Searching My Soul

Searching My Soul
by
snapesgirl1981

AN: It was pointed out to me that Harry
is uncharacteristically timid and would normally show more Gryffindor
courage. Well, you would be right if this story was set during the
fifth years but at the end of OotP Harry felt lost and alone. He was
to return home to the hated Dursleys and had to deal with his
godfather's death all alone. In this story he just found out he is
gay, not easy for a 16-year old boy to deal with, he is attracted to
a person who can be intimidating at times (we all know and love our
potions Master) and in this situation he is totally out of his
element. Give me some time and you get your courageous Harry back but
this is a process that demands strength and patience. Please,
remember the title of the story- I figure finding your soul after it
was lost is not an easy endeavour.

Please continue the smart reviews and ask
all the questions you want to ask and please point out when something
appears terribly out of character. A side note: I am aware that my
vocabulary is lacking especially in regards to the graphic scenes but
unfortunately we didn't learn that in my Highschool. I am no native
so if it sounds awkward, I apologise in advance. I try to present sex
as something precious- because that's what it is.

Chapter
16

Carefully,
his fingers trembling slightly, Harry gripped the small vial tightly
and dipped his index finger into the cool content. Snape watched him
with an amused grin on his pale features, looking relaxed as he had
stretched out on the silken cover. His arms were crossed behind his
head, his long strands of hair falling over his shoulders , the lean
body moulding to the black satin.

The
boy looked up in trepidation obviously at a loss what to do, his
green eyes flickering. Snape sighed and leaned forward, gently
touching Harry's arm.

„Simply
apply it generously outside and inside.“ He bored his dark pools
into Harry's green ones. „And do try to relax, Potter.“

Harry
nodded curtly something in his face changing, setting his lips in
determination. He carefully shifted so that he could reach between
Snape's spread legs and began to apply the lubricant as he had been
told. The feeling of his finger slowly disappearing inside the man's
body was one of the weirdest feelings Harry had ever felt, but at the
same time for some reason he felt his cock respond to it. His teacher
had closed his eyes and Harry hoped that he was enjoying it as much
as he did. If Snape hated him after tonight or considered him
worthless as a lover, at least he would have this picture for the
rest of his life. After what felt like forever he hesitantly pulled
his finger out, his cock demanding something else.

He
placed the vial back on the night table and kneeled between the pale
thighs of his potions professor. Instead of entering instantly, he
bent over the white chest and fasted his mouth around one of the dark
nipples sucking and licking simultaneously. Snape gasped and groaned
deeply from his throat and this encouraged Harry to attack the other
nipple in a similar way. His hands found their way down to Snape's
half erect cock closing the fingers around the surprising thick
shaft. In rythm with his sucking he began to pump and was once again
rewarded by a throaty moan.

Snape
felt like he was slowly losing all sense of control over the
situation and his body. He had been unprepared when the boy had began
to suck on his nipple when Snape had expected him to enter him
swiftly. The talented fingers around his pulsating cock felt heavenly
and when another hand began to fondle his balls, he inhaled deeply.
He surely hadn't expected that kind of talent after Potter's loud
protest that he was inexperienced in the arts of love.

„Stop
that, Potter!“ His voice was sharp as ice and had the desired
effect. On both the boy, who would be his death tonight, and on his
pulsating cock.

Potter
shrank back and stared at Snape in disappointment. „I am sorry,
Sir.“ His voice was soft as he mumbled as if to himself. „I
have never done this before and I don't know how I am supposed to
please you.“ Thankfully this time no tears threatened to fall,
only his hand which were folded in his lap, were slightly trembling.

Snape
gripped the boy's trembling chin and chuckled. „Taking that into
account you are surprisingly talented, Potter.“ He forced his
features into a gentle smile when all he wanted to do was throttle
Potter for his complete lack of self esteem. He would have to do
something about that later. „I got carried away too much and
this whole affair would have been over in two minutes.“

For
a second Potter stared at him blankly but then understanding dawned
on his features. „So, you liked it?“ His voice was high
pitched.

Snape
rolled his eyes. „I thought this was quite obvious. Now Potter,
I think you want to finish something, if I am not mistaken.“ He
leaned back again and this time to his delight Potter placed his body
between thigthighs at once guiding his still erect cock to Snape's
entrance. Staring into his teacher's eyes he carefully began to enter
him. Snape had not been prepared for the feelings that overtook him
when he felt Potter's cock start to penetrate him, a mixture of an
almost unpleasant arousal when his body felt once again consumed by
the boy's and a tingle of magical energy when he felt his magic
reacting to Potter's.

Potter
had closed his eyes as he swiftly thrust in and out his body
glistering in the dimmed light of the dungeons with sweat. He moaned
softly getting an answering sound from Snape and he was obviously
completely lost in the motion.

As
was Snape. He had never been a patient lover, rarely had he been the
one who was taken and never in all of his years had he felt this kind
of reaction, a feeling like coming home. He felt more than knew when
something changed in the atmosphere of the room, when for some reason
Potter thrusts got deeper and sped up and he knew that the boy was
close to his orgasm. Which was fine with Snape as he was pretty close
himself and when Potter began to pump his cock once again he
shuddered.

In
this moment Potter erupted inside him his eyes ripped open with an
exhilarated expression inside them and it took mere second till the
potions Master followed him over the edge.

AN: Very short but I wanted
to finish the smut part and we can return to the romance now. It
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