*Deserving Of Love*

A/N: This is a pretty long chapter, but hopefully enjoyable. Please please please (!) review... I love them and hardly get any of them at all...


“Well look what the wolf dragged in… Very kind of you to grace me with your presence. Finally. Tea?”

Sirius winked at Tonks and reached for a second teacup as he poured the boiling hot liquid into his own. She crossed the kitchen and waited for him to set the pot down before enveloping him in a tight hug.

“Hey there cousin… what have you been up to these last few days?”

Sirius handed her a cup and glanced at her with a sideways smirk as he walked to the table. Tonks followed and sat down across from him, holding contact uncomfortably as his eyes searched hers, a sly smile coming to his lips.

“I believe I should be asking you those questions, my dear lady. I take it that the past few days have been kind to you. Of course two days of shagging can’t possibly be bad now could they?”

Tonks blushed profusely and looked down at her tea; her jaw twitched nervously as she attempted to restrain the broad smile playing over her features. She looked up and met her cousin’s eyes, secretly daring him to ask her for details of the past two days, but dreading it all the same.

“All I’m going to say is that I had a good couple of days…”

“Good eh? You look like you can hardly walk… the past few days had to have been better than just good.”

“I can not believe you actually just said that… it’s true, but nonetheless Sirius… you’re positively shameless…”

Sirius smirked and shook his head slowly as he sipped his tea and watched a blushing Tonks carefully, only looking up when the kitchen door swung open and Remus bound into the room. He had changed after they arrived, throwing on a pair of grey trousers and a white button-down; Tonks approved of his newfound affinity for dressing more casually.

“Hey Padfoot… I see the interrogation has begun.”

Remus sat next to Tonks and leaned in to give her a quick kiss before picking up her teacup and helping himself. Sirius smiled and shook his head as Tonks wound her arm around Remus’ and rested her head against his shoulder.

“You two are so cute that I feel like I’ve just eaten an entire box of Puking Pastilles.”

Tonks snorted and crawled into Remus’ lap, wrapping her arms around his neck and placing a quick kiss on his extremely pink cheek before turning to an amused Sirius.

“Oh you’re just jealous that I get to kiss Remus whenever I want…”

“I’ll have you know, Miss Tonks, that I could kiss Remus whenever I want as well. He may not be as enthused as when you kiss him, but I could get away with it. Of course that would really start people talking again…”

Sirius and Remus both burst out in a fit of laughter, Remus shaking his head and wrapping his arms tightly around Tonks. She pulled back from him and looked back and forth between the two laughing men.

“What do you mean? Talking about what?”

Sirius was the first to speak, his voice slightly strained and his words jumbled at first from his bout of laughter.

“The-there was a rumor around a few years back, before I was sent to Azkaban, that Remus and I were lov-lovers. And after I escaped and Remus left Hogwarts after only one year of teaching, the rumors started again. Of course Snivellus had something to do with the reinstatement of them…”

“Oh… well honestly, when I first came here and I saw how Remus and you interacted, I kind of questioned your relationship myself. That was until I caught Remus checking out my ass one day.”

Sirius roared with laughter as Remus’ face burned a bright red, him looking at Tonks with wide eyes. She giggled and pressed a quick kiss onto his mouth, pulling back as she felt him swat her playfully on the ass.

“It’s true. I was finally going to just come out and ask you about Sirius one afternoon. I was making tea, reached for the honey on the top shelf of the cupboard and when I turned around your eyes were glued to me. You were so embarrassed that you almost flipped the entire table over trying to stand up. After that I kept noticing you staring at me or flirting with me in small ways, so I figured you weren’t into boys after all.”
Remus blushed profusely, but nodded and pulled her closer to his chest.

“I remember that day. You were wearing a scandalously short skirt, and when you reached for the honey I could see your knickers. Of course you jumping up and down only made the skirt rise higher. I was torn between fleeing the room and using my wand to keep the honey out of your reach just so I could stare longer. I was completely mortified when you turned around and caught me staring. I do not believe I looked you in the eye for the rest of the day.”

“Just be glad I was even wearing knickers…”

Sirius laughed and slapped his hand on the table as Tonks blushed and stood up to refill her and Sirius’ teacups.

“Add a drop of honey to that, will you?” Remus called over his shoulder, causing Sirius and Tonks to burst into a fresh round of laughter. She strolled over and stood behind Remus to wrap her arms around his neck and press her mouth to his ear.

“It was just part of my little plan… had to do something to get you to notice me. All the flirting I was doing went right over your head. I figured that if I flashed you some panties and you still ignored me then my suspicions about you and Sirius were probably true.”

“I’ve been meaning to thank you for that by the way – for stealing my boyfriend that is. Very kind of you. Now I here I am, all alone and brooding while you get to snog Remus anytime you want.”

Sirius faked a pout and sniffed dramatically before breaking into a broad smile at seeing Remus roll his eyes and shake his head.

“We talked about this the other night, remember? You’re brilliant, good-looking, and a man would be lucky to have you, but you’re just not my type. For one, you snore. Loudly. Two, you’re hairy –“

“Like you are one to talk, wolf-boy…”

“Three, you interrupt me when I’m talking to call me derogatory names, and four… you’re a bloke. I would say that the fates are against you mate… especially since Tonks is none of those things and she possesses certain… qualities and attributes… that outweigh all the charm you could ever possibly muster.”

“Of course the qualities and attributes he’s talking about mostly deal with the fact that I can increase the size of my breasts at will.” Tonks wrinkled her nose and her breasts doubled in size for a moment before she returned them to normal size and continued speaking. “That and I am extremely flexible... I can bend like a willow branch. You should have seen some of the positions he –“

Tonks was interrupted by a loud playful “NO MORE!” from Sirius, who had his hands pressed firmly over his ears as he shook his head violently. His eyes were closed and his cheeks were stained a bright pink, the shock and embarrassment of his little cousin talking so unabashedly about sex with his best friend proving to be one of the few things that could actually make Sirius blush. A strange collection of emotions played on his face – his brows were drawn together tightly, mixing with the smile he wore to give his face an almost painfully amused look to it. Tonks and Remus burst into a roaring fit of laughter as he finally stopped shaking his head and carefully removed one hand from his ear and opened one eye to peek at them.

“I could have gone to the grave without ever hearing that… unfortunately, every time I look into my backyard and see the Willow tree swaying lazily in the breeze I’m going to have a vision of… never mind. I do not wish to think on it anymore. You are a wicked girl and if your mother knew what had just come out of your mouth… I should take you over my knee right now and save her the trouble.”

“Sorry mate, that’s my job. If anyone gets to throw her over their knee, it’s going to be me.”

Tonks chuckled at this and swooped in to straddle Remus, causing another loud protest from Sirius.

“Promise?” She whispered against his mouth, flicking her tongue out to tease him until he leaned forward to capture her lips. He kissed her roughly, pressing her back firmly against the table as he held her hips to his quickly-hardening groin. They broke apart suddenly when a vast amount of water and ice rained down onto them, Tonks thrown to the floor as Remus stood suddenly, sputtering and freezing in shock. She turned and saw Sirius doubled with laughter, her wand clutched tightly in one of his hands, the other wiping tears from his shining eyes. He threw the wand on the table and made a mad dash for the door, a dripping wet Remus smiling and chasing him out of it. Tonks shook her head in complete disbelief at what had just transpired. Remus bound back into the kitchen out of breath, laughing at the sight of a soaked and shivering Tonks still sitting on the floor.

“Are you ok?”

She nodded as he helped her up and rubbed his hands up her arms for a minute before pulling out his wand and casting a drying spell on both of them. She sighed and tried to blow away the purple hair hanging limply in her face before finally wrinkling her nose and turning it to a long wavy strawberry-blond.

Remus felt his chest tighten briefly as Tonks shook her hair and looked at him with sparkling green eyes; he suddenly leaned forward and kissed her, Tonks squeaking with shock as he pulled her tightly against him. He kissed a path to her ear and ran his tongue around the outer shell of it before pressing his cheek against it.

“Merlin help me… You look so beautiful right now that I think I’m going to need another bucket of ice water, or I’m going to shag you right here in the kitchen.”

Tonks laughed huskily and stood on tip toe to kiss him, directing him back towards the table. He hit the edge and Tonks pushed him forcefully, making him lay down as she climbed on top of him. She finally broke the kiss and grabbed her wand from the table, flicking it at the door to silence and lock the room before tossing it down and turning back to grin mischievously at a very surprised Remus.

“Now that sounds like a good idea…”

Remus started to protest as Tonks captured his mouth in a searing kiss, her tongue sliding easily past his lips to tease his own. She sucked on his tongue and felt a hoarse groan rumble through his chest, and she ground her hips against his in response. Remus finally jerked his mouth away from hers and she attacked his neck instead, licking a path from his throat to his jaw line. She nibbled on his jaw lightly as she reached behind her with one hand and snaked her hand under the waistband of his pants. Remus made a move to stop her by putting his hands on her hips to move her, but she was highly aroused and he could smell it coming off of her in waves; his head went cloudy as a result. He pressed her down harder against him as his hips shot up against her hand, a loud groan escaping as she wound her fingers tightly around his growing erection. He shook his head, trying to clear away the lust-induced fog so rational thought could come through and he gripped her hips harshly, stopping the rocking movements that were driving him mad.

“We shouldn’t be doing this here… this is the table we hold meetings at, where we eat at… Oh Merlin, Nymphadora… where did you learn that?”

Tonks smiled and pressed a finger to his lips with her free hand, the other one moving lazily up and down his now-freed erection. He eased up his grip on her hips, allowing her to rock against him again, the friction caused by her jeans and her hand rubbing against his length almost driving him over the edge instantly. She stopped rocking and leaned down across him, staying just out of the reach of his lips as he tried to kiss her.

“Remus… just shut up and fuck me. I know you want to… let the wolf come out and play…”

She crushed her lips to his and moaned as she felt one of his hands leave her waist and snake between their bodies briefly. She felt him pull his wand from his pants pocket and he flicked it, leaving them both very naked. Tonks broke the kiss and smiled at him, her heart racing in response to the feral look in his amber eyes as they scanned down her body. He flipped them suddenly, pinning her arms above her head and holding them with one hand as he used the other to guide himself to her entrance. He looked into her sparkling eyes before thrusting harshly into her, his grip tightening on her wrists, his free hand holding onto her hip.

“Be careful what you ask for Nymphadora…”

Tonks moaned loudly as he bit her nipple roughly before soothing it with his tongue, and whimpered as his hips bucked wildly against hers. He licked a line to her throat and nibbled on her pulse point, the smell of her blood pulsating through her veins driving him to near madness and he had to use the last of his control to keep from biting into her harder.

He pulled away from her neck and watched as she writhed beneath him, her eyes closed tightly as she bit her lip to keep from crying out. She wrapped her legs around his waist as he buried his face in her neck, the hand resting at her waist moving between their bodies to rub her sensitive bud as he sped up the thrusting of his hips. She shuddered against him as she came, crying out as she felt his release, him growling harshly into her neck as he exploded into her. Her legs dropped open around him as he stopped thrusting, his face still buried in her neck until his breathing slowed to near-normal. He felt Tonks swallow harshly and she whimpered as he lifted his face from her neck to look at her. Her eyes were still closed tightly and her bottom lip was bleeding from where she had been biting it; he looked up and realized that he was still gripping her wrists tightly, his knuckles white with the force he was using, and he released her quickly.

A surge of guilt overcame him and he gently took her hands in his, bringing them down so he could press gentle kisses against the bright red marks circling her wrists. Tonks whimpered as he did this and he closed his eyes at the sound and dropped her hands to bury his face in her neck, tears prickling his eyes at the realization of just how rough and brutal his taking of her was. She wrapped her arms around his head, holding him tightly to her, lazily tangling her fingers through his hair as she felt herself grow limp with exhaustion. She felt something wet on her collarbone and she blinked her eyes open, looking down to see a tear making its way down Remus’ long nose.

“Remus? What’s…”

He buried his face deeper into her neck and started mumbling, and Tonks was only able to hear snippets of what he was saying.

“I’m sorry… too close to the full moon… lost control… should have said I was hurting you… should not be with such a dangerous… would not blame you if…”

Tonks lifted his head and ran a thumb over his furrowed brow until he opened his eyes cautiously. He stared at her neck, running his fingers over the large purple bite mark at the base of her throat, avoiding her eyes at all costs.

“Look at me…” Tonks whispered, her throat tightening as his saddened eyes rose to meet hers. “You’re right, you were out of control, and dangerous, and I am a little sore…” Remus closed his eyes at her words and she pressed a kiss against his nose before continuing, “But Merlin help me if that wasn’t the most amazing feeling ever. I’ve been waiting for that for months now… I like it when you lose control Remus… I’m a strong woman, I can handle it.”

Remus finally opened his eyes to meet hers, and she saw disbelief in his amber eyes at her statement. She tilted his head up and kissed him softly, holding the kiss for a minute before breaking it to whisper against his lips.

“I guess I should have told you earlier that I like it rough…”

Remus chuckled at this and Tonks sighed in relief at the noise. He brushed his thumb over her swollen bottom lip again before lowering his head to place gentle kisses over it, rising to meet her eyes after it was thoroughly attended to.

“You are sure you’re ok?”

Tonks smiled and wrapped her arms and legs around him tightly then pressed her face against his ear.

“Are you kidding? I’m ready for another go. However, that, I’m afraid, may have to wait until later… I’m sure Sirius is already sitting right outside that door waiting to take the Mickey out of us as it is.”

Remus chuckled and shifted, begrudgingly pulling himself out of Tonks’ body, and scooted off the table to stand before her. He still felt guilty as he looked over her body and saw the red marks he had left on her throat, hips and wrists.

He smiled, realizing what he could do to make it up to her; he ran his hands over her stomach slowly before reaching down and grabbing her hips, pulling her so that she was still lying, her legs off the edge of the table. He picked up his wand and cast a cleansing spell on her, then grinned mischievously as he pressed a kiss against her belly. He watched hesitant desire flash in Tonks’ eyes as he lowered himself to his knees, not particularly caring if Sirius was sitting outside the door at that very moment.

“Remus, what are you… Sirius is…”

He opened her legs further and kissed up her thighs, inhaling the smell of her before tracing his tongue along her folds, causing her to moan and jerk suddenly. He ran his tongue over her clit and sucked it into his mouth for a second, finally releasing it when a strangled moan made its way out of Tonks’ mouth.

“Nymphadora... trust me... he can wait just a little while longer… ”