TRYING TO REMEMBER

Remus was sitting on the railing of the bridge when he heard footsteps. Even in the shadows he knew who it was. He just wasn’t sure if he could face him yet.

“Hey.”

“Hey, you don’t happen to have an extra.”

“Mr. Lupin you quit when you turned twenty-one. You said the stuff will kill you.”

“Did I?”

Sirius took out a fag from a fairly new pack, lit it, and gave it to Remus. It reminded him so much of being in school. Sitting here on the bridge sharing a fag stealing kisses. Just waiting until James & Peter went to sleep so they could go up to their dorms and make love. They would fake argue whose turn it was to take the top. Sirius loved when Remus made love to him and quite a few times he would get his way even though it was his turn to take it. Now Remus had such a somber look on his face he didn’t know where there futures lie.

“I really needed to see you tonight and now that you’re here I don’t know what or how to say what I have to.”

“Just say it and get it over with.”

“I had another memory tonight.”

“That’s great, no matter what it is, good or bad.”

“The night you told me you loved me. The night I promised I’d never hurt you. How did you find out about me and Tonks?”

“Harry told me the day after you brought me back.”

“I should have told you. Then maybe we wouldn’t be having this conversation. Maybe we could have talked about it instead of you running into someone else’s arms or bed as it may be. I’m sorry I hurt you and drove you away.”

“Remus I could have stayed and listened and by the time I figured it all out. Well Tonks figured it out for me. I realized my place was with you, but you were gone. I imagine by then you were in the accident and at the hospital.”

“It’s frustrating not having all your memories.”

“I know.”

“You lost your memories too?”

“They were stolen from me, at least all the good ones.”

“How?”

“When I was in Azkaban.”

“Azkaban?”

“It’s a wizarding prison. I was falsely accused of betraying James and Lily and murdering twelve muggles and a wizard. Who at the time was a very good friend of ours.”

“I stood by your side, right?”

“No Remus. But that was my fault. I thought you were a spy and didn’t tell you things I should have. So when I was arrested it all made sense in your mind.”

“I’m so sorry. I should have stood by you.”

“And I should have stood by you.”

“Sirius, who was this friend of ours?”

“Peter Pettigrew. I should thank him for confessing so I could come back, but if I ever see the rat again. I’ll so the job we should have done in the shack.”

“Which was?”

“Kill him.”

“But won’t you go back?”

“He’s an escaped deatheater, no one will care. Just like me, they didn’t care if I was brought in dead or alive. I’ll be a hero.”

“You’ll always be my hero.”

Sirius grinned and Remus grabbed the lapels of his coat moved him closer bent down and kissed him.

“I take it I’m forgiven?”

“Shut up.”

Sirius looked out to the sky. “Its twilight babe, you’ve had a long day. You need to go to bed.”

Remus climbed off the railing. “Good because I have this problem and bed would be the perfect place to take care of it.”

He kissed Sirius again holding him very tightly. “And I see you have the same problem.”

“Remus after earlier?”

“Then let me make love to you. I remember how in explicit detail as a matter of fact.”

“That memory came with it?”

“Yeah.”

“Let’s go to your room.”

Sirius and Remus walked back to the castle hand in hand stealing a few kisses along the way.


In the house far away.

“Do you trust him?”

“Not on your life?”

“But it doesn’t matter if we do as long as they do?”

“What are you talking about, Snape?”

“I’ve noticed him snooping around the past couple of days. If he’s loyal to us he’ll give Lupin the memories and they’re apart long enough for us to grab Lupin.”

“And if he’s not?”

“Here is the counter curse.”

“Then what did I throw into the fire?” Lucius looked and the paper was gone. “He took it he’s going to betray us.”

“No he’s going to help us unwittingly of course.”

“So what was in that curse?”

“About an hour after it’s administered, his wounds will open again every moment getting worse and worse. And that’s not the beauty of the plan. You set it up so well as I thought you would.”

“How?”

“Sending Wormtail with Harry. He’ll bring them both back. Lupin to get his memories and Potter to get us but we’ll be waiting.”


In Remus’ room the two lovers were divested of all their clothing. Sirius was on his hands and knees over Remus he was kissing and lapping his older scars being sure to stay away from the fresh bandages. He made his way to his left nipple. Merlin loved his nipples sucking them biting them pulling on them with his teeth. He could see the craving in his lover’s eyes.

“More.?”

Remus tilted his head back “Yes.”

Sirius smiled lapped his tongue further south, administering small kisses along the way, which made Remus shiver.

He got to the belly button and started sucking it and tongue fucking it. Remus had his eyes closed but Sirius could tell they were rolling back into his head. It was time to get him off. Sirius moved down a little and put his mouth around his dick that was now red and weeping with pre-cum. Sirius was squeezing his balls and moving his tongue on the vein underneath, Remus screamed as he came and the door barged open. Sirius ducked under the covers as flat as he could.

“Are you okay?” He noticed that Remus was breathing rather heavily.

Remus nodded yes.

“Did you have another nightmare?”

Remus shook his head no.

“Have you seen Sirius?”

Sirius moved from under the blanket.

“Hello Harry. Can you stand outside for a couple of minutes.”


What Harry didn’t realize is that Sirius was stroking himself under the blankets he was so hard after what he did with Remus plus the excitement of getting caught. After Harry left he climbed on his lover and started grinding his still semi-hard dick. It was just hard enough to make him cum. Sirius collapsed on his lover.

“We’re never going to do this properly unless I take you away, you know that.”

Remus smiled at Sirius “Then take me away.”

“When this whole mess is through I promise I will. I know a nice little island way south from here with exotic birds you wouldn’t believe.”

“Sounds heavenly.”

Sirius threw his pants on and so did Remus.

Sirius went and got Harry.

“What was so important that you had to get me at five thirty in the morning?”

“I found this in my rucksack?”

Harry held up a scrawny grey rat with missing toe.

“A rat?” Screamed Remus. “We got interrupted for a rat?”

Sirius smiled, “Oh Remus not just any rat. Remus meet Peter Pettigrew.”