Harry Potter and The Frozen Heart

Title: Harry Potter and the Frozen Heart
Chapter Title: Sad Goodbyes
Author: Ash Knight
Pairings: Harry/OC
Warnings: Slash, Spoilers from book 5, bad language, sexual situations, and more . . .
Disclaimer: I don’t own Harry Potter and I do not make any money from these stories.
Synopsis: During his summer before his 6th year, Harry decides he no longer cares about the wdingding worlds needs and decides to face Voldemort on his own terms. But, he meets someone who then begins to unlock his inner feelings in way he never knew possible, but what happens when this person shows up at Hogwarts? Not to mention the new threat Voldemort has in store . . . Will Harry be able to stop him? And if so, at what cost?


“After tomorrow I’ll be gone” Harry said he broke away from Alex’s lips.

“Then how about instead of going to Mayhem we go out to dinner together I know of this restaurant/café we can go to. They have a stage where people read there own poetry or do karaoke. We can even sing a few bars” Alex chuckled.

“We’ll I wont mind the dinner but I’m afraid I don’t sing” Harry laughed.

“Neither do a lot of people but the point is to just let go and have fun. I’ll tell you what Zane, if you sing I’ll sing.”

“Deal” Harry said and then pulled Alex into a kiss.

“There’s something I’ve been meaning to ask you for a while.”

“What is it?” Harry asked.

“Am I the first guy you have ever been with?” Alex asked.

“Yes” Harry answered without hesitation. “Am I the first guy you’ve been with?”

“No” Alex replied honestly.

Harry wasn’t shocked by this but the idea of Alex being with someone else made him feel a bit insecure.

“You’re only the second guy I’ve been with, so it’s not like I do this sort of thing often” Alex explained. “I wish you didn’t have to go.”

“I wish I could stay too, but nothing I can do will change that” Harry declared sadly.

Alex and Harry gave each other a final kiss goodnight before Harry got out of Alex’s car and walked home.

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Harry stepped out of the shower and began to dry himself off. Just as he was drying off his hair he caught sight of himself in the mirror. For the first time he realized just how much his body had changed. His hair had grown much longer and was now just above the wings on his back. Thanks to the kung fu training and the brutal workouts with Alex his body was no longer scrawny and weak. His muscles were now sculpted to perfection and Harry was now a bit bigger than Alex, with a great set of abs and pecks.

With a final glance Harry went to his bedroom to put on some clothes. He put on his emerald green suit but decided not to wear the matching tie and left the collar open. Then, Harry put on a pair of black suede leather shoes and his forehead plate, then began to fix his hair. He pulled it back and tied it into a single twist like a pony tail and left a few bangs lose to frame his face.

{You look wonderful Harry} Seth said as he looked at Harry from the bed.

{Thanks Seth} Harry replied.

Then Harry grabbed his wands and two daggers, making sure they were well concealed in his clothes. Then he went into his nightstand and pulled out the letter he had written to give to Alex. When Harry finished getting ready he told Seth, Keeva, and Hedwig to stay inside the trunk since they were leaving early the next morning. With that Harry climbed out of his trunk and left the house. The night air was cool and the sky was cloudless. By the time Harry walked to the park Alex was already there, as usual. He was dressed in tan slacks that went great with his skin tone and matching shoes. He wore a white long sleeve dress shirt opened at the collar, revealing his gold chain.

“You look great.”

“So do you” Harry replied as he grabbed Alex by the waist and pulled him into a kiss.

After a few minutes Alex broke free of Harry’s grip.

“If we keep snogging here Zane, we’ll never get to have dinner” Alex laughed.

Harry laughed and they walked over to Alex’s car. For what would be the last time Harry rode inside of Alex’s car. Together they rode in silence, quietly enjoying the others company. A half hour later found them parked in front of the restaurant/cafe Alex had told him about. Harry was glad he had worn his suit, for even thought it wasn’t a fancy restaurant, he saw a lot of people dressed up. The waiter greeted them warmly and showed them to a table near the stage where someone was reading their poetry. After giving them their menus the waiter left them to think about their order.

“So what are you going to do without me for the rest of the summer?”

“I don’t know. I guess I’ll just work out by myself for the rest of the summer” Alex answered.

“Too bad we can’t stop time and live in this night forever.”

“Then let’s take full advantage of what little time we have” Alex declared.

Harry agreed full heartedly. The waiter came back and they placed their orders. They talked for a bit more while listening to people singing up on the stage. A few people could sing very well while the rest just seemed to get up for fun. By the time their food came, Alex and Harry were heatedly discussing which one of them was going to go up first.

“I’ve never sung before and the last thing I want to do is make everyone here retch.”

“It doesn’t matter if you never sung before the point is to just have fun” Alex insisted.

“What am I suppose to sing, pop goes the weasel?” Harry laughed.

“Just sing something your feeling” Alex replied with a smirk

After a few more minutes Harry gave in and went up to sing. With some polite applause he was welcomed onto the stage, and Harry began to look through the karaoke machines database to pick a song to sing. Then, the music started and Harry began to sing:

[I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naïve
I’m just out to find
The better part of me

I’m more than a bird . . . I’m more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It’s not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I’ll never see

It may sound absurd…but don’t be naive
Even Heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed…but won’t you concede
Even Heroes have the right to dream
It’s not easy to be me . . .]

When Harry finished singing he was shocked to receive a standing ovation. He couldn’t believe what he had just done and quickly walked off the stage back to his table with Alex.

“Wow, that’s all I can say, wow” Alex announced as Harry reached their table.

“Well, now it’s your turn” Harry said with his own smirk.

“Well, a promise is a promise” Alex replied as he gave Harry a wink and went over to stage.

Alex up on stage and began to look through the database. Finally he picked a song and the music began:

[And I\'d give up forever to touch you
\'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You\'re the closest to heaven that I\'ll ever be
And I don\'t want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
\'Cause sooner or later it\'s over
I just don\'t want to miss you tonight
And I don\'t want the world to see me
\'Cause I don\'t think that they\'d understand
When everything\'s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And you can\'t fight the tears that ain\'t coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you\'re alive . . .]
Harry felt each note Alex sang coarse through him, and by the time he finished singing Harry wanted to run up on stage kiss him right there. Alex walked off the stage and embraced Harry in his arms. It was a sweet moment in time when nothing else seemed to matter. For the rest of the night, Harry and Alex watched others perform on the stage as they continued to eat and drink to the point where their stomachs felt close to bursting until they finally called for the check. They paid for the food and drinks and left the restaurant.

By the time they reached the park Harry was surprised it was just past midnight. Alex parked his car in the usual spot and Harry stepped out of the car. He gestured for Alex to follow him and leg him over to the swings.

“I guess this is goodbye” Alex said as he took Harry’s hands in his own.

“I don’t want to say goodbye yet.”

“Neither do I” Alex admitted.

“Then let’s not, say goodbye just yet.”

“What do you mean?”

“I’m leaving at exactly 7:00 am. That’s not for another couple of hours” Harry declared. “Will you . . . spend the night with me?”

Alex leaned into Harry, kissing him deeply. When they finally broke apart Harry led Alex by hand back to # 4 Privet Drive. Harry could hear the loud snoring of Uncle Vernon as he closed the front door.

“My relatives are sleeping upstairs. Stay here for a moment so I can make sure the coast is clear.”

Alex nodded his compliance and watched Harry go up the stairs. As soon as he was out of sight Harry pulled out his wand and cast silencing charms on his relatives doors. Uncle Vernon’s snoring was cut off by the spell as was Dudley’s, and Harry proceeded to go to his room. With quick spell work Harry cailenilencing charms on all his walls, then transfigured the hard lumpy bed into one that was far more comfortable. It was now a beautiful bed with white cotton-silk sheets with a pattern of horses and wolves, and matching pillows. Quickly going back down stairs Harry saw Alex still waiting by the front door.

“The coast is clear, everyone is asleep” Harry said as he smiled at Alex and stretched out his hand for Alex to take.

Alex smiled and placed his hand in Harry’s. Making sure to be quite as possible they made their way to Harry’s room. Closing the door behind him, Harry turned his attention to the man beside him.

“Are you scared?”

“No” Harry whispered as he slowly began to unbutton Alex’s shirt.

“Zane I think I . . . “Alex tried to speak but he couldn’t find the words.

“I know Alex; I think I love you too” Harry as he saw a single tear fall from Alex’s right eye.

Harry wiped away the tear with his hand and gently brought Alex’s face into his own. The kiss was deep and full of emotion, as well as all the things they longed to tell one another. They continued to undress each other while they kissed; only breaking apart when they had to. Both of them where entranced by the taste of each other; to Alex Harry’s mouth was divinely bitter like a well aged wine while his skin tasted like cherries. To Harry, Alex’s mouth tasted like a sweet cross between a pear and an apple, while his skin was tasted like sun dried cinnamon. Harry fumbled at the shirt buttons on Alex’s shirt, tugging it free from his trousers. The skin beneath felt searing hot to Harry’s touch. Alex pulled off Harry’s own shirt and unzipped his slacks, as they welcomed each other inside of them.

Soon Harry was completely nude, lying on his stomach on the bed, while Alex continued to kiss him deeply and caress Harry’s form. A shiver went through Harry’s body as Alex suddenly dragged his down Harry’s spine right between the wings on his back, lower and lower until he reached Harry’s entrance.

“Don’t stop” Harry moan as he continued to shiver in pleasure.

Alex obliged and continued, driving his tongue into Harry. Harry tensed up for a moment as the wave of sensation coursed through him. He had never felt anything like this before. The tongue continued to probe deeper, teasing his hole, making Harry whimper in pleasure. When he thought he could take no more he suddenly felt Alex slide his finger inside of him along with his tongue. Harry was pulling the sheets off the mattress as he grabbed and pulled on the mattress in an attempt to stay in control. For about ten minutes it went on, until Alex decided Harry was ready.

“What’s wrong?” Harry asked breathlessly as Alex got off the bed and grabbed his pants.

“Protection” Alex stated with a smile as he pulled out a condom from his wallet.

Harry blushed, thankful that Alex had though of safety. The light from the street lamp outside filtered Harry’s window bathing the room in its light, giving them both a strange glow in the darkness. Harry watched as Alex put on the condom and crawled back into bed. Alex made sure Harry was still primed before he continued, as he drove his tongue and fingers back inside Harry’s entrance. Finally, Alex pulled away and positioned himself to enter Harry. But, even thought it was Harry who was on the bottom, it was not submission. They were equals in everyway, and soon their bodies rocked together in a knowing dance, without clumsiness, without the uncertainty of first time lovers.

Harry knew Alex’s touch, his moves, and vice versa. Their moans grew louder and louder, echoing off the walls as Alex drove his cock deeper and deeper into Harry. Not knowing how much longer he could himself back, as Harry felt Alex making more and more contact with his prostate, Harry bit down on his pillow to keep himself from crying out as he finally felt sensation explode each of his nerves endings all over his body in pleasure. Alex climaxed with Harry, adding his own moan of pleasure to Harry as their voiced echoed off the walls in tharlyarly empty room. Quickly composing himself as Alex got off of him he saw Alex’s eyes lock into his own.

Neither needed to speak, as everything they had wanted to say no longer needed to be said out loud. Enfolding each other in their arms they soon feel asleep in comfortable bed.


Alex woke up as he tried to find Harry, only to find a pillow. He looked over to the window to see Harry standing there, still nude, looking out onto Privet Drive. For a moment he said nothing and just watched as Harry looked out the window, smiling with the look on his face of utter contentment as the sun bounced off his head plate.

“Good morning” Alex said with smile, calling Harry’s attention.

“Good morning” Harry said as he sat down on the bed and kissed Alex good morning. “I wish I could make us some breakfast but I’m afraid you have to leave.”

“Typical! If I wanted a one night stand I would have gone to Mayhem last night!” Alex declared in mock anger.

Alex laughed at the look on Harry’s face when he said this and Harealiealized Alex was only joking. Alex got up and pulled on his pants and put his shirt on, not bothering to button it and gathered the rest of his clothes in his hands, which included his underwear, socks and shoes. Forgetting his own underwear Harry just pulled on his own pants and nothing else. He led Alex out of his room and into the front yard before the Dursleys saw them. He didn’t want to rush Alex out the door but he knew the Order would be there any second now to collect him.

“Zane, before I go I want to tell you that last night . . . was nothing short of amazing, and no matter what happens, I’m never going to forget you.”

Harry was trying desperately not to shed tears as he looked into Alex’s eyes and saw his heart warming sincerity and open affection.

“Alex I want you to take this” Harry said as he reached into his pocket and pulled out the letter he had written. “Don’t read it now, read it after I leave. But, right now all I can say is that there is so much I want to tell you and show you, but for reasons bigger than myself I have to leave instead of staying here with you. For the first time in a long time, because of you, this summer I was able feel alive. You made all my pain go away and made me feel like there was something more about me other than what other people see. But, now I have to go and play this role I’ve been cast into, and put on a mask that I fear will soon become my real face.”

Harry could hold back no longer as eyes gave way and tears began to slide down his face. Alex hugged him tightly, obviously not wanting to let him go, until Harry pushed away and kissed his lover one last time.

*SOMEHOW, SOMEWAY, I PROMISE I’LL FIND YOU AGAIN SOMEDAY* Harry’s heart and mind screamed in unison.

Harry broke the kiss and said his finally good bye. Alex turned away and walked from Privet Drive, and as Harry watched him go, he felt a part of himself go with him.

“Harry” a voice called out.

Harry turned and felt his heart stop as he saw who had called his name. From Mrs. Figg’s house he saw Hermione along with the entire Weasley clan (except Percy of coarse), Mrs. Figg, and Tonks. They had all watched the scene that had unfolded in the Dursley’s front yard. . .


Alex sat on a swing as he ripped opened the envelope Harry had given him and pulled out the letter:

Dear Alex,

If you’re reading this that means I am gone, and most likely you will never see me again. I’m writing this to you now because I want you to know who I really am. My name isn’t Zane Black, as much as it pains me to say, my real name is Harry Potter. I hope you are not too angry, but I want you to know that our time together meant the world to me and my name was the only thing that was false. How I feel about you is a truth that runs deeper than anything I know. There is so much I want to tell you, but if I told you everything it would place you in grave danger.

I’ve searched through every part of my mind to find a way to tell you what you mean to me but the only way I can convey it to you is through a poem I found the night before which I have enclosed in this letter. As for everything else I’m afraid I can say no more. Just knowing me has caused great pain to people I know as well as the people I love, and I hope you can forgive me in the end for not explaining it all to you.

I will love you always,

Harry Potter

Alex turned to the other page and read the poem Harry had given him:

Tender Hands

By: Chris de Burgh

Oh how, at the journey\'s end, I lie in the heat of the night,
Feeling the heartache, wondering why, I want a friend,
I want a friend to lay down beside me,
I want a friend, I want him now, someone who knows what I mean
When I say, that I need
Tender hands to hold me, I need tender hands tonight,
Will you lay them on my shoulders,
Will you lay them on my eyes,
And I need tender hands to take me,
All the way to paradise, and then, when it\'s over,
I need tender hands to hold me through the night;
Touch me with your velvet mouth, I will give all the love that I have,
Under the moonlight, reaching your heart,
Where are you now, where are you now, come out of the shadows,
Where are you now, I want you now,
You know that I cannot always be strong, and I need
Tender hands to hold me, I need tender hands tonight,
Will you lay them on my shoulders,
Will you lay them on my eyes, and I need
Tender hands to take me all the way to paradise,
And then, when it\'s over, I need tender hands
To hold me through the nights;
I am only a voice in a city of noise, can you hear me this time,
I see the storm grow, there\'s a light in the desert tonight;
And I need tender hands, give me tender hands,
Will you lay them on my shoulders, oh give me
Tender hands to take me all the way to paradise,
And then when it\'s over, I have tender hands
To hold you through the night, darling,
My tender hands will hold you through the night;
I want your tender hands, you have tender hands
I want those tender hands, tender hands…

Alex placed the letter back in his pocket and began to walk to his car, with a big smile on his face…