Child of New Beginnings

Chapter 12



Severus was seated in his armchair right in front of the fireplace in his private chambers. He was too deep into his thoughts, that the house elves that were popping in and out of his chambers didn’t even catch his notice. The other private chamber nearby was being fixed to be Hermione’s chambers, while there was to be an adjoining room in between both their chambers being built and the moment. That room being Sebastian’s nursery.



Saying that he was disgusted at himself was an understatement. He thought of every bad word that resembled him in the English dictionary. One that described it to the dot was rapist. He remembered that night so well. Not only did he rape her, but also, stole her innocence. Yes, he remembered apologizing to her as he was taking her then. It was much more different now. He didn’t just rape anyone. It was Hermione Granger.



He remembered the fear that he saw in the woman’s brown cinnamon eyes. Tears came from them. He remembered that she hadn’t fought back either, and never struggled against him, or scream. Only the occasional sob escaped from her lips after every few thrust.



Shutting his eyes, he tried to push away the images that were flashing through him. Hermione in the hospital bed with machines helping her breath and stay alive. Brown eyes of the woman, brown eyes of Hermione. The images continued to flash and change, faster and faster, until Hermione screamed out in pain.



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“Now where is your daddy?” Lucius murmured to a sleeping Sebastian in his arms as he stepped into Severus’s chambers. He had just come from the hospital wing. Both he and Sebastian sat next to Hermione and her bed, and engaging into some talk, and eventually, begging her to wake up. Of course, it was Lucius that did all of the talking while Sebastian made some baby noises.



Albus and he had called in for Remus Lupin, who currently was an auror for the Ministry again until the new school year started. Then again, would he become the DADA teacher. Remus was very surprised to find out about Sebastian, and know about his parentage. He even got the shock of his life when he heard of how the infant was conceived. Of course, he was asked to keep things confidential. Lucius assigned Remus the case, and asked him to clear things up in muggle London. All the other aurors of course were dealing with all the rogue death eaters, most especially the ones that had recently escaped from Azkaban.



“Severus,” Lucius said as he gently patted the man’s shoulder, waking him.



Severus’s eyes snapped open as he gasped for air and sat up straight.



“Bad dream?” Lucius asked.



Severus sighed and looked up at Lucius and saw Sebastian fast asleep. “At least he’s asleep.”



“Not for the next two hours or so.”



“Masters,” Dobby said as he popped and approached them. “Dobby is here to tell you that little Master’s nursery is not ready yet. Headmaster says that we put crib and changing table in your bedroom Master Snape sir. Dobby even put the toys and clothes that Hagrid got from muggle London sir.”



“Thank you Dobby,” Lucius said.



Dobby then bowed and popped away.



“I’ll be staying in the infirmary,” Lucius informed Severus. Narcissa had told him to stay with Hermione because she needed him. He couldn’t ask for a more understanding and loving wife. “I’ll leave Sebastian with you.”



“I think not,” Severus said as he stood up and walked to his bedroom. “Let Minerva or Albus take care of him.” He didn’t like the idea of Hermione and Sebastian living very close to his quarters. It wasn’t that he hated them, because he didn’t. It was because he hated himself for what he had done to Hermione.



“Severus, he’s your son,” Lucius said as he followed him. “I thought that you had accepted that?”



“A gift that I absolutely, and rightfully do not deserve!” Severus said firmly.



Lucius shook his head and lay Sebastian down in the middle of Severus’s bed. He had to talk to Severus, and hopefully make him see things differently. He walked towards Severus and stood in front of him. “Severus-“



“I raped her!” Severus hissed. The need for shouting at the moment had to be held down. He didn’t want to wake up Sebastian.



“You didn’t know. If you did, you wouldn’t have.”



“None the less, the act was still done.”



“And if you knew?”



“Then I wouldn’t have done it.”



“There, see. You would have stopped yourself. You are not a bad man Severus. Voldemort is the one that made us commit such acts, for disgusting entertainment.”



“Why didn’t she take her glamour charm off? Why didn’t she stop me?”



“If she did take the glamour charm off, Voldemort would have killed us all for our cover would be blown. It was a sacrifice that she made willingly to win the war.”



Severus turned to look at Sebastian with his soft emotions in his eyes. “Then why didn’t she tell me afterwards? I would have not turned them away.”



“She probably would have if it wasn’t for the prophecy. She was afraid, wanting and needing to be away from the possible threats of evil. She tried to protect him. Wouldn’t you do the same?”



“Not just for him, for her as well,” Severus said softly.



Lucius gave him a small pat on the back and smiled. He turned and walked to the crib and saw what he was looking for among the handful of stuffed toys. “This is Norbi,” he said handing it to Severus.



Severus frowned as he looked at the stuffed dragon and then looked at Lucius.



“It’s his favorite toy,” he said. “He sleeps well in the crib, but will sleep better on your chest as you rub his back and bottom. That’s how he sleeps when with me. He won’t wake up and cry as much.” Lucius looked around and noticed that everything had been actually set up temporarily around Severus’s room. “I’m sure you still remember how to change a nappy and feed him as you have done with Draco when he was still a baby?”



“You are his father more than I am to him,” Severus said with a hint of sadness.



“No Severus,” Lucius said. “You are his father, and no one else can ever change that.”



After Lucius left, Severus slowly made his way to his bed, and lay sideways next to Sebastian. He placed Norbi next to his little hand and softly touched Sebastian, not wanting to wake his peaceful slumber. With a finger, he touched the soft hair on his son’s head. Then, the finger trailed down to his face, and nose. He thanked Merlin that the nose wasn’t his and had gotten Hermione’s little button nose. He placed his big hand under Sebastian’s very tiny one and kissed it.



“Daddy promises to make everything better,” he murmured against Sebastian’s brow.



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“Are what about the others?” Minerva asked Albus. She was seated across his desk in his office. “Don’t we tell the rest of the Order, and the rest of the staff when they arrive.”



Albus shook his head as he popped a lemon drop into his mouth. “For now, we must keep things secret. We do not want them to know how Sebastian was conceived. It will not only continue to hurt Severus, but Hermione as well.”



“So what do we tell them when the time comes?”



“We must come up with a story. One in which both parties comply, and no one gets hurt.”



Minerva didn’t say anything but noticed the odd twinkle in Albus’s eyes. What was he planning again?



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AN – Daddy Severus. Sounds nice, doesn’t it? Now what is up with meddling Albus? Review!