Meant to Be

Read and Review please. Um...sorry in advance to all those who like Remus and Jess.



Chapter Fourteen



She skidded out onto the floor of Remus’ living area, startling him as he walked into the kitchen. ‘Hi!’ she said with a laugh as she brushed off the soot.

‘Hi,’ he said, a wide smile breaking over his face.

He moved quickly to her and put his arms around her. They kissed frantically for a minute, hands running all over each other as they moved towards the couch.

‘Are you sure you’re not too tired?’ she gasped as his hands reached under her skirt to pull down her underwear. ’Cause we can wait if you are. I won’t mind…’



‘Please stop talking,’ he begged and she obliged, quickly yanking down his fly then laughing as he turned her around to bend her over the back of the couch.

‘This’ll be quick, Jess,’ he warned and she laughed.

‘You’re not kidding,’ she said, then moaned as his hand moved between her legs, flipping her skirt up.

‘Fucking hell, Jess,’ he groaned, pressing himself against her. He grasped her hip, lifting her ass a little as he slid inside her. Jess cried out and pushed herself back hard.

‘Hard, Remus,’ she gasped, breathlessly.

‘God!’ he ground out then slammed himself into her over and over until she screamed and her body squeezed him, dragging him over the edge with her.



‘Holy shit!’ Remus mumbled into her shoulder. He pulled away unsteadily, and Jess moved, seeing how shaky he was.

‘God, I knew it was too soon,’ she said in concern. She grabbed his shoulders, steadying him before she slid an arm around his waist.

‘I’m fine, Jess,’ he said, but his face was pale and he was sweatier than he should have been. Jess got him into bed, then grabbed him a glass of water.

‘We shouldn’t have done that,’ she said, annoyed with herself for not insisting they wait. ‘You’re normally tired now. Even with the potion, it’s still too soon for sex.’



Remus felt a shot of guilt. He hadn’t told her he had forgotten to take the potion and that he’d been fully transformed last night and running around the grounds of Hogwarts. And he didn’t intend on telling her unless he had to.

‘I’ll be fine, Jess,’ he insisted, knowing had pushed his body too far.

‘Yes, you will,’ she said grimly. ‘Because you aren’t getting out of bed for the next day or two.’ She stood up, pulling the sheets up over him. ‘I’ll wake you up for dinner.’

‘Jess,’ he said, sitting up. ‘Stay. Please? I sleep better when you’re with me.’

She smiled at his manipulation then crawled into bed next to him.

‘Fine, but keep your hands to yourself,’ she said, curling up next to him.

He murmured an agreement and put his arms around her, falling asleep almost immediately.



Jess did insist on him remaining in bed for three days, rebuffing his attempts to fool around, and threatening to cut him off altogether if he didn’t stop it. On the fourth morning, Jess woke up with his lips on her inner thigh. She tried to sit up but he pushed her back down, his tongue convincing her that he felt much better.

‘Fuck!’ she said loudly as she came, shudders running through her at the intense feeling. Her release seemed to last forever, Remus stroking her until the shaking stopped and Jess was gasping for air.

‘Christ, that was worth the wait,’ she moaned a minute later, and Remus chuckled against her stomach.

‘I had to get you while you were sleeping,’ he said with a grin. ‘You never would have let me otherwise.’



She laughed and grabbed a handful of his hair, dragging him up to her face.

‘Ow!’ he said playfully as he kissed her.

‘You’re feeling better today?’ she asked and he nodded.

‘Much better,’ he said, his lips moving to her neck. ‘One hundred percent again.’

‘Good,’ she said then pushed him off her, straddling him. ‘Then I should begin to try and thank you for all your help with my NEWT exams.’



Remus grinned then hissed as she shifted and sank down onto him, wriggling a little making him groan. Jess grinned and rocked gently. Remus let out a soft sigh then gasped as her body tightened around him then released. He let out a small laugh, then another gasp as she did it again. She rocked her hips slowly while she used her inner muscles to bring him to balance on the edge. He was lifting his hips, trying not to slam into her. He heard Jess groan and her movements became less controlled, more urgent. Remus couldn’t stand the almost torturous pleasure any longer and rolled them over, pushing hard into her once and making Jess shatter. The clenching around him was too much for his stimulated body and with one more thrust, he came deep inside her.

He collapsed on Jess and they lay in silence for a few minutes, catching their breath.

‘You’re very welcome,’ he said hoarsely and Jess laughed.



They were silent for another minute, then Jess said, ‘You didn’t tell me you got a dog.’

Remus frowned and lifted his head. ‘I don’t have a dog,’ he said.

Jess tried to sit up as she said, ‘Well, whose dog is that then?’

Remus sat up quickly and looked out the open bedroom door to see a large black dog lying on the couch watching them. Except Remus knew it wasn’t a dog. It was an Animagus.

‘Shit!’ he exclaimed, getting out of bed hurriedly.

‘Sirius,’ he thought, panicking a little. ‘What the hell is he doing here?’ The secret he’d kept from Dumbledore was that Sirius Black could transform at will into an animal - a large black dog. The large black dog that had just watched he and Jess have sex to be exact.



‘It’s a stray,’ he invented quickly, pulling his pants on. ‘I fed it once and it keeps coming back. I’ll get rid of it.’

‘No,’ she said, swinging her legs out of bed and moving out to the living room - completely naked. ‘I like dogs. Can’t we keep him?’

‘Fuck, Sirius,’ Remus muttered, grabbing Jess’ dressing gown off a chair and following her.

The dog looked as though he was smiling, and Remus gave him a dirty look.

‘Yuck,’ Jess said, crouching in front of the dog. ‘He doesn’t smell too good. We should give him a bath.’

The dog moved towards Jess, licking her face. Jess giggled and the dog snuggled closer, his tongue licking at her neck now. Remus pushed the dog off her and handed her the dressing gown.

‘Here, honey,’ he said, grasping the scruff of the dogs neck. ‘I’ll get him outside. He’s stinking the house up.’

Jess stood up and stretched but ignored the gown, moving into the bathroom instead. ‘I’m going to have a shower, then I’ll get us some breakfast,’ she called, closing the door behind her.



Remus let go of the dog. ‘Sirius,’ he hissed and the dog transformed, a ragged, dirty looking dark haired man in his place.

‘Fucking hell, Moony,’ he said approvingly, his voice gruff. ‘She’s hot. How old is she? Eighteen?’

‘Twenty one,’ he said a little defensively, still sensitive about the age difference, but Sirius looked more impressed than concerned.

‘Jeez, her ass is incredible,’ he said, still staring at the bathroom door. ‘Not to mention she’s obviously a very talented woman. What the hell was she doing to you before? I almost got off just watching.’



Remus almost growled as he grabbed his old friends’ arm and pulling him out the front door. ‘She can’t see you,’ he said annoyed. ‘I haven’t told her anything about what’s gone on and I want it to stay that way.’

Sirius frowned. ‘I need somewhere to stay for a day or two, Remus,’ he said. ‘I need to get my strength up again before I can leave the country.’

Remus stared at him, his conscience pricking him. He wanted to help Sirius but he didn’t want Jess to know about his past. It was upsetting for him to talk about and the last couple of days had confused him.

‘Alright,’ he said, making a decision. ‘But for god’s sake, don’t let Jess see you as a dog. If she knows you were watching us in bed, she’ll kill you and then me.’



Sirius laughed and Remus let him back in the house. Jess was still in the shower and Sirius looked over at the door again.

‘So, Jess, is it?’ he asked and Remus nodded, getting eggs out of the fridge. ‘How’d you two meet if you’ve been at Hogwarts all year? Hang on…let me guess. She was a student and you’ve been shagging like rabbits all year.’ He laughed then stopped when he saw Remus’ face.

‘Oh my god, Moony,’ he said with a disbelieving expression. ‘She was a student?’

‘She’s an adult,’ Remus said quickly. ‘We met before we went to Hogwarts and it just…happened.’



‘Jesus, mate,’ Sirius said with a wide grin. ‘You’ve changed. The Remus I knew would have never done something like that - you always let your conscience get in the way of a good time.’

Remus shook his head and let out a puff of laughter. ‘Have you seen Jess, Sirius?’ he said and Sirius laughed.

‘Point well taken,’ he said, leaning back in the chair. ‘So, are you two serious?’

Remus turned from the stove and looked at Sirius. ‘We’re engaged,’ he told his friend and Sirius looked surprised.

‘Congratulations Moony,’ he said with a grin. ‘Engaged, huh? So does that mean she’s off limits?’

Remus let out a small laugh and nodded. ‘Yeah, Pads,’ he said firmly. ‘She’s off limits.’

Sirius gave it one last try. ’It’s been a long time since I was with a woman, Moony,’ he said with a grin. ’I don’t suppose you’d be willing to share? I remember sharing with you once or twice….’

Remus opened his mouth to respond but Jess beat him to it. ‘Sorry, but I’m not a commodity anymore,’ she snapped, glaring at the men, a towel wrapped around her still damp body.



Remus moved quickly over to her, and put his arm around her waist.

‘Jess, this is Sirius,’ he said, indicating his friend, who stood up with a grin.

‘Hi Jess,’ he said, eyes wandering down then back up to her face. ‘It’s really nice to meet you.’

‘I wish I could say the same,’ she said, then turned to Remus. ‘You want to explain?’

‘I told you Sirius betrayed our friends, but he didn’t. I found out recently. It was someone else - Peter Pettigrew. Sirius is innocent.’

Jess stared at him in suspicion. ‘How recently?’ she asked, and Remus looked guilty.

‘The night before I resigned,’ he said, glancing over at Sirius. ‘It’s a long story, Jess…’

‘And let me guess,’ she interrupted, her face stony. ‘I don’t need to know? You don’t want to talk about it?’



Remus opened his mouth to argue with her, but Sirius moved closer. ‘Look, I hate to interrupt but unless you are willing to share, Remus, can I suggest that Jess gets dressed?’ He looked at her and she could see the hunger in his eyes. ‘Not that I’m complaining about the view but it’s been a very long time, and you are a very attractive woman. I’m only human.’

Jess frowned and looked back uncertainly at Remus, who hadn‘t said anything. She‘d caught a glimpse of something in Sirius‘ eye that was very familiar. When she realised what it was, her eyes narrowed and she moved closer, staring at him. As she got nearer, the smell gave him away.



‘You’re an Animagus,’ she said suddenly, a furious look on her face. ‘There was no dog this morning. It was you, wasn’t it?’

Both men were surprised and glanced quickly at each other, confirming her suspicions.

Sirius had the decency to look ashamed of himself. ‘Yeah,’ he said, his voice low. ‘Sorry about that.’

Jess looked at Remus, who also looked embarrassed. ‘Why didn’t you warn me this morning?’ she said angrily. ‘When I got out of bed? You had time to say, ‘Get your robe on. He’s an Animagus’’



‘I didn’t think you’d find out,’ he said. ‘I didn’t realise Sirius would need to stay.’

’You had no intention of telling me anything about this, did you?’ Jess said, her heart sinking when he shook his head.

It had suddenly hit her that even after knowing each other a year, he still didn’t trust her - not enough to share himself with her and that realisation hurt a lot. She covered her hurt heart with anger, clenching her jaw and glaring at Remus.

‘So you don’t mind me walking around naked in front of your friends, then?’ she said, crossing her arms over her chest. ’Am I up for grabs? Do you want to share me around?’

‘Jess…’ he said, but before he could deny it, she pulled the towel off and threw it at him.



‘Nothing he hasn’t already seen,’ she said angrily then turned to Sirius. ‘Have a shower first. I’ll wait in the bedroom for you.’

She stomped back to the bedroom and slammed the door behind her, the force of it shaking the house. There was silence for a moment, then Sirius smiled.

‘Not just a firecracker in bed then?’ he said and Remus sighed.

‘Yeah, but…there’s some history there,’ he said, moving towards the bedroom. ‘Why don’t you have that shower and get yourself something to eat?’

He opened the door to see Jess pulling her clothes on, pausing to glare at him then continued.



‘Jess, that’s not what I wanted, you know that,’ he said and she threw down the shirt she was holding.

‘How could you not have told me this?’ she hissed angrily. ‘You don’t tell me anything about yourself, Remus. The only things I know about your past are trivial. I know nothing about the events that made you who you are. I wouldn’t know about your connection to Sirius if you hadn’t been drinking the night we met and let it slip.’

‘I don’t like talking about it, Jess…’ he began, but she interrupted him.

‘You think I liked talking to you about my history?’ she said, tears forming in her eyes. ‘That I wanted you to know about my father or Mike? It wasn’t easy for me to talk about all that with you, but I did. Because I care about you; because I trusted you not to judge me, to make me feel safe.’



She took a deep, shaky breath and her next words were quiet. ‘You don’t trust me, Remus. You had a chance to tell me that was Sirius this morning, but you didn’t. You had no intention of telling me he was an Animagus. What else haven’t you told me?’

Remus frowned and felt slightly panicked by the tone of her voice. ‘Jess, I do trust you. I love you….’

‘I love you too,’ she said, her voice breaking now. ‘But you don’t trust me. You won’t let yourself trust me. And I won’t be in a relationship like that, Remus. I won’t let you treat me like every other man has - I’m good enough to fuck, but not good enough to share yourself with.’



Remus’ mouth opened to deny it, but she shook her head. ‘Don’t, Remus,’ she said, a tear sliding down her cheek. ‘This is hard enough as it is.’

Really panicking now, Remus stood in front of her as she attempted to walk past him. ‘I won’t let you go, Jess,’ he said. ‘Not like this.’

Jess’ face crumpled and she ran a hand across her eyes. ‘I love you, Remus,’ she whispered, looking at him. ‘And maybe one day, when you’ve worked through all the things that make you untrusting, we’ll find each other again. But until you’re ready to share yourself with me, I can’t be with you.’

‘I’ll tell you, Jess,’ he said desperately. ‘I’ll tell you anything you want to know.’



Jess stared at him, a pained expression on her face. ‘You’ll tell me because you want me to stay, not because you want me to know or because you trust me.’

She reached up and cupped his face, kissing him hard. ‘I deserve someone who can trust me fully; you deserve someone you can trust fully. I had hoped that would be me, but I guess not.’

Her face screwed up as she fought tears and she let out a half sob. ‘I love you - so very much,’ she said, losing the battle as tears fell from her eyes. ‘I don’t know if I’ll ever love anyone else the way I love you. Thank you for everything you’ve done for me, Remus.’ She stepped past him, his tear filled eyes ripping her heart apart.

‘Jess, please,’ he begged, having trouble breathing. ‘I love you. I want to spend my life with you. Don’t go. Please?’

‘You’re going to be very hard to get over, Remus,’ she whispered, trying to smile at him before she spun on the spot and disappeared.



‘She just left?’ Sirius said with a frown ten minutes later. Remus nodded, trying not to break down in front of the other man. Sirius had knocked on the door to make sure everything was alright to find Jess gone and Remus sitting teary and shocked on the edge of the bed.

‘She was right,’ he said, looking down at the engagement ring Jess had left on the side table last night. All her things were still here; she hadn’t taken any of them. But Remus knew she wouldn’t come back.

‘I never told her a thing about my past. It was always too hard to talk about. I told myself she didn’t need to know, that I was protecting her from the nastiness but I wasn’t. I was protecting myself. I didn’t want to think about it. And I didn’t trust her - the last person I trusted betrayed me and I didn’t want to risk it happening again.’



Sirius shook his head. ‘I’m sorry, Moony,’ he said. ‘If I hadn’t turned up this morning…’

Remus sighed. ‘No,’ he said. ‘It would’ve happened eventually. Jess had been complaining for ages that I didn’t trust her.’

‘What are you going to do?’ Sirius asked gently.

‘Try and find her,’ Remus said, looking up at Sirius. ‘I love her, Sirius. We are meant to be together, I know it.’