Expecting Ginny

MidnightLilly : Harry is being a little jerk. I think he is using Ginny to get back at Severus as well. lol I was actually thinking about having her have twins but I hadn't made up my mind about it. I don't much like the name Richard either. I just picked it because it sounded funny.

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Harry stood at the back door calling her name for a few more minutes before he realized she wasn't coming back. He had screwed up very badly. What had he been thinking saying all those things to Ginny? Harry shut the door and walked into the kitchen.

Molly, Eileen, Bill, and Fleur were sitting at the kitchen table talking. From the relaxed looks on their faces they didn't know Ginny had just taken off. He didn't want them to know they had a fight but he had to find Ginny. She was pregnant and upset.

“Mrs. Weasley,” Harry said clearing his throat.

“Yes Harry?” she asked breaking away from her conversation with Bill.

“I...well...you see...Ginny and I....we had a fight,” Harry stuttered unable to say what he needed to say.

“Where is she?” Bill asked getting to her feet. “Maybe I should talk to her.”

“I don't know,” Harry admitted. “She ran off.”

“She did what?” Bill demanded. “What did you say to her?”

“Now Bill,” Molly said standing up as well. “I'm sure Harry wasn't trying to upset Ginny. All couples fight.”

That caused Harry a lot of pain because he knew he had said some pretty mean things to Ginny during their fight. Molly's statement seemed to calm Bill down a bit but he didn't sit down.

“We better look for her,” Eileen said getting up as well. “She shouldn't be wondering around in her condition. I'll look on the house grounds.”

“Fleur and I'll check on the road leading to the village,” Bill said.

“I'm going to run out and tell Ron and Hermione,” Molly said starting to sound worried. “Ron can floo to Remus and Tonks' place in case she decides to take the Knight bus and Hermione can go to Fred and George's place. She's bound to go some place we know.”

“What about me?” Harry asked.

“You stay here dear,” Molly explained. “We need someone here in case she decides to come back.”

Harry didn't much like that answer. He knew that they didn't want him out looking because he had already caused enough trouble but Molly was too polite to say it. He nodded and sat down at the table. There were a few minutes filled with sounds of loud chatter and activity then everything went quiet.

“What have I done?” he asked himself out loud before putting his head in his hands.

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Ginny didn't know where to run. She could have always run to the outskirts of the village and flagged down the Kightbus but she had left the bag of gold back in her room. She was barely a few hundred feet away from the house when she heard voices back in the house.

“Damn you Harry,” she cursed ducking behind a bush.

Ginny held her breath as Bill and Fleur walked past where she was hiding. They didn't even turn their heads in her direction. Ginny just needed a little while alone and it looked like her family wasn't going to give it to her.

Once Bill and Fleur were out of eye shot she got to her feet and headed back to the garage. Ginny figured if they were already checking the road to they village then they had already checked the property the house was on. She ran up to the garage and ducked inside.

Since the car was still some place off in the forbidden forest there was a lot of room. She shut the door behind her and looked for a place to hide. There was a large pile of boxes in the corner. Ginny walked over to them and stepped over them. There was a nice little area to hide in. She curled into a ball and closed her eyes.

How could Harry say such cruel things to her? He didn't understand. There was no way Harry could understand what she was going through or feeling. Harry was trying to say he thought Snape was taking advantage of the situation but to Ginny it seemed like Harry was the one taking advantage.

It was almost like Harry was using the kid to get back at Snape. It would kill Snape to know he couldn't see his child because Harry had been the one to say 'no'. Harry was turning into such a bastard. He had been turning into a real jerk since his 5th year.

Snape had done the right thing. He was taking responsibly for his actions. Ginny didn't understand why the was making Harry so mad. Maybe it was because Snape was proving he wasn't that heartless asshole everyone thought he was.

Ginny could feel a strong headache coming on when the garage door opened.

“Ginny?” Eileen's voice came. “Are you in here?”

The red head didn't say a thing. In fact she was sure she stopped breathing. She wasn't ready to be found. She wasn't ready to go back to the house and face Harry.

“I just want to make sure you're alright,” she said. “So if you are in here please answer me. I won't make you go to the house. I won't even make you talk to me. I just want to make sure you're alright.”

That didn't sound like a bad idea. If anyone else had found her they would have wanted her to go right back to the house.

“I'm here,” Ginny said softly. “Behind the boxes.”

Eileen didn't say anything as she closed the door and walked over to the boxes. She peeked over the side and gave Ginny a small smile.

“You alright?” She asked leaning against some of the boxes.

“I'll live,” Ginny said laughing slightly.

“Mind if join you back there?” Eileen asked.

Ginny shook her head. Eileen climbed behind the boxes and sat across from Ginny. There was still a little room left but not much. Eileen was true to her word. She didn't say anything to Ginny or make any motions for her to talk. She just sat there holding her head with one of her hands and humming a tune Ginny didn't recognize.

After a few minutes of listening to Eileen humming Ginny began to calm down. Her anger with Harry was almost forgot. Only a little reminder of it was left in the back of her head.

“Feel better?” Eileen asked as she stopped her humming.

“Yes,” Ginny confused. “What was that?”

“Just a tune,” she said twisting her head from side to side. “My mother used to hum it to me and I used to hum it to Severus. It's for relaxing people. I'm sure it's got some magic in there somewhere.”

“It does work that's for sure,” the red head confessed with a laugh. “It works very well.”

“Feel like talking now?” Eileen asked. “You don't have to if you don't want to of course.”

“No I do feel like talking to you,” Ginny said because she felt like she could talk to and trust Eileen. “I can talk to you about what happened with Harry.”

Eileen went back to holding her head with one of her hands. It was her away of telling people she was ready to listen to whatever they had to say.

“He is mad at me because I'm thinking about letting Snape see the baby,” Ginny explained. “I think that it would be unfair for him not to see it. It's like Harry wants to say 'no' just because he knows it'll kill Snape for him to do it. To me it seems like Harry is using me and the baby for revenge. Snape is trying to make up for it and think that makes Harry even angrier.”

“Shouldn't you call him Severus?” Eileen asked out of no where. “I mean you are going to have his baby. You should be able to call him by his first name.”

“Severus,” Ginny said in small voice.

Suddenly an image flashed in her head. She was under Snape and he was inside of her. His large cock was pounding in and out of her so hard. It was hurt so bad but it felt so good. Ginny could hear herself screaming his name.

Just as quickly as the image had come it disappeared. Eileen was looking at her with a worried look.

“I remembered something is all,” Ginny whispered. “I couldn't remember...the...him...him taking advantage of me but I think I just got a flash of it.”

Ginny couldn't bear to say to word 'rape' in front of Eileen. She knew Eileen was upset enough by the thought of her son taking advantage of a girl. It would really upset her to hear Ginny say 'I couldn't him raping me but I think I just got a flash of it.'

“Maybe Harry is trying to take advantage of the siltation,” Eileen said quickly going back to what they had been talking about before. “He does hate Severus an awful lot.”

Ginny bit down on her bottom lip taking it all in. She was thinking about putting her relationship on hold with Harry until she was sure he really cared about her.

“Do you want to see the letter Severus sent me?” Eileen asked changing the subject again.

During the short time Ginny had known Eileen she had learned that she had a bad habit of changing subjects.

“Sure,” Ginny said.

Eileen reached into her pocket and pulled out the folded up letter. She unfolded it and handed it Ginny. Ginny opened it and started to read.

Dear Mum,

I heard that you left dad. I'm not really sure how to take that. I guess it was a good thing because of the way dad treated you and me. It's just strange is all but it was for the best. I know you're bound to have found out about what I did to Ginny Weasley because I heard you were living with the Weasley family. That's why I sent your letters together. I know it must have broke your heart to find out your little boy was a rapist. I've sent her a letter telling her how sorry I am for what I've done. I really am sorry Mum. I know that you're expecting me to marry Ginny since that would be the 'right' thing to do but I'm sure that is possible. I'm a wanted man right now and I'm bound to be a wanted man for a while. Then there is Ginny. I highly doubt Ginny would be interested in marrying the man who raped her. Please don't tell Ginny about this. I know she's in love with Harry and I don't want to screw up her life anymore than I already have.

Love
Severus

Ginny didn't know what to say. She just stared at the letter taking in it's contents. Severus was willing to go as far as marrying her to make sure he had made up for the thing he had done. Harry had been right about that. Ginny didn't thinks she wanted to marry him. She wasn't sure she could sleep in the same bed as the man who had hurt her so bad. But it just might be the best thing for the kid.

“You don't have to decide anything right now,” Eileen said almost if she could read her mind. “Severus was just saying it's a far off possibility.”

“I know,” Ginny said. “It's just I don't know how Harry would handle it if he knew Severus had even suggested it. I still love Harry but it isn't the same as it used to be.”

“Been there,” Eileen said with a slight laugh taking the letter back. “Just don't tell him about. It seems like you two are going through a hard time right now without that extra bit.”

Ginny nodded slightly. She wasn't going to tell Harry. They had already had one major fight because of the letter Severus had sent to her. The last thing they needed was to have a fight over the letter Severus had sent Eileen. Yet, one the other hand maybe they did need to just fight and split up. Maybe they weren't meant to be together after all.

“Thinking about it won't do much good,” Eileen said standing up. “Why don't we go back to the house? I bet your family is worried sick.”

“Yes,” Ginny said standing up. “My poor mother must be worried out of her mind.”

Eileen stepped out from behind the boxes and Ginny followed her. Together the two of them walked out of the garage and back to the house.