money, don’t sue!!
“I look inside myself and see my heart is black
I see my red door and it\'s heading into black
maybe then I\'ll fade away and not have to face the facts
it\'s not easy facing up when your whole world is black
No more will my green sea go turn a deeper blue
I could not foresee this thing happening to you
If I look hard enough into the setting sun
my love will laugh with me before the morning comes”
- Paint it black, The Rolling Stones
Hermione went straight to her rooms to shower. Even through the stone walls she could hear him banging and crashing next door.
(I don’t know what’s wrong with him, but I’m sure I’ll find out soon enough.)
She thought to herself, climbing into bed.
(It is a shame if this is it though. Because for a sad, lonely, sadistic bastard, he definitely knows how to please a woman.)
She was asleep within minutes.
~*~*~*~*~
Severus was trashing his rooms.
(She fucking lied to me.) He thought, grabbing the bottle of brandy off the shelf and taking a deep swig from it.
(And that animal has had his hands on her)
She had told him that, although she seduced the deatheaters she had captured, that she had never slept with them. He had meant it when he said it was none of his business but was secretly pleased. The thought of any of them touching her had always sickened him.
And now he knew.
She had slept with Lucius Malfoy; his oldest friend and biggest rival from his deatheater days. He didn’t know if he was angrier that she had lied to him or that Lucius had been there first. That thought angered him even more. What right did he have to judge anyone else, after all the things he had done?
He remembered the night, two years ago, when Lucius Malfoy had first told him about his mystery woman.
(\"Severus old boy,\" said Lucius, coming over to Severus with two drinks. \"It’s been a while since we last saw you at one of these gatherings.\"
They were standing in the underground chamber at Malfoy manor, where there was a dark revel taking place.
\"I am here at the Dark Lord’s request, he too has noticed my absence and kindly asked me to attend tonight.\"
\"Crucio?\" Asked Lucius in mock sympathy.
\"Twice.\" Replied Severus, glad that the shaking had stopped before he had arrived.
\"Well Severus, he’s quite right you know, you are no fun anymore.\"
\"Lucius, how many times do I have to tell you? That muggle loving fool watches me like a hawk. It’s hard enough to get away for actual meetings, without having to come to things like this.\" He said, gesturing to the debauchery going on around them, and trying to keep the mask of indifference on and not show how disgusted he really was.
\"What are you looking so pleased about anyway?\"
\"I have met a woman.\" Lucius declared triumphantly
\"Another one. Is she here?\" Asked Severus.
Lucius always had a couple of women on the go at one time.
\"No, She is special Severus. I don’t want to share her.\"
\"And where pray tell did you meet this special woman?\"
\"In a bookshop down Knockturn alley.\"
\"Ah yes, I’m sure she is very special then.\" Said Severus sarcastically.
\"Shut your mouth Severus, you know nothing about her,\" snapped Lucius, angrily he stormed off.
Severus was surprised; Lucius almost never lost his cool. She must be very good, for him to want to keep her to himself)
\"Ha,\" said Severus, to the empty room. \"Yes, she was very good.\"
He took another swig from the bottle.
(Severus and Lucius were in Malfoy manor, a few months later. A meeting had just finished and they were sitting in two armchairs by the fire, having drinks.
\"So Lucius, how is your mystery woman, are you going to tell me anything about her?\"
\"Severus, my friend, she is divine.\" Said Lucius, giving Severus a lazy smile. \"She is everything I have ever wanted in a lover and companion besides being the most gorgeous creature I have ever laid eyes on. She has long blonde hair and violet eyes. She’s thirty, but she has the body of an eighteen year old, and she is the most fantastic lover I have ever had, and I’ve had a few. There is nothing she won‘t do.\" He said smirking at his friend, and going on to describe in great detail, some of the things she would do.
\"Well she sounds wonderful Lucius.\" Said Severus, wondering what was wrong with this woman, that she would choose an animal like Lucius.
\"She really is Severus, I swear she is almost worth the hassle of divorcing Narcissa for,\" he said, sounding surprised that he had said the words.
\"Then I wish you both well,\" said Severus, thinking that Lucius must be losing it, to speak so openly, and in his own twisted way, lovingly, about a woman. )
Severus could feel the anger rising up in him as he remembered the last time they had discussed her.
(Lucius had owled Severus on an urgent matter and he had apparated to the manor straight away, thinking that maybe one of their spies had been discovered. As he walked into the dining room, the sight that greeted him was not what he had expected.
Lucius was sitting at the head of the table with his head in his hands and his shirt hanging open.
He looked up as Severus approached and Severus took a step back. Lucius looked like he had been in the fight of his life. His nose was broken, eyes black, lip split, he had nail marks running down his cheeks and an angry red mark around his neck where it looked like someone had tried to strangle him. He also had cuts all over his body.
\"You need to tell your girlfriend to lay off the sex games for a while Lucius, I think she might be a bit much for you.\" Severus said sarcastically, while trying to figure out how many people it had taken to ambush the usually strong man.
Lucius jumped up and raised his wand to Severus. \"What the hell do you know about it?\" He said, voice shaking, his platinum hair falling around his shoulders, caked in blood.
\"Relax, old boy, I was only joking.\" Said Severus, smoothly, suddenly understanding but not quite believing. \"You don’t mean... There’s no way.... Lucius are you trying to tell me that one person did this to you, that she did this to you?\"
\"She’s a fucking auror Severus, how could I be so stupid? How could I fall for an auror? I figured it out when she kept asking me all these questions about the Dark Lord and about all of us, and when I confronted her, she didn’t deny it, so I went for her and she fought back.\"
Severus couldn’t think of any agent with that sort of power and strength of will to keep up a charade like that for almost six months. Well that was a lie, he could think of one but it wasn’t her, she was out of the country, Dumbledore had told him as much, America or something.
\"Is she dead?\" He asked nonchalantly, insides turning at the thought of another agent lost.
\"No\" Said Lucius. \"She managed to get free and apparated, after, and you won’t believe this, blowing me a kiss.\"
Severus tried to hide the smirk on his face with his hand. He most definitely wanted to meet this woman.
\"Does she look as bad as you do?\" Severus asked, with one raised eyebrow.
\"Well,\" said Lucius, an evil grin spreading over his mangled face. \"Put it this way, that pretty face of hers doesn’t look so great anymore, she’ll be scarred for life, unless she’s a genius and I sliced her right across the chest as well.\" He mistook Severus’s disgust as interest. \"Now you know why I always carry a dagger,\" he smiled evilly, \"and if she ever tries to conceive, she’s in for a nasty shock.\"
\"I have to get back Lucius, but I’ll keep an eye out for her.\" Said Severus, desperately trying to get out of there without being sick.
When he got back to Hogwarts, he asked Dumbledore to check that all female aurors were accounted for and all right. They were, none of them had been undercover and none near Malfoy Sr.
Severus had decided that maybe she wasn’t an auror after all; She hadn’t exactly admitted it, just not denied it, maybe hoping to get away more easily. Whoever she was, Severus had the utmost respect for her.)
He finished off the bottle he had been nursing and threw it at the wall, watching it shatter into a thousand pieces.
He wondered if she knew she couldn’t have children, although he doubted after all she had seen and done that she would want them.
\"I will not do this.\" He said to the trashed room. \"I won’t let myself get pulled in like this, nothing else will happen between us. And I am definitely not falling for her.\"
He slumped down in his chair, quite sure that he had convinced himself.
Much love to:
Daxi; Thanks, I am planning on writing it for a long time.28 chapters and counting so far!!
Estrilda; Cliffie wench? not me!! Hope this chapter answered your question!
Rilla; Me too. There’s nothing sexier than sex in the rain, in a field. Apparently!!
Celticwitch; Yay! yourself. I take it you liked?
Nesscafe; thank you so much. For the fab review and your defence of me!!
Kate; Thugette! what a wonderful phrase! And yes, I have found that in my experience there is no such thing as sex without consequence. You’ll see!!
Deb; I got a ‘Lordy’!! glad you liked it. There will be more in the future. Maybe!!
Shem; Thanks mate. Yes I will marry you, just don’t tell my other half *lol* and tattoos, Mmmm!! I’m not worried, Sev says he’s only seeing you because you threatened to sacrifice him if he came back to me, is this true??
Cookie; Sorry about the sucky ending but do you see why it had to stop there? Hope it was worth the wait!
Pixi; Welcome. That’s what I always think. Glad you are enjoying it that much, Thanks!
PotionsMistressM; *blushes* Thank you. I actually smoked about 6 cigs while writing it! Notes on the tattoo below. Gotta love a pair of ‘fuck me boots’ I wouldn’t be without mine, but it is funny that everyone calls them the same thing, great minds and all that!!
Lady Aidil; Thank you. I put a lot of thought into the characters thoughts and feelings and it’s nice to know that people appreciate them.
Marine; Welcome. O.K. stop screaming or I’ll be straight on the Eurostar personally delivering the next chapters *lol* Your English is fine.
Wow, what a great response! I was so nervous about posting the actual smut after the big build up so I’m thrilled that you all seemed to enjoy it!!
Just before I wrote this chapter, I was watching ‘From dusk till dawn’ and as I sat, sliding off my chair at the sight of George Clooney all mean and with that completely lickable tattoo up his neck, I thought ‘hello’ if their was one thing that could in my opinion, possibly make Sev sexier (Impossible as it sounds) it is tattoos. I love them!! Between myself and my partner we have quite an extensive collection on our bodies. Look out for more soon!!
Shem, I’m off to watch ’Romper stomper’ now, as a heavily tattoo’d Russell Crowe hadn’t actually occurred to me!! Bad girl, Grr!!
Kisses
GrrArrg
Zephyr, as always, a big thanks
Thanks at the bottom
Not mine, have no money, don’t sue!!
“I look inside myself and see my heart is black
I see my red door and it\'s heading into black
maybe then I\'ll fade away and not have to face the facts
it\'s not easy facing up when your whole world is black
No more will my green sea go turn a deeper blue
I could not foresee this thing happening to you
If I look hard enough into the setting sun
my love will laugh with me before the morning comes”
- Paint it black, The Rolling Stones
Hermione went straight to her rooms to shower. Even through the stone walls she could hear him banging and crashing next door.
(I don’t know what’s wrong with him, but I’m sure I’ll find out soon enough.)
She thought to herself, climbing into bed.
(It is a shame if this is it though. Because for a sad, lonely, sadistic bastard, he definitely knows how to please a woman.)
She was asleep within minutes.
~*~*~*~*~
Severus was trashing his rooms.
(She fucking lied to me.) He thought, grabbing the bottle of brandy off the shelf and taking a deep swig from it.
(And that animal has had his hands on her)
She had told him that, although she seduced the deatheaters she had captured, that she had never slept with them. He had meant it when he said it was none of his business but was secretly pleased. The thought of any of them touching her had always sickened him.
And now he knew.
She had slept with Lucius Malfoy; his oldest friend and biggest rival from his deatheater days. He didn’t know if he was angrier that she had lied to him or that Lucius had been there first. That thought angered him even more. What right did he have to judge anyone else, after all the things he had done?
He remembered the night, two years ago, when Lucius Malfoy had first told him about his mystery woman.
(\"Severus old boy,\" said Lucius, coming over to Severus with two drinks. \"It’s been a while since we last saw you at one of these gatherings.\"
They were standing in the underground chamber at Malfoy manor, where there was a dark revel taking place.
\"I am here at the Dark Lord’s request, he too has noticed my absence and kindly asked me to attend tonight.\"
\"Crucio?\" Asked Lucius in mock sympathy.
\"Twice.\" Replied Severus, glad that the shaking had stopped before he had arrived.
\"Well Severus, he’s quite right you know, you are no fun anymore.\"
\"Lucius, how many times do I have to tell you? That muggle loving fool watches me like a hawk. It’s hard enough to get away for actual meetings, without having to come to things like this.\" He said, gesturing to the debauchery going on around them, and trying to keep the mask of indifference on and not show how disgusted he really was.
\"What are you looking so pleased about anyway?\"
\"I have met a woman.\" Lucius declared triumphantly
\"Another one. Is she here?\" Asked Severus.
Lucius always had a couple of women on the go at one time.
\"No, She is special Severus. I don’t want to share her.\"
\"And where pray tell did you meet this special woman?\"
\"In a bookshop down Knockturn alley.\"
\"Ah yes, I’m sure she is very special then.\" Said Severus sarcastically.
\"Shut your mouth Severus, you know nothing about her,\" snapped Lucius, angrily he stormed off.
Severus was surprised; Lucius almost never lost his cool. She must be very good, for him to want to keep her to himself)
\"Ha,\" said Severus, to the empty room. \"Yes, she was very good.\"
He took another swig from the bottle.
(Severus and Lucius were in Malfoy manor, a few months later. A meeting had just finished and they were sitting in two armchairs by the fire, having drinks.
\"So Lucius, how is your mystery woman, are you going to tell me anything about her?\"
\"Severus, my friend, she is divine.\" Said Lucius, giving Severus a lazy smile. \"She is everything I have ever wanted in a lover and companion besides being the most gorgeous creature I have ever laid eyes on. She has long blonde hair and violet eyes. She’s thirty, but she has the body of an eighteen year old, and she is the most fantastic lover I have ever had, and I’ve had a few. There is nothing she won‘t do.\" He said smirking at his friend, and going on to describe in great detail, some of the things she would do.
\"Well she sounds wonderful Lucius.\" Said Severus, wondering what was wrong with this woman, that she would choose an animal like Lucius.
\"She really is Severus, I swear she is almost worth the hassle of divorcing Narcissa for,\" he said, sounding surprised that he had said the words.
\"Then I wish you both well,\" said Severus, thinking that Lucius must be losing it, to speak so openly, and in his own twisted way, lovingly, about a woman. )
Severus could feel the anger rising up in him as he remembered the last time they had discussed her.
(Lucius had owled Severus on an urgent matter and he had apparated to the manor straight away, thinking that maybe one of their spies had been discovered. As he walked into the dining room, the sight that greeted him was not what he had expected.
Lucius was sitting at the head of the table with his head in his hands and his shirt hanging open.
He looked up as Severus approached and Severus took a step back. Lucius looked like he had been in the fight of his life. His nose was broken, eyes black, lip split, he had nail marks running down his cheeks and an angry red mark around his neck where it looked like someone had tried to strangle him. He also had cuts all over his body.
\"You need to tell your girlfriend to lay off the sex games for a while Lucius, I think she might be a bit much for you.\" Severus said sarcastically, while trying to figure out how many people it had taken to ambush the usually strong man.
Lucius jumped up and raised his wand to Severus. \"What the hell do you know about it?\" He said, voice shaking, his platinum hair falling around his shoulders, caked in blood.
\"Relax, old boy, I was only joking.\" Said Severus, smoothly, suddenly understanding but not quite believing. \"You don’t mean... There’s no way.... Lucius are you trying to tell me that one person did this to you, that she did this to you?\"
\"She’s a fucking auror Severus, how could I be so stupid? How could I fall for an auror? I figured it out when she kept asking me all these questions about the Dark Lord and about all of us, and when I confronted her, she didn’t deny it, so I went for her and she fought back.\"
Severus couldn’t think of any agent with that sort of power and strength of will to keep up a charade like that for almost six months. Well that was a lie, he could think of one but it wasn’t her, she was out of the country, Dumbledore had told him as much, America or something.
\"Is she dead?\" He asked nonchalantly, insides turning at the thought of another agent lost.
\"No\" Said Lucius. \"She managed to get free and apparated, after, and you won’t believe this, blowing me a kiss.\"
Severus tried to hide the smirk on his face with his hand. He most definitely wanted to meet this woman.
\"Does she look as bad as you do?\" Severus asked, with one raised eyebrow.
\"Well,\" said Lucius, an evil grin spreading over his mangled face. \"Put it this way, that pretty face of hers doesn’t look so great anymore, she’ll be scarred for life, unless she’s a genius and I sliced her right across the chest as well.\" He mistook Severus’s disgust as interest. \"Now you know why I always carry a dagger,\" he smiled evilly, \"and if she ever tries to conceive, she’s in for a nasty shock.\"
\"I have to get back Lucius, but I’ll keep an eye out for her.\" Said Severus, desperately trying to get out of there without being sick.
When he got back to Hogwarts, he asked Dumbledore to check that all female aurors were accounted for and all right. They were, none of them had been undercover and none near Malfoy Sr.
Severus had decided that maybe she wasn’t an auror after all; She hadn’t exactly admitted it, just not denied it, maybe hoping to get away more easily. Whoever she was, Severus had the utmost respect for her.)
He finished off the bottle he had been nursing and threw it at the wall, watching it shatter into a thousand pieces.
He wondered if she knew she couldn’t have children, although he doubted after all she had seen and done that she would want them.
\"I will not do this.\" He said to the trashed room. \"I won’t let myself get pulled in like this, nothing else will happen between us. And I am definitely not falling for her.\"
He slumped down in his chair, quite sure that he had convinced himself.
Much love to:
Daxi; Thanks, I am planning on writing it for a long time.28 chapters and counting so far!!
Estrilda; Cliffie wench? not me!! Hope this chapter answered your question!
Rilla; Me too. There’s nothing sexier than sex in the rain, in a field. Apparently!!
Celticwitch; Yay! yourself. I take it you liked?
Nesscafe; thank you so much. For the fab review and your defence of me!!
Kate; Thugette! what a wonderful phrase! And yes, I have found that in my experience there is no such thing as sex without consequence. You’ll see!!
Deb; I got a ‘Lordy’!! glad you liked it. There will be more in the future. Maybe!!
Shem; Thanks mate. Yes I will marry you, just don’t tell my other half *lol* and tattoos, Mmmm!! I’m not worried, Sev says he’s only seeing you because you threatened to sacrifice him if he came back to me, is this true??
Cookie; Sorry about the sucky ending but do you see why it had to stop there? Hope it was worth the wait!
Pixi; Welcome. That’s what I always think. Glad you are enjoying it that much, Thanks!
PotionsMistressM; *blushes* Thank you. I actually smoked about 6 cigs while writing it! Notes on the tattoo below. Gotta love a pair of ‘fuck me boots’ I wouldn’t be without mine, but it is funny that everyone calls them the same thing, great minds and all that!!
Lady Aidil; Thank you. I put a lot of thought into the characters thoughts and feelings and it’s nice to know that people appreciate them.
Marine; Welcome. O.K. stop screaming or I’ll be straight on the Eurostar personally delivering the next chapters *lol* Your English is fine.
Wow, what a great response! I was so nervous about posting the actual smut after the big build up so I’m thrilled that you all seemed to enjoy it!!
Just before I wrote this chapter, I was watching ‘From dusk till dawn’ and as I sat, sliding off my chair at the sight of George Clooney all mean and with that completely lickable tattoo up his neck, I thought ‘hello’ if their was one thing that could in my opinion, possibly make Sev sexier (Impossible as it sounds) it is tattoos. I love them!! Between myself and my partner we have quite an extensive collection on our bodies. Look out for more soon!!
Shem, I’m off to watch ’Romper stomper’ now, as a heavily tattoo’d Russell Crowe hadn’t actually occurred to me!! Bad girl, Grr!!
Kisses
GrrArrg