Closer

Hello my fans (if there are any of you left lol)

I would like to say 'sorry' for the long wait. I've been having a rough time with life the last couple of months.

I just happened to re-read this last night and I decided it was time to pick up where I left off. I decided to make this story a little exciting in this chapter.

Hope you guys like.

basic time line :

June the 2nd : conception
July 5nd : Hermione's first Ultrasound
July 12th : Hermione goes back to Hogwarts
September 5th : This chapter picks up there.

Funny fact : This chapter written to song 'won't say I'm in love' from the Disney Hercules cartoon movie.
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The next few weeks went by like nothing. Hermione was busy getting ready for her first year as a teacher and she was getting ready to be a Mum.

I didn't really know what to think about the whole thing. Part of me was very glad and the other part wondered why I hadn't ran for the hills already.

Neither one of us were ready to be parents. I wasn't ready to settle down with a wife and start raising two kids.

Of course it was too late for that kind of thinking. I should have thought about that before I jumped into bed with Hermione without using any birth control.

I wasn't even sure I wanted to get married to Hermione. This was happening all the fast. Just a few months ago I was a happy single wizard looking for a good time.

I kept the ring Draco gave me locked away in my room. I wasn't ready to give it to her. I was starting to wonder if I would ever give it to her.

When school started I started to spend some time away from her and that's when the wheels had started to turn in my head.

While she was helped Minerva go over their class notes I had slipped away to the lake.

It was past curfew so I was alone as I walked along the shore. As I stood looking at the still water my mind had started to wonder.

"What am I thinking?" I said out loud.

"I sometimes wonder that myself," a voice said.

I turned my head quickly to see Sibyll standing a few feet behind me.

"What do you want?" I said turning my face back to the water.

"You looked troubled so I followed you out here," she explained walking over to me. "Is something troubling you?"

"What do you think?" I snapped.

"No need to get so angry," my fellow teacher said. "You're going through a lot right now."

I let out a long sigh. I knew I shouldn't be short with her. She was just trying to help.

"I don't know what I'm doing," I explained. "I don't know anything about love or families."

She didn't say anything. she just stood silently listening.

"I don't know if I'm making the right decision," I said shaking my head. "I'm not good at making good decisions."

"You really need to think about what is best for yourself, Hermione, and those babies," my friend stated.

"I know," I whispered.

"Just don't make any quick decisions," she said almost in a pleading tone.

"I won't," I promised.

"That's good," she said smiling at me. "Well it's been nice talking to you but I really have to go."

"Thanks for the advice," I said giving her a little smile.

As Sibyll walked away I knew what I had to do. I wasn't a family man. I wasn't a man who would do good married and raising kids. Those kids were way better off without me in their lives. What kind of parent would an ex-death eater make?

"I was almost ready to marry her," I said out loud. "That would have been the biggest mistakes of my life and of Hermione's. I can't ruin her life."

I couldn't do this. I had to run. I wasn't running because I was selfish. I was running because I was thinking of.

She deserved better than me. She didn't deserve an unfeeling ex-death eater. Well, calling me unfeeling was wrong. I did feel. I felt for her. I didn't want to see her reputation throw away because of me.

If I left she would run back to Ron. The boy has some issues but at least he could be a good father.

I cast one glance back at Hogwarts before I started walking towards the forbidden forest.

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Hermione let out a relived sigh as she stepped out of Minerva's classroom. She loved being a teacher but it was a lot of work.

At least she could go see Severus before she turned in. They hadn't seen much of each other the last couple of days and she needed to see him bad.

She took the long watch the dungeons and was supposed to find his room empty. She was even move surprised to find his classroom empty as well.

"Severus!" she cried to the empty room. "Where are you?"

The pregnant witch drifted back to her lover's bedroom.

Perhaps he was just walking around the castle. He sometimes did that before bed.

Hermione let out a long yawn. She could stay up anymore. She walked into his bedroom and dropped onto the bed. She would get some rest so that she would be ready for him when he came to bed. Little did she know he wouldn't be there in the morning.