*Deserving Of Love*

A/N: This is a pretty long chapter... but I hope enjoyable! Please read and review... I am craving feedback...


Remus sighed as he felt a slight pressure on his back, a light kneading peppered with a few sharp pokes every once in a while. He tried to figure out the source of the feeling, sorting through his sleep-plagued head at what it could possibly be. He forced his eyes open and raised his head slightly to look around. He was sprawled across the bed, on his stomach, and something was on his back. He turned his head and peered over his shoulder the best he could and a furry grey face with amber eyes greeted him, meowing a hello. He turned and the cat jumped off of him to slink over to his face, sniffing up his body as it approached him. The cat stared at him for a second before head butting him in the cheek and turning to drag its tail across his neck.

“Hello… where did you come from?”

Suddenly a loud crash could be heard from the kitchen and the cat crouched down and turned to Remus with large eyes.

“Let’s go see what Ms. Tonks is up to…”

Remus reached out to pet the cat briefly before moving carefully to the edge of the bed to stand. He reached for Tonks’ red floral robe and slid it on before grabbing the cat and leaving the bedroom.

“Oh bloody hell! Sod-it… damn damn damn…”

Remus chuckled at the stream of expletives he heard coming from the kitchen and followed it to find the source of such frustration; Tonks was standing at the stove over a smoking frying pan, a spatula in one hand and a towel up to her face. She was wearing nothing but a short red silk camisole, matching panties and an apron. Her hair was blue and twisted up on her head, with aqua tendrils falling down her neck. Remus smiled as he walked in and stood for a minute, enjoying the scantily-clad view of her as she fanned away the black smoke. She turned when she heard Remus step behind her and dropped the towel to stick out her bottom lip and pout.

“I was going to bring you breakfast in bed…”

Remus smiled and leaned down to give her a quick kiss before reaching behind her and turning off the burner of the stove. She sighed and wrapped an arm around him as she leaned down and kissed the cat he held in his arms.

“Good morning Sebastian… I see you’ve met Remus. Remus, this is Sebastian. He’s the neighborhood stray. I feed him and let him stay here when he feels like being domesticated.”

“Oh, so this picking up stray’s thing is common for you? And I thought I was special…”

“I suppose I have a soft spot for wild animals…”

Remus smiled and leaned down to plant another kiss on Tonks’ lips before setting the cat down. Sebastian ran to the end of the counter where two ceramic bowls sat to indulge himself on the tuna Tonks had laid out for him. Tonks turned to the stove and started scraping burned bacon and eggs off of the bottom of the pan, but was distracted when Remus wrapped his arms around her and kissed her neck softly. She sighed and set the spatula down as he ran his tongue to her ear and pulled her closer to him.

“How about we get dressed and go out to breakfast? We can do lunch in bed if you so insist…”

He undid the tie on her apron and slipped it off of her, tossing it onto the counter as Tonks turned to wrap her arms around his neck. She pulled him down for a heated kiss, only breaking away when air became a necessity, and grabbed his hand to pull him out of the kitchen toward the bedroom with her.

“You’ve talked me into it. I know of this fantastic little café just around the corner; they have the best flourless chocolate cake. It’s almost like fudge.”

“Chocolate cake for breakfast? That’s the sexiest thing I have ever heard you say…”

Remus dropped her hand and slapped her on the ass as he walked to where his clothes lay folded on top of a basket of clean laundry. Tonks giggled and went to her closet, standing in front of the mess inside for a minute before pulling out a pair of dark torn jeans and a pair of red heeled boots. Remus watched her pull the camisole half off and put a teal bra under it before smoothing it back down; she was completely unaware that he was watching as she ran her hands over her breasts to smooth the fabric, and his breath caught in his throat as they traveled down to her stomach.

He leaned against the bed and watched her finish dressing, smiling at the way she jumped slightly to pull the tight jeans over her hips, and at her almost falling twice while putting on her shoes. Tonks looked up and smiled, giving him a wink before turning back to her closet to pull out a jade silk jacket with a red dragon embroidered on the back. She slipped it on and walked to Remus, his shirt half buttoned as he leaned against the bed. She reached him and slid her hands up his chest to fix his collar before moving to roll up his sleeves. Remus wrapped his arms around her when she began buttoning his shirt and pulled her tightly against his chest.

“Nice jacket…”

“Thanks… Charlie got it for me for my birthday. Actually I think that he probably got it for his girlfriend at the time but that didn’t work out… not that they ever work out. The man can train and tame a dragon, but he can’t keep a woman for more than a month. It’s amazing.”

“I don’t know… women are much scarier than dragons. Much less predictable.”

Tonks laughed and scraped her nails up his chest, wrapping her arms around his neck to pull him into a rough kiss.

“Are you saying that you are scared of me, Remus?”

Remus raised his hand and brushed an aqua tendril out of Tonks’ face and placed a quick kiss on her nose before moving to whisper against her ear; chuckling softly as she shuddered.

“I am terrified of you...”

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“Remus?”

“Hmmmm?”

“I like you.”

Remus chuckled and looked down at the woman leaning against him in front of the fire. Deciding that their venture out to breakfast was enough of the outside world for the day, they had returned to camp out in the bedroom for the afternoon; sleeping, talking, and making love until Tonks' appetite got the best of her and she forced Remus into the kitchen. They had retired to this spot an hour ago after eating the dinner that Remus had made, enjoying each others company as they listened to soft classical music and cuddled in front of the fire with a bottle of wine.

He set his wine glass down and pulled her closer to him, burying his face in her hair to breathe in her scent before placing a gentle kiss on the top of her head.

“Well I hope you like me; I’ve only shagged you seven times in the past thirty-six hours. I would hope you had formed some sort of opinion of me by now.”

Tonks giggled into her wine and lightly punched him in the stomach before turning to look up at him.

“I honestly think that you may be a bigger smartass than Sirius…”

She set her glass down and sat up, turning to flip her leg over his to straddle his lap.

“I did hang out with two of the biggest smart asses and troublemakers that ever graced the wizarding world… they were bound to rub off on me at least a little. So I do have a sense of humor… most people forget that. The curse of being responsible. Everybody sees you as dull.”

Remus rolled his eyes and smiled as he ran his hands up her thighs to rest on her hips. She was wearing her red camisole, a pair of matching panties and a loose cardigan sweater, and he ran his thumbs in small circles against her belly, enjoying the feel of cool satin under his fingers. Remus was back in her floral robe, and Tonks smiled as she fiddled with the knot at his waist.

“I think that you are passionate about this robe… it does look rather sexy on you, I must admit. I don’t think I’ll ever be able to wear it again, it looks much better on you than me.”

Remus smiled and ran his hands up her body, his thumbs resting right below her breasts. He moved them slowly back and forth, his smile broadening when soft peaks formed under the satin material. She shifted harder onto his lap as he leaned forward, brushing his cheek lightly against hers to whisper into her ear.

“You have to wear it… it smells like you. A mixture of jasmine, honey… and your skin. I feel like I’m completely wrapped up in you… it’s very sexy.”

She shivered as he placed several light kisses on her neck before sitting back against the sofa to watch her. Tonks’ smile faded and she lowered her head to play with the tie of his belt, biting her lip nervously before closing her eyes and leaning in close to talk to him.

“Um… can I tell you something without you making a big deal about it?”

Remus’ heart jumped into his throat and he closed his eyes for a second; he was bracing himself for the sure-disappointment he would feel if she was suddenly regretting the past couple of days. Tonks smoothed her fingers over his face and leaned closer to him, pressing her chest harder against his. He opened his eyes when her arms slid around his neck, and he looked at her with an almost hesitant side-ways glance; almost as if she had something horrible to say, he would be able to handle it better if he wasn’t facing her directly.

“You can tell me anything...”

Tonks blushed profusely then raised her eyes to meet his for a brief second before a large smile erupted and she looked away again.

“I had the biggest crush on you when I was younger…” she whispered, turning a violent shade of red as she traced her fingers along his partially covered chest. Remus let out a deep sigh of relief and chuckled at her announcement, smiling at how coy and embarrassed she was at that moment. She looked up at him and smiled sheepishly before returning her gaze and hands to his chest.

“I remember you came over to my house with Sirius once, the last time I saw him before… you know, Azkaban… and I thought you were just heaven in a tattered grey robe.”

Remus smiled sadly at the memory of that trip; it was one of the last times that he had seen Sirius before James and Lily had been killed, and the very last time that Sirius had seen his favorite cousin Andromeda, Tonks’ mother. He remembered a precocious little girl, Dora, hanging onto Sirius’ neck and asking a million questions during tea, but he didn’t remember Tonks… he closed his eyes when the realization that she was the little girl came rushing to him; and the guilt of just how much younger she was than him fully hit him, like a rough blow to the chest.

Tonks giggled when she realized what he was thinking and she smoothed her arms up his chest to wrap them around his neck again. Remus shook his head slowly, as if trying to get a bad thought out of his mind, and ran his hands up to rest on her upper arms before opening his eyes again to look at her meekly as she continued to talk.

“I believe you were twenty-one, twenty-two… so I think I was eight? Yeah. Eight.”

She smiled when he closed his eyes again and his head slumped down to his chest, his arms dropping to his sides in disbelief at what she had just said out loud.

“Thanks so much for adding that last bit Nymphadora… now I really feel like a sodding old man. Not to mention utterly depraved.”

Tonks giggled again and tilted his head up before leaning forward to press a kiss against his nose. He opened his eyes and glared at her, slightly annoyed that she was enjoying this so much, but strangely flattered that she was telling him.

“You are not a depraved old man. It’s not like you said that you had a crush on me when I was eight and you were twenty; that would be frightening… besides, we are most definitely adults now…”

Tonks moved forward and wrapped her legs and arms fully around him and buried her face in the crook of his neck. She inhaled deeply, enjoying the mixture of their scents radiating off of his skin, and she sighed when she felt one of his hands lightly press against her back again, the other moving up to the back of her head.

They sat holding each other in silence for a long time, Remus trying to get comfortable with what she had revealed, and Tonks allowing him a moment’s peace to think. She sat back slightly and slid her hands down the front of his robe, moving them slowly across his chest to run under his arms to grasp his back. She lay her cool palms flat against his back and pulled him tighter against her as she began kissing his neck gently. Remus sighed loudly and ran his hands over her back as her tongue licked at the skin of his neck for a second before she moved to press her cheek against his.

“I’m sorry if I embarrassed you by telling you that… I just wanted to let you know how much I like you. In case you couldn’t tell by the eight shags in two days…”

Remus smiled and pulled back to look at her, bringing his hands up to smooth her hair out of her face before leaning forward to press a kiss to her lips.

“You did not embarrass me… And it’s been seven shags, not eight.”

Tonks grinned wickedly and ground her hips into his, drawing a loan groan from deep within Remus. His eyes darkened and he became instantly aroused as she repeated the action, this time moving forward to flick her tongue over his bottom lip as she ground into him.

“I plan on making it eight, maybe even nine, by time the night is over.”

Tonks caught his lips in hers and she kissed him deeply as her hands moved from his back to trail down his chest to the pocket of his robe. She fumbled for a second, concentrating on holding the kiss and trying to determine which of the two wands sticking out of Remus’ pocket was hers. She finally pulled one of the wands free and broke the kiss to mutter a spell, leaving both of them very much naked as they clung together.

Remus captured her lips again as he grabbed her hips gently to pull her tighter against him, lifting her so that she was poised over his eagerly awaiting erection. Tonks broke the kiss and looked him in the eye as she sank down onto him, moaning softly as she drew in his entire length. He wrapped his arms around her and pressed his face into her neck, breathing her in as she began moving slowly. She rocked against him, his arms holding her so tightly that she couldn’t draw her hips up and down, and moaned at the friction the limited movement caused. Tonks closed her eyes and hissed as she felt his tongue and teeth play against the crook of her neck and she pressed her mouth to his ear, causing him to shiver as she whispered quietly to him.

“ i like my body when it is with your body... It is so quite a new thing… i like your body. i like what it does, i like its hows…”

Tonks moaned loudly and picked up the pace, becoming breathless as she felt him trembling beneath her. She leaned back and pressed her nose against his, their mouths barely an inch apart as she began talking again.

“ i like to feel the spine of your body and its bones, and the trembling-firm-smooth ness and which i will again and again and again kiss…”

Remus caught her lips with his and darted his tongue into her mouth at those words, his arms loosening his hold on her so she could move faster against him. Tonks moaned into his mouth as she felt her muscles tightening, a wave of orgasm rolling through her, quickly followed by another. She broke the kiss and breathed against his ear again, moving frantically to find her full release as she felt him begin to tremble underneath her.

“ and possibly i like the thrill of under me… you… so quite… new”

They both moaned loudly as she finished the poem, Remus’ release intensified by feeling Tonks’ muscles tightening around him as she panted against his neck. She continued to rock against him gently, holding onto his head tightly as she attempted to calm her breathing, the intensity of her orgasm quickly being replaced by a feeling of complete satisfaction. Her movements finally ceased as she felt his arms wrap tightly around her again, and she leaned back to look at him.

Remus was watching her through half-closed eyes; his head comfortably reclined against the sofa cushions, a look of complete satisfaction on his relaxed face. Tonks smiled and placed a series of kisses from his forehead to his lips, drawing a low chuckle from him. She sucked on his bottom lip for a moment before slipping her tongue in to meet his; Remus raised his hands and held her head steady as he deepened the kiss. Tonks moaned as she felt him harden within her once again and she pulled back from the kiss to catch her breath.

Remus moved quickly and flipped them, laying Tonks on her back on the floor and settling himself deeper inside her body. She whimpered as he began moving slowly in and out of her, his forehead pressed against hers as he watched her reaction to his movements carefully. Her hips met his thrusts eagerly and her orgasm built quickly; the friction of him moving against her already sensitive clit made her moan and buck against him wildly.

He lowered his head to press against her throat as she wrapped her arms tightly around his neck, his panting breaths causing condensation to form on her flushed skin. He flicked his tongue against her pulse point and felt her tighten around him violently as she cried out, drawing his orgasm from him. Tonks shuddered as he groaned his release, her body aching with satisfaction at the back-to-back orgasms she had just experienced. Remus raised his head and placed a gentle kiss against her nose before pulling out of her and rolling to her side.

Tonks turned her head toward the fire, smiling as she felt the tingling of the cleansing spell he muttered before settling himself once again between her thighs. He rested his chin between her breasts and tickled his long slender fingers up her arms, smiling as she slid her fingers into his hair.

“Tell me Nymphadora… how many poems did you memorize before you gave me that e.e. cummings book?”

Tonks giggled and looked down at him, running her fingers through his hair as he pressed light kisses between her breasts.

“A few… that one was one of my favorites. I had the naughtiest daydreams thinking about having you writhing underneath me as I recited it to you…”

He chuckled and ran his tongue along the underside of her breasts, smiling as she moaned and closed her eyes at the action.

“You really are a naughty little minx, aren’t you?”

“Yes… but you love it.”

Remus smiled and nodded in agreement, nipping lightly at the sensitive skin between her breasts before rolling to lay beside her. He reached for his wand and flicked it at the sofa, a blanket and two pillows falling gently beside them as Tonks shifted to face the fire, her back pressed against his side. Remus gently lifted her head and placed one pillow underneath it, then fanned the blanket over their naked bodies before lying behind her and pulling her close. Tonks sighed deeply as one arm went underneath her head and the other around her waist tightly, his hand resting on a breast as he pulled her close. He pressed a few lingering kisses into her shoulder and held her tighter for a moment before settling his head on the other pillow to bury his nose in the crook of her neck.

“You know Remus, for an old man you have fantastic stamina. Thank Merlin you aren’t younger… I’m not sure I could handle it if you were more virile.”

Remus chuckled and bit into her shoulder lightly, causing Tonks to giggle and press herself further against him.

“One of the few good things about my lycanthropy. The closer I get to the full moon, the more animal traits I pick up. Stamina is one of the good ones.”

“One of the very good ones… I guess I picked the right time of month to attack you after all.”

“Cheeky…”

Tonks smiled and shifted harder against him, pulling his arm tighter across her chest, enjoying the feel of his warm body pressed against hers. She felt herself grow drowsy as the sounds of his breathing, mixed with the cracking fireplace, relaxed her even more. She closed her eyes as sleep finally overtook her, smiling at the warmth that was radiating off of him and into her. Remus pressed his face into her hair as he heard her breathing slow and deepen and allowed the sweet smell of her to envelope him as his eye lids grew heavy.

“Goodnight love…”

He muttered into her hair, then pressed another kiss on her shoulder before lowering his head and drifting off to sleep.