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Adult ++
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Chapter 16
Disclaimer: See chapter 1
A/N: I know, I know. I haven’t updated in an age and I know it’s only a short one. What can I say, life sucks and there are so many great fanfic stories out there within the fandom that need to be read! Anyway, hoping to update all and finally put my two WIPs to bed before embarking on my next project. Anyway, enjoy!
P.S. a big thanks, to all who have reviewed.
Chapter 16
Sirius stared despondently up at the canopy of his bed in the Gryffindor tower that night. He’d been depressed since his conversation with Remus earlier. How the hell was he supposed to make it right by making it as if this whole incident hadn’t happened?
Yes, he was a wizard but that didn’t make him a fucking miracle worker!
Shit! How he wished that he could make it all never have happened. Well, only the bad bits. He quite enjoyed the two blow jobs he’d received from Remus.
Determined to find a solution to Remus’ challenge; Sirius continue to ponder his dilemma, his resolve only growing as time passed.
Over the following weeks, his spare time was filled with exploring possible solutions to his predicament and his slumbering hours filled with both deliciously hot dreams of Moony and nightmares of being ostracised and of Lupin cutting him out of his life forever.
The day eventually dawned though when Remus had to leave Hogwarts. He had successfully passed his N.E.W.Ts with exceptionally high marks. Sirius had not seen him since their exchange in his new quarters but he did manage to sneak a few minutes alone with the young werewolf before he left the school grounds. However, the meeting was awkward to say the least but undeterred, Sirius summoned all of his Gryffindor bravery to say goodbye to his love.
Breaking the uncomfortable silence between them as they walked towards the apparation point outside the school gates, Black announced suddenly.
“I’m working on it you know? I haven’t given up.” Remus looked at him blankly.
“What you said back in your room.” The animagus added. “About making it right; making it so it had never happened.”
Remus continued to look at him for a while and then his vacant expression changed to one of exasperation.
“Don’t waste your time Padfoot. I didn’t think you’d take what I’d said so literally. You can’t undo it; it simply can’t be done. Time-turners…”
“Time-turners are limited only, to at the maximum 24 hours because of the magic they use and not an option. See, I’ve been researching it.” He declared proudly.
“Don’t you think I haven’t thought about it myself? If it could be undone then I would researched it further.” Remus said, ignoring the previous comment.
“So why did you tell me that if it’s impossible?” Sirius caught on before Remus had time to explain himself. “Oh, I get now. Stupid Sirius doesn’t understand the fine art of sarcasm.”
He felt hurt that he’d taken Moony at his word and thought he could begin to make amends by taking up the challenge. He now realised that Remus hadn’t been serious. He quickly dismissed his feelings though. He had absolutely no right whatsoever to feel put out.
It was he that had caused this entire incident and he was lucky that Lupin was even allowing him to speak to him at all. This was his responsibility to rectify the mess he’d created through his stupid selfish behaviour.
Sirius took Remus’ hand and looked at him deeply and with sincerity. The werewolf shifted uncomfortably.
“I’m so sorry Remus for everything. I know it’s too little, too late and I just didn’t realise it at the time and was just ashamed of my burgeoning sexuality. Black’s aren’t poufs you understand.” Sirius held his other hand up to stop Lupin interrupting him. “I know, I hate my family and all that they stand for but please believe me, some things are harder to disregard when they are bred into you almost from birth. I was raised to believe that being queer is as bad as being a blood traitor or squib and I didn’t want to accept that I was having those feelings.” He breathed in deeply after his long speech.
Out of the corner of his eye, he saw Bratherton walking towards them from Hogwarts.
Realising that their time was short and before he could react, he quickly kissed a shocked Remus hotly before they were interrupted.
“I love you and don’t ever forget that. I promise you that I am going to find a way to right this Moony, even if it takes me until my dying day. All I ask is one thing.”
Sirius looked at Remus expectantly and he dumbly nodded his consent.
“Try and be happy...” He tilted his head towards the oncoming Ravenclaw. “...even if it’s with him.” Black said genuinely.
In the time it took for Remus to turn to where Sirius had indicated, seeing Michael coming over, he strode away quickly. Padfoot had no intentions of sticking around and witnessing their sentimental goodbyes.
Although, he selfishly couldn’t help but feel grateful as he heard the distinctive crack of apparation after only a few short steps.
A not so sentimental goodbye after all. He thought happily.
A/N: I know, I know. I haven’t updated in an age and I know it’s only a short one. What can I say, life sucks and there are so many great fanfic stories out there within the fandom that need to be read! Anyway, hoping to update all and finally put my two WIPs to bed before embarking on my next project. Anyway, enjoy!
P.S. a big thanks, to all who have reviewed.
Chapter 16
Sirius stared despondently up at the canopy of his bed in the Gryffindor tower that night. He’d been depressed since his conversation with Remus earlier. How the hell was he supposed to make it right by making it as if this whole incident hadn’t happened?
Yes, he was a wizard but that didn’t make him a fucking miracle worker!
Shit! How he wished that he could make it all never have happened. Well, only the bad bits. He quite enjoyed the two blow jobs he’d received from Remus.
Determined to find a solution to Remus’ challenge; Sirius continue to ponder his dilemma, his resolve only growing as time passed.
Over the following weeks, his spare time was filled with exploring possible solutions to his predicament and his slumbering hours filled with both deliciously hot dreams of Moony and nightmares of being ostracised and of Lupin cutting him out of his life forever.
The day eventually dawned though when Remus had to leave Hogwarts. He had successfully passed his N.E.W.Ts with exceptionally high marks. Sirius had not seen him since their exchange in his new quarters but he did manage to sneak a few minutes alone with the young werewolf before he left the school grounds. However, the meeting was awkward to say the least but undeterred, Sirius summoned all of his Gryffindor bravery to say goodbye to his love.
Breaking the uncomfortable silence between them as they walked towards the apparation point outside the school gates, Black announced suddenly.
“I’m working on it you know? I haven’t given up.” Remus looked at him blankly.
“What you said back in your room.” The animagus added. “About making it right; making it so it had never happened.”
Remus continued to look at him for a while and then his vacant expression changed to one of exasperation.
“Don’t waste your time Padfoot. I didn’t think you’d take what I’d said so literally. You can’t undo it; it simply can’t be done. Time-turners…”
“Time-turners are limited only, to at the maximum 24 hours because of the magic they use and not an option. See, I’ve been researching it.” He declared proudly.
“Don’t you think I haven’t thought about it myself? If it could be undone then I would researched it further.” Remus said, ignoring the previous comment.
“So why did you tell me that if it’s impossible?” Sirius caught on before Remus had time to explain himself. “Oh, I get now. Stupid Sirius doesn’t understand the fine art of sarcasm.”
He felt hurt that he’d taken Moony at his word and thought he could begin to make amends by taking up the challenge. He now realised that Remus hadn’t been serious. He quickly dismissed his feelings though. He had absolutely no right whatsoever to feel put out.
It was he that had caused this entire incident and he was lucky that Lupin was even allowing him to speak to him at all. This was his responsibility to rectify the mess he’d created through his stupid selfish behaviour.
Sirius took Remus’ hand and looked at him deeply and with sincerity. The werewolf shifted uncomfortably.
“I’m so sorry Remus for everything. I know it’s too little, too late and I just didn’t realise it at the time and was just ashamed of my burgeoning sexuality. Black’s aren’t poufs you understand.” Sirius held his other hand up to stop Lupin interrupting him. “I know, I hate my family and all that they stand for but please believe me, some things are harder to disregard when they are bred into you almost from birth. I was raised to believe that being queer is as bad as being a blood traitor or squib and I didn’t want to accept that I was having those feelings.” He breathed in deeply after his long speech.
Out of the corner of his eye, he saw Bratherton walking towards them from Hogwarts.
Realising that their time was short and before he could react, he quickly kissed a shocked Remus hotly before they were interrupted.
“I love you and don’t ever forget that. I promise you that I am going to find a way to right this Moony, even if it takes me until my dying day. All I ask is one thing.”
Sirius looked at Remus expectantly and he dumbly nodded his consent.
“Try and be happy...” He tilted his head towards the oncoming Ravenclaw. “...even if it’s with him.” Black said genuinely.
In the time it took for Remus to turn to where Sirius had indicated, seeing Michael coming over, he strode away quickly. Padfoot had no intentions of sticking around and witnessing their sentimental goodbyes.
Although, he selfishly couldn’t help but feel grateful as he heard the distinctive crack of apparation after only a few short steps.
A not so sentimental goodbye after all. He thought happily.