TRYING TO REMEMBER

Sirius walked in the next morning to see Remus tossing in his sleep.

“Babe wake up.” Sirius started shaking him. “Hun c’mon wake up.”

Remus eyes shot open and he grabbed Sirius so tight as if he would never let him go.

“Baby what happened?”

“You’re here. You’re not dead. Must have been a bad dream.”

“What happened?”

“You, me, Tonks, a tall big dark man and a man with a crazy eye barged into a room with a dais. Harry was there but he was younger and he was with another boy. They were fighting with a bunch of people with black robes and masks. There were sparks everywhere and people were going down left and right. You were fighting this crazy woman with long black hair there was a red light but you ducked then another and it hit you square in the chest and your eyes went wide and you fell into an arch behind a veil. Harry went to run after you but I grabbed him and told him you were dead. But you’re not you’re here.”

“Shhh, move over.” Remus moved over on the bed and Sirius climbed in next to him put his arm around his shoulders and pulled Remus head to his chest. His first memory and it had been the day they were separated. Sirius started stroking what little hair that had grown back. “I’m here luv.”

“It seemed so real.”

“That’s because it was. You had a memory Remus. Not one I would have chose as a first memory, but a memory it is. ”

“But you’re here, how?”

“Only one person knows that and that person is you.”

“And I can’t remember.”

“Shhh.” Sirius moved down a little and lay on his side facing Remus leaned in and kissed him. Remus pull Sirius closer and they started snogging on his bed. Sirius was getting harder and harder as Remus kissed his face, neck and then his ear. Remus started to nibble and suck on his ear, which drove Sirius absolutely crazy. Remus than kissed what was exposed of his collar bone and ran his tongue down it. He slowly unbuttoned Sirius shirt and continued his ministrations down Sirius breast bone. Now Sirius shirt was completely unbuttoned and Remus had it spread wide open.

“You’re beautiful. You could stand to put on a little weight though.”

Remus started to nibble on his right nipple and licking all around it. He moved on top of Sirius and could feel the bulge in his pants. Remus slowly grinded his hips into Sirius’ very swollen cock and it made him moan and shiver.

“Gods Remus, keep on doing that.”

Remus was nibbling on his ear as he was moving back and forth each grind making Sirius’ cock throb more and more. Remus moved to his mouth and couldn’t get enough of it just moving back and forth. Remus was getting so hard too with cock against cock feeling the friction and each movement making their breathing uneasy. Finally Sirius moaned loudly as he came inside his pants. But he didn’t care; he wanted to get Remus off so badly he stuck his hand up the hospital gown, grabbed his cock and started pumping it after a few strokes Remus came all over his hand. Sirius slowly removed his hand and licked the cum off of it.

“That Mr. Lupin was incredible and in such a public place.” Remus put his head on Sirius’ shoulder smiled up at him, gave him a kiss and slowly began to drift off. Sirius never wanted to leave Remus’ side ever again. He kissed the top of his head. “I love you.”

Remus whispered back in his sleep state “I love you too.”

Sirus was in a very happy place. Just having Remus back in his arms sleeping with his head on his chest. Remus started to shutter in his sleep. Sirius kissed the top of his head and Remus woke up, looked up at Sirius and held him as tight as he could.

“Don’t leave me again.”

“I’m not planning on it.”

The next few days went by uneventful with the puppies doing a lot of cuddling and snogging. Sirius started recounting the many adventures of the marauders and Remus was almost done with his first year of magic. But as always all good things must come to an end and now it was time to go home and face the reality of things. Things like an unknown marriage and an unknown child.

Tonks was avoiding Sirius at all costs which suited him just fine because it meant that he and Remus were getting closer and closer. He had still yet to say “I love you’ again but Sirius felt how close they were.

“Where are we going?”

“My old house, twelve Grimmauld Place for now. Hopefully in a little while you can go back to your cottage in Wales.”

“By myself?”

“I didn’t want to be presumptuous. Will you share a room with me at my old house?”

“I don’t know if I’m ready for that.”

“It never will have to go any further than holding each other at night. I’ve really missed you.”

They flooed back to twelve Grimmauld Place as apparating was too advanced magic for Remus right now. Sirius led him past the portrait of his mother, who was permanently quieted by Remus; her eyes were bulging at the werewolf. Sirius smiled.

“What happened to her mouth? It looks like someone erased it.”

“You erased it after I disappeared. Which I am very grateful.” He leaned in and gave Remus a kiss. “If you hadn’t she would be shouting all kinds of things at you like ‘half-breed, half-blood scum, and since you shut her up I’m sure she is thinking even worse things of you.”

“Who is she?”

“My mother.”

Sirius laughed at the look on Remus face. “You’re too precious.” They got to the kitchen.

“Want something to eat; I need to plump you up.”

“Look who’s talking? I’ll eat if you’ll eat.”

“I’m sure I can whip something up for the both of us. Unfortunately you and Harry are the cooks and with you out of commission and Harry at work well let’s take the risk. At least we’ll die together.”

“Don’t joke about that. That memory still disturbs me.”

“I’m sorry babe.”

“Let’s see if Harry left something easy to make but enough to fill two grown men.”

“Here we go. A note ‘Even something you won’t mess up Sirius. And Remus welcome home.’ Harry’s one in a million kid.”

Sirius took out the container and inside was a beef stew nice and hearty. Sirius put it in the pan and warmed it up, enough so it was hot and not burnt. The boys ate with gusto Sirius hadn’t eaten well since he found Remus missing it was good to have a good meal sitting across from the second most important person in his life. Harry will always remain the first, but Remus was a very close second. Sirius cleared off the table and said scourgify and the dishes were clean.

“What is there a spell for everything?”

“Just about. But there are some things I prefer to do without magic.” He got up from his chair and went to Remus sat next to him leaned in an kissed him a nice long passionate kiss. “Like this.”

“Where is that bedroom you wanted to share?”

Sirius led hi up the stairs not knowing how far they would get, just knowing that Remus wanted to share a room with him was enough.