Meant to Be

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How will Dumbledore react? Will they ever have sex again?



Chapter Thirteen



‘You told him?’ Jess exclaimed, staring at Remus. They’d gone back to his room after dinner and he had just explained what had happened with Albus.

‘He’s thinking about what he’s going to do,’ Remus said, then cupped her face in his hands. ‘Jess, it’s fine. If he sacks me, then it’s only a couple of months until exams then you’re finished. We can get on with our lives.’

She still looked worried and he kissed her. ‘My birthday isn’t over yet,’ he reminded her, trying to make her forget her concerns. ‘It’s not over for another four and a bit hours. Any idea what we could do with that time?’

Jess smiled, pushing her worry aside and said, ‘Well, it’s your birthday. What did you have in mind?’



‘Hmm,’ he said, walking her slowly back towards the bed. ‘You know, I have such a good time being tied up, I think you should try it.’

She grinned as he pushed her onto the bed and waved his wand, sending scarves to wind around her wrists and ankles. He waved it again and her clothes Vanished. His eyes ran over her body and his breathing quickened.

‘What the hell did I do to deserve you?’ he murmured, leaning over her and kissing her neck as he shrugged off his robes.

Jess giggled. ‘Something dreadful, no doubt,’ she replied then moaned as his tongue traced over her throat.



He chuckled then they stopped talking as his mouth moved down her body, the silence only broken by their moans of pleasure, and Jess’ loud cry as his tongue bought her to an intense release. Remus waved his wand and the binds disappeared as did his clothes. He sank inside her as her legs came up around his waist. They moved together fluidly then, as their movements became more urgent, Remus rolled over so Jess was over him. She leant over, kissing him deeply as she moved quickly on him. As they balanced on the edge of release, Remus sat up and kissed her; one hand on her head, the other on her hip pressing her to him as they both exploded, whispering ‘I love you’ to each other.



An hour later, Remus stroked his hand down Jess’ bare back as he watched her sleep. His stomach churned a little as he thought that this might be the last time they would be able to do this for two months, and if that was so, he didn’t want to miss a moment with her - not even if she was asleep.

‘We have the rest of our lives,’ he told himself. ‘It’ll only be a couple of months - maybe not even that long.’

He leant over and kissed her shoulder blade, leaving his face pressed against her for a moment as he breathed in the smell of her skin. He had closed his eyes, trying to memorise the scent when he heard the soft knock on the door.



Pulling his pants on quickly, he moved to the door and said, ‘Yes?’ hearing Albus identify himself.

He took a deep breath and grabbed his shirt as he opened the door. ‘I apologise if I woke you,’ Albus said softly.

Remus opened the door and stepped out, pulling his shirt on. ‘I wasn’t asleep,’ he said, closing the door behind him. ‘But Jess is, so maybe we should do this downstairs.’

Albus frowned but nodded, walking down the stairs with Remus following him.



‘Well,’ the younger man said. ‘Should I start packing?’

Albus frowned again. ‘You should,’ he said. ‘But no. I have decided you should stay until the term is over. Only the students will suffer having no DADA teacher just before their exams, and I want you here if Sirius turns up. I don’t approve of this, Remus. I think you’ve shown an uncharacteristic lack of judgement and self control, and if Jessica was a regular student….‘

‘If she was a regular student; if she was underage, I wouldn’t have gone near her, Albus…,’ Remus began but the older man interrupted.

‘…but she is not. She is an adult, and it does not appear that she has been taken advantage of in any way. That is the reason behind the rule I suppose. So, you can stay.’

He looked at Remus who looked relieved and said, ‘Thank you Albus…’

‘Don’t thank me yet,’ he said, narrowing his eyes. ‘You haven’t heard my conditions. The first condition is that you are to have no physical contact with each other until the school term is over. No more sleepovers; no more walks in the grounds; no more keeping her back after class. There will be no second chances, Remus. If I find out you have broken this rule I will dismiss you and expel Jessica.’



Remus’ mouth opened, but Albus held up his hand. ‘If I have to I will, Remus,’ he said firmly, knowing what he was about to say. ‘I want Jessica to finish her study as much as anyone but if this is what it takes to make you both abide by the rules for the rest of the term, then that is what I’ll do.’

Remus closed his eyes tightly and nodded. ‘Fine,’ he said. ‘I agree.’

‘My second condition is that no one else is to find out about this,’ he said. ‘I do not want this situation getting around the school.’

‘It won’t, Albus,’ he assured him.



The older man stared at him and said, ‘You’re in love with her?’

Remus smiled. ‘Head over heels,’ he confirmed and the older man gave him a reluctant smile.

‘I can’t say I don’t wish the circumstances were different, but if you are both sure about your feelings, I am glad that you are happy, Remus,’ he said quietly. ‘After all you’ve been through - you’ve both been through - you deserve some happiness.’ He turned to leave the room.

‘Remember my conditions, Remus,’ he said. ‘I would hate for Jessica to get this far and not be able to finish her exams.’

‘I’m not going to wake her tonight, Albus,’ Remus said. ‘She’s staying. I’ll tell her in the morning.’ Albus nodded, and left the classroom.



Breathing a sigh of relief, he walked back up to his room, seeing Jess still asleep. He undressed and slid into bed next to her, putting an arm around her. She mumbled his name, rolling towards him and settling herself on his chest. Remus put his arms around her and kissed her head, closing his eyes and letting himself fall asleep.



When he awoke the next morning, it was with a start as he felt Jess’ tongue running over the tip of his shaft. He grinned then groaned as her mouth closed around him. Giving himself over to the sensations, his head fell back and his hands gripped the sheets tightly as her talented tongue bought him to the edge then pushed him over, making him arch up with a loud cry. His breathing was heavy when Jess’ face appeared in front of him. He smiled at her and pulled her to him for a kiss.



‘Figured it might be a while till I can wake you up like that again, so I grabbed the chance while I could,’ she whispered.

Remus chuckled and ran his fingers through her hair. ‘And I thank you for that. Unfortunately though, you were right,’ he said with a sigh. ‘He came to see me last night.’

Jess’ jaw clenched and she sat up, frowning. ‘And?’ she asked, her voice filled with dread.

‘I’m not getting the sack,’ he said, continuing quickly when he saw her begin to smile. ‘But we can’t see each other. That was his condition. We aren’t allowed to be alone together until exams are over or he’ll sack me and expel you.’

Jess looked a little stunned and he reached over and took her hand. ‘He knew I didn’t care anymore about getting the sack, so he made sure he threatened the one thing he knew I wouldn’t take a chance with - your exams,’ he told her. ‘He’s a clever man.’



Jess still looked unhappy and he smiled ruefully. ‘I know, Jess,’ he said, pulling her back down towards him. ‘But we were talking about this anyway and it’s only a couple of months till the end of exams.’

‘A couple of months?’ she said, staring at him like he had lost his mind. ‘Remus, we have trouble going a couple of days without sex. How the hell are we going to last two months?’

‘By masturbating frequently?’ he suggested and she glared at him. ‘Jess, are we really going to waste the last hour or two we have alone arguing about something we can’t change?’ he asked, running his hand up her thigh.



Her face scrunched up in unhappiness and Remus sat up and kissed her gently, stroking along her jaw with her thumb.

‘Please don’t, honey,’ he whispered. ‘It’ll be over before we know it, and just think of what we’ve got waiting at the end. We’ll get married, you’ll get your job, we can make love one hundred times a day if you want to make for this.’

Jess grinned reluctantly. ‘One hundred times a day, huh?’ she said, raising an eyebrow. ‘Don’t start making promises you can’t keep, Professor Lupin.’

She pushed him back onto the bed and straddled him quickly. ‘You have a choice now,’ she said, lowering her head to kiss his chest. ‘We could do it once slowly, or twice fast - if you think you’re up to it, of course.’



‘I think I’ll play it safe and go with trying it once slowly,’ he said, his hands rising to cup her ass as she kissed his neck. He rolled them over suddenly so he was on top.

‘You’re already behind this morning,’ he said with a smile. ‘I owe you one.’

His mouth moved to her ribs, Jess giggling as his breath tickled her. Remus laughed softly and blew a raspberry on her skin, making her laugh harder. He did it again, and Jess squirmed.

‘Remus,’ she laughed and he moved up to kiss her.

‘I adore you, Jess,’ he said quietly, and she raised her hand to his face.

‘Almost as much as I adore you, honey,’ she told him, kissing him softly.



The next six weeks were torturous for them, but they kept to their word - only seeing each other in class, or having a short conversation when they met in the corridors.

‘How are you going?’ Remus asked when they met outside the Dining Hall just before the NEWT exams. ‘You’re not stressing out too much, are you? You look tired.’

‘It’s called sexual frustration, Remus,’ she replied with a frown. ‘But I’m trying to channel it into study.’

She sighed and gave him a tight smile. ‘How are you?’ she asked. He smiled, desperately wanted to take her in his arms.

‘Missing you,’ he murmured in a low voice. ‘And I think I’m getting RSI in my wrist, but apart from that, I’m fine.’

Jess gave a soft laugh. ‘ Three more weeks until end of term,’ she said then saw Snape coming down the stairs behind Remus.

‘I’d better go and eat,’ she said, glaring at the dark man who was smirking at her. Remus stared after her with a frown, then pushed past Snape to take a seat at the teacher’s table. He sat next to Albus and leaned close to the man.



‘I need to spend some time alone with Jess,’ he said quietly, seeing the Headmaster’s startled look. ‘She seems to have lost some confidence and I want to go through the defence exam with her to reassure her she knows it all.’

Albus looked sceptical and Remus frowned. ‘This isn’t just an excuse to be by myself with her, although I won’t bother pretending I don’t want to be. I think she needs a confidence boost. I’m worried about her. Look, you can supervise us if you like.’

The Headmaster thought for a moment, watching Remus’ face. ‘In your classroom only, door open and hands off,’ Albus said firmly. ‘I may just come and check on you.’

‘That’s fine,’ Remus said gratefully. ‘Thank you.’

Albus smiled. ‘I’m not doing this to punish you both, you know,’ he said softly.

‘I know,’ Remus said. ‘I must admit at times it feels like a punishment, but it’ll be over soon.’



Jess looked thrilled when Remus told her to stay behind after class the next day and told her his plan.

‘How did you know I needed this?’ she asked, nearly in tears she was so grateful.

‘I don’t know,’ he said, reaching for her hand. ‘I just did.’

She smiled and they settled in to go through the topics Remus thought were most likely to come up in the exams. An hour and a half later, Albus poked his head in the door, watching as Jess cast a Patronus Charm.

‘A werewolf?’ he said in surprise, making the Patronus disappear as Jess and Remus spun around.

‘Yes,’ said Jess, giving Remus a smile and he smiled back. Albus stared at them, a piercing look on his face.

‘You‘ve got about five minutes before dinner,’ he said as he left the room, closing the open door behind him, the lock clicking into place.



Remus looked surprised. Albus had been insistent about that open door….But even as he thought it, he understood. He turned to Jess who was packing up her books and took her face in his hands, kissing her frantically. Jess dropped her bag and wrapped her arms around him, kissing him just as desperately back. After a few minutes, Remus pulled away, breathless.

‘I needed that,’ he said and Jess leaned her head against his chest.

‘So did I,’ she mumbled, grasping his shirt and dragging him closer so their bodies were pressed against each other.

‘I think Albus knew we needed that as well,’ he said, his mouth moving against her hair as he pressed his face into the dark brown strands.



‘God, I miss you,’ she said, wrapping her arms around his waist.

‘I miss you too, honey,’ he murmured, kissing the side of her face then taking it in his hands again. ‘You have nothing to worry about with your exams, Jess. You know all this stuff and you’ll be amazing.’

Jess smiled up at him a little shyly. ‘I like having someone tell me they believe in me,’ she said softly. ‘Makes a nice change.’

Remus smiled and kissed her again, gentler this time. ‘I do believe in you,’ he said, lips still on hers. ‘I love you too.’

Jess smiled. ‘I love you.’ They spent another minute kissing then he pulled completely away.

‘We should go,’ he said regretfully. ‘Albus trusted us - and I’m about to throw you down on that desk and tear your clothes off which I don’t think was the idea behind this.’

Jess giggled and finished packing her books before they walked together to dinner.



Exams began the next week, and Remus was distracted as he conducted his final tests with the younger classes. He was concerned about how Jess was doing, but also was trying to keep an eye on Harry, growing more worried that Sirius would make an attempt on his life as his chances ran out. Harry was protected once he reached his relative’s home so Sirius had to try and get to him while he was at school.



He had a free period when Jess was undertaking her defence practical exam and he paced nervously outside, trying to show an interest in the other students exam results as they came out of the hall.

She finally appeared and smiled at him in relief. ‘It was fine,’ she said when he pulled her aside. ‘I think I got at least an Exceeds Expectations. Thank you so much, Rem…Professor Lupin.’

‘You did it yourself, Jess,‘ he said.

‘Well in that case, I won’t need to figure out an extra special way to thank you for all your help,‘ she teased with a big smile.

He grinned, wanting so badly to kiss her and he moved closer. ‘When I get you alone, Jessica Cooper,’ he said under his breath. ‘I am not letting you go for a long, long time.’

‘I‘ll look forward to it, sir,’ she replied with a wink, and moved away as another of his students approached him with her results.



Jess finished her exams a week later, frustrated at the bad timing that meant that she couldn’t see Remus afterwards as it was a full moon. She spent the night talking with friends and drinking some smuggled in Firewhiskey to celebrate the end of their schooling. The next morning, she slept in, missing breakfast as she spent several minutes with her head bent over the toilet.

‘Too much Firewhiskey,’ she thought, splashing cold water on her face.

The thought of breakfast made her feel sick, and she decided to go to the infirmary to get a pain potion. The nurse was fussing over someone who seemed to have grown hair all over their body and Jess took a seat next to a Gryffindor Seventh Year she knew from Defence classes, who looked in just as bad a shape as she was.

‘Too much Firewhiskey, Matt?’ she asked softly and the boy nodded, then grabbed his head with a hiss.



They sat in silence for a few minutes, watching the nurse try and undo the spell on the hairy student.

‘Did you hear about Professor Lupin?’ Matt said suddenly, turning to look at her.

Jess’ head turned sharply and she frowned. ‘What about him?’ she demanded and the boy looked taken aback.

‘He’s a werewolf,’ he said, then saw Jess’ shocked face. ‘I know,’ he said, mistaking her stunned expression. ‘He seemed like a really good guy. Hard to believe he’s a werewolf.’ ‘How…how did you find out?’ she said urgently.

‘Everyone knows,’ he replied, then was startled when Jess stood up abruptly, headache forgotten, and left the infirmary.



She saw Remus walking down the hall and called out to him. He turned and smiled at her. ‘Hey,’ he said, putting his bag down on the floor. ‘I was wondering where you were.’ ‘What’s going on?’ she asked. ‘Matt Hogan just told me everyone knows about the lycanthropy.’

Remus’ jaw tensed. He’d already decided not to tell Jess what had happened with Sirius last night unless he had to. He needed to get his head around it himself first, and it would mean delving into the past to explain everything. He still hadn’t told her about all of that, and still didn’t think it was important to their future.



‘They do know,’ he told her. ‘Snape let it slip.’

She frowned and said, ‘Accidentally?’

Remus let out a soft laugh. ‘I doubt it,’ he said. ‘I’ve resigned. The parent’s won’t want me around once they find out what I am.’ He stepped closer and put his hand on her shoulder.

‘I’m going home now,’ he told her. ‘There’s only a week or so left of term then you can join me.’

But she shook her head. ‘No way,’ she said firmly. ‘I’m not waiting. Exams are over - it’s just packing and saying goodbye now. I’d much rather be with you. I’ll talk to Dumbledore and tell him I’m leaving today.’



Remus smiled and nodded, staring at her concerned face. ‘I’d really like that. I’m sorry about all this drama, Jess,’ he said. ‘Look, I’ve got to go. Albus arranged a carriage for me.’

She nodded and moved forward, taking his hand. ‘I’ll be with you soon,’ she said quietly and he smiled again.

‘I’m counting on it,’ he said then leant forward to kiss her quickly. ‘I love you, Jess,’ he said softly and she nodded.

‘I love you too,’ she replied, squeezing his hand. He lifted her hand and looked at it.

‘This can be put right now,’ he said, taking the engagement ring off her right hand and putting it back on her left. He bought her hand to his mouth and kissed it.

‘I’ll see you very soon, honey,’ he said.



Dropping her hand, he turned and walked away from her, smiling again before he disappeared around the corner. Jess ran to her room and threw her belongings into her trunk, startling Karen and Tracey, who were lying on their beds recovering.

‘What on earth are you doing?’ Tracey asked, frowning at Jess. ‘We’ve got another week before we leave…’

‘I’m leaving today,’ Jess said, slamming the lid of her trunk shut. ‘I’ve finished exams - that’s all I had to do - so I am leaving.’ She turned to her friends and smiled at their confused faces. ‘I’ll miss you both.’

At her words, the two girls realised she was serious and got up to hug her, saying goodbye.



Tracey moved to the bathroom, feeling ill again, leaving Karen and Jess alone.

‘I’ll miss you, Jess,’ Karen said with a smile.

‘I’m not sure where I’ll be staying from now on,’ said Jess, shrinking her luggage so it fit in her pocket. ‘But I’ll owl you when I sort it out so we can keep in contact.’

‘You and Professor Lupin moving in together?’ Karen asked, and Jess looked back at her sharply.

‘What?’ she asked, feeling her face flush.

‘There were rumours earlier in the year,’ Karen told her with a smile. ‘But they stopped after New Years. I guessed it was true. You never put your hand up in class and he hardly ever called on you - that’s pretty unusual. He kind of watched you - trying not to be obvious, but he always looked away quickly when he saw someone looking. He was far too concerned about you; spent too much time discussing homework with you; and you both kind of…lit up around each other.’

Jess looked a little stunned and Karen grinned. ‘I don’t think the others noticed, you hid it pretty well,’ she said. ‘I never told anyone what I thought. I figured that, if it were true, you had to keep it quiet because he’s a teacher and because you’re only just of age…’



‘I’m not,’ confessed Jess, finally finding her voice. ‘I’m twenty one, not seventeen. It’s a long story, Karen.’ She was absently twirling the ring on her finger and Karen noticed. ‘The ring’s changed hands,’ she noted. ‘Does that mean you’re engaged?’

Jess smiled involuntarily and looked down at her hand. ‘Yeah,’ she said softly. ‘He asked me over Easter.’ She looked up at her friend.

‘You can’t tell anyone about us,’ she said urgently. ‘I don’t want anyone to think Remus behaved badly. We got involved before we came to Hogwarts and….I fell in love with him.’ Karen grinned and hugged Jess.



‘Damn I wish you’d let me tell Tracey,’ she giggled. ‘She has such a thing for Professor Lupin - she’d just die if she knew you’d been shagging him all this time. You have been shagging him all this time, haven’t you?’ A reluctant smile broke out over Jess’ face and she flushed but nodded.

Karen bit her lip. ‘Just out of curiosity….what, um, what is he like?’

Jess grinned and shoved her shrunken luggage in her bag. ‘Incredible,’ she whispered, as Tracey entered the room. ‘Amazing. Huge.’

Karen laughed and hugged her again before Jess left the room and made her way to the Headmaster’s office where Dumbledore seemed to be expecting her.



‘You want to leave today,’ he said, looking up as she walked into the room.

‘Yes,’ she answered and he nodded.

‘I won’t try and stop you,’ he said. ‘I can see you’re determined and your work is finished.’

He indicated his fireplace. ‘Remus apparated once he was clear of the grounds,’ the man said. ‘He should be home now.’

He stood up and came to stand next to her. ‘I wish you both luck,’ he said, surprising her. ‘I am sorry for the way all this has come about, but at least we all know the truth now.’

Jess frowned and was about to ask him to explain what ’all this’ was but he gently directed her to the fireplace. She stepped into it and threw down powder, everything spinning as she left Hogwarts.