TRYING TO REMEMBER

Past the guarded room was four people arguing.

“You’re fucking in love with him. I should have never sent you to kill him off. Why do you keep this counter curse around in hopes that some day he will leave Black? You’ve seen the memories, he loves Black. He brought him back from the veil for Merlin’s sake.”

“We control his memories.”

“No Severus not all of them.”

“If Bellatrix didn’t fuck up the Obliterate Charm we would.”

“Do we know how many and what memories he has retrieved.”

“Maybe three.”

“We have the David memories and coupled along with the fact that Sev here was David if we implant those memories it just might be enough to get him away long enough to KILL HIM. Got that Severus our goal is to kill Lupin. Killing Lupin , kills Potter, killing Potter within the year of his death brings back the Dark Lord. Do you get it? Fuck him when he’s dead.”

Lucius took the piece of paper with the counter curse and flung it in the fireplace, just on the edge of the fire. They didn’t notice a scrawny grey rat with a missing toe take it out. Lucius then went to the room with the Pensieve as the door opened the rat snuck in behind them and hid in a hole. Lucius took three viles and took a memory out of the pensieve. It was the night of the party at Mollys and Remus heard Sirus voice

*FLASHBACK*

“No, you’re the best Dave. Please harder, fuck me harder.”

“And you’re never going to fuck him again are you.”

“No just you babe. Please make me cum.”

*END FLASHBACK*

“I think this is a suitable memory. Snape concentrate on the night of Shaklebolt’s party.”

*FLASHBACK*

Snape as David pulled Sirius by his shirt and planted a kiss on his lips; Sirius tried to pull away at first but then gave in. His tongue was swirling all over his mouth with need and desire, not like Remus’ at all and he liked the new sensation and it showed. Snape drew Sirius closer and he could feel his rock hard cock and wanted nothing more to alleviate the problem. Sirius was dragged to a room upstairs where Snape proceeded to unbutton Sirius shirt licking his chest, nipples and what ever else he could get his tongue on. He slowly unbutton and unzipped the tight leather pants and was in for a surprise, Sirius went without underwear that night. Snape gathered Sirius larger than average cock in his mouth and started sucking on it hard, moving his head back and forth. Sirius moved his hips back and forth fucking Snape’s mouth until he came. Sirius unbutton David’s shirt was giving light kisses down his neck and across his chest.

“Are you going to suck my cock or what?”

Sirius tore open the button of his pants and unzipped them then took his cock in his mouth and started to lick it all over.

“I want to fuck your mouth, Black.” And he did pulling out just as he was coming and it spilled all over Sirius face. He licked it off and then kissed him deeply.

“You know I always fancied you in school, but by the time I was old enough you didn’t seem to be fucking around anymore. Some people thought you fell in love with some muggle.”

“No.”

*END FLASHBACK*

Severus got hard just thinking of that night.

“Now the night at those filthy Weasley’s house.”

*FLASHBACK*

Severus saw Lupin coming in with a determined look on his face, so he grabbed Black divested him of his clothes lubricated himself slightly and fucked Sirius brains out.

“Did Lupin ever fuck you this good?”

“No, you’re the best Dave. Please harder, fuck me harder.”

“And you’re never going to fuck him again are you.”

“No just you babe. Please make me cum.”

*END FLASHBACK*

“Now we just need to find Lupin and implant them back. And Severus,” Lucius said looking at his very hardened cock, “go take care of that.”

The two left the room and the rat transformed to his human self Peter Pettigrew. Peter took a page out of Sirius book and transformed into a rat when the deatheaters escaped and followed them here. Looking in the pensieve he knew he needed a memory just Sirius and Remus shared. Though looking at his friends memories was heart breaking because there were many with him and James too. When they were the Marauders.

He found what he was looking for so intimate and loving, now he needed a way to get this stuff to them. Surely Sirius would want to move Remus as soon as possible knowing that the security of Grimmauld Place had been breached. He probably knew where but how to get in? He turned back into the rat and went back into the hole and traveled between the walls until he found another opening. He scurried across the floor but suddenly he was being held up.

“Wormtail just the person we need.”

Lucius pointed his wand and Peter turned back human. “I have an assignment for you. Since you were so instrumental in bringing our master back last time you can do the same now.”

“You’re bringing the master back?”

“Yes we are. In order to bring him back we need to kill Potter. In order to kill Potter we need to kill Lupin. In order to kill Lupin we need to know where he is. I want you to hide in Potters rucksack and find out where they are hiding him. Then I need you to take these vials and retrieve the memories out and give them to Lupin. Our master will be very grateful to you. Even a talentless twit like you can complete this task. GO!!!”

At least Peter now had a plan.


At Grimmauld Place Poppy had just finished fixing up Remus when she came down.

“When can we move him?”

“Depends how, floo or apparition any time. Knight bus or broom a few days.”

“Floo it is.”

“You’ll need to change his bandages at lest once before the night is through. Or at least someone will need to. He made me tell you that he did not want to see you.”

“Do you think he can stay at Hogwart’s for a few days? I need to get things ready.”

“Where are you going to take him?”

“Home.”

With that Sirius flooed out of there.

Harry helped Remus downstairs.

“We’re going to Hogwarts. It’s not safe here anymore. Sirius went ahead to prepare our new hide out.”

“I’ll be happy if he never comes back.”

“Really.”

“Yes.”

Poppy found an empty spacious room for Remus.

Remus started to think about the days events and realized that maybe he and Sirius need to talk if only he knew where he was.

Remus walked the grounds and found himself on the bridge as he was years ago fighting with Sirius.

*FLASHBACK*

“Sirius. Leave me alone. I get it. You hate me.”

“That’s not true.”

“Really Sirius let’s lay the facts in front of us. I’ve been in your bed for two years now, have you ever kissed me besides my body.”

“And that didn’t feel good?”

“It felt great but I want more. I want to know what it’s like to kiss you on the lips. To have my tongue explore each crevice of your mouth.”

“I can’t do that.”

“You do it to every other girl and boy in this school. I won’t infect you by kissing you.”

“That’s not it.”

“I won’t infect you by making love to you either.”

“I know.”

“Why did you try to kill me and Snape?”

“I saw you fucking him. I was so enraged I just wanted to get even.”

“Get even? I thought it was you. I should have known. You would never let me make love to you.”

“Remus that’s not fair.”

“Isn’t it? I want to pleasure you the way you pleasure me.”

“You do.”

“Sirius just forget it. Find another fuck toy. You’re just not worth it.”

Sirius eyes welled up.

“YOU DON’T FUCKING GET IT LUPIN. I CAN’T KISS YOU OR LET YOU MAKE LOVE TO ME BECAUSE I’M SCARED. I’M SCARED BECAUSE YOU’RE THE ONLY ONE THAT CAN DESTROY ME. NOT PHYSICALLY BUT MENTALLY AND EMOTIONALLY. I LOVE YOU REMUS. If we do those things and you leave me it will kill me. Because it will mean something. I can’t let you hurt me like that, I’d leave you first.”

“You’re such a stupid git. What makes you think that I don’t feel the same way. Remember I said those three words to you last year. Have I ever been with everyone else? No. Sirius I don’t want anyone else. I love you. I’ve always loved you."

“Please don’t break my heart.”

“Never.”

Remus leaned in and Sirius grabbed him and kissed him first lightly then harder and harder. He separated Remus lips with his tongue and slowly worked it deeper and deeper into his mouth exploring the roof along with the tongu. Remus grabbed the back oh his head and started sucking on Sirius’ tongue, which made him moan amongst other things.

“I want you,” whispered Sirus.

“Here on the bridge? I’ll freeze my bits off.”

“No. C’mon there’s an empty class room near by.” Sirius dragged Remus to an empty room. The boys were started snoggin and Sirius unbuttoned Remus’ robe, lifted the hem of his sweater, undid his tie. He grabbed both ends and pulled Remus closer. He never realized kissing him would be one of the best things he felt in his life. He slowly unbuttoned Remus shirt and his mouth followed as each button. When his shirt was fully unbuttoned Sirius slid his hands on Remus shoulders and slipped off his top.

“Have I ever told you you’re beautiful?”

Remus shook his head.

“You are. Things are going to change. Starting with this.”

Sirius unbuttoned Remus pants and slowly unzippered them. Sirius pulled his pants down along with his cotton boxers, revealing Remus fully erect cock. Sirius licked his long shaft which made Remus shudder as he had never been on the receiving end of these types of going ons. Sirius then licked the top of the head and Remus groaned. Then he took s much as he could in his mouth. He always knew Remus was large but until he tried totake him he never realized just how big. As Sirius started sucking Remus was convulsing and breathing really heavy seconds later he came, and Sirius swallowed every last drop.

Sirius smiled at his lover, and started kissing his and licking his scars.

“Sirius, I think you’re underdressed.” With a wave of a wand Sirius was fully divested of his clothes. Sirius laid Remus across a long table.

“I want to know what it’s like to have you inside me.”

“We’ve never done this before. I’m not sure of what I’m doing.”

“I’ll help you.”

Remus took his wand muttered something and his fingers were lubricated. Remus stuck his finger in Sirius ass.

“Easy baby. Move your finger towards underside of the scrotum. It’s a small bulb-like thing, you'll know when your're there.

Remus did exactly what Sirius told him.

Sirius gasped “Yeah that’s it.Now massage it.”

Again Remus did as he was told and Sirius was gasping foor air and breathing heavy. He didn’t want Remus to stop. Gods the boy was a fast learner. He had to stop him or else he’d be coming soon and he wanted to feel his cock inside of him. He moved Remus’ hand.

“Am I doing something wrong?”

“No, babe. You are doing everything right. I just want to cum with you inside me. I want you to feel what it’s like when I orgasm and it’s so intense that you follow right behind me. Like I do. Take both your fingers and stick tem inside me then move them in and out.”

Remus again did what he was told.

“That’s great babe. Because you’re well endowed, you might need to add another finger to stretch me out a bit more than normal.”

Remus added another finger and was moving them around inside of him and then spread them and contracted them.

“I think I’m ready. Don’t forget to be generous with the lube.”

Remus grabbed his wand and pointed it at his dick and it was lubricated. Remus stroked himself a couple of time just to make sure it was spread evenly.

“Ready or not here I come.”

Sirius climbed on top of Remus and maneuvered himself for the easiest and most direct entrance. He winced as he impaled himself on Remus, and started moving up and down.

“How’s that feel?”

“Great.” Remus flipped him so Sirius was on the bottom now and he was moving faster and faster then he started kissing him . He then grabbed Sirius cock and started stroking it. What Remus didn’t realize with each pounding he was hitting Sirius prostrate. Sirius was in ecstasy and cam. Remus came soon after. After they were fully sated Sirius took Remus in his arms and kissed the top of his head.

“I love you, babe.”

“I love when you call me that. And Sirius, you’re such a girl.”

*END FLASBACK*

Remus thought about this newest memory and how much he had come along since then. How much they had come along. It finally mad sence he now realized why Sirius went to David’s arms so quickly. Right now all he wanted was a fag and Sirius.