Snape's Obsession

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Snape’s Obsession
chapter 11

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Wednesday evening Severus sat in his office preparing his class work for the rest of the week. Every now and then he would cast a glance toward the slightly open door to his office. He hadn’t heard a word from Valora since she left his quarters on Sunday. He had seen her in the Great Hall, but she always sat with her back towards him. She was not even coming to say good night anymore. He was beginning to resign himself to the fact that he had lost her. He had done the right thing, for once, and given her the option to walk away, which apparently was exactly what she had done.

Still, Severus had hoped Valora would be re ere enough to at least tell him their relationship was over. The small amount of infernal hope he was holding out was vexing his mind, making concentration impossible. He stood, stretching his tired body and sighing deeply. Going in to check his stores for the next days classes, he wondered again if he should have just kept his mouth shut. He would still have the woman he loved, the only woman he had ever loved. But no, selfishness was what had lead to his tainted life to begin with, Valora deserved better.

“Professor ?” He heard a voice calling from the office. Stepping out into the classroom, Severus saw Valora standing in the doorway to his office. She had on her muggles jeans and a lavender colored tee shirt with her hair pulled back in the braid he had noticed earlier in the day. She looked so soft and vulnerable. Why did she have to look so desirable when she told him it was all over ?

“Yes.” He said, not trusting himself to say more. Though begging her to reconsider was on the tip of his tongue.

“Do you have a few minutes ?” He nodded, then walked slowly into his private quarters, holding the door for her, then offering her a seat on the couch. He turned to go sit in his arm chair, but she grabbed his hand, gently pulling him down to sit next to her. When he sat down, she kept his hand enclosed in both of hers, her touch sending conflicting signals to his confused system. Her touch elicited desire, pain, regret, fear and all at the same time. Trying to keep his breathing even, Severus looked into Valora’s eyes. She stared back at him evenly, but gave no indication as to why she was here now. ‘You know why she’s here’, the voice in his head said. Optimism was dangerous right now, but it was all he had.

“First, I want to apologize for not coming to see you sooner. I needed some time to sort through my feelings.” Valora said, her violet eyes meeting his again and drawing him in. “I have to admit ……. what you told me….. scared me …… a lot.” Severus nodded, this was as he had expected.

“With my background, I am all too familiar with prejudice and I understand it comes from fear. But from what you told me ……. it wasn’t fear that drove you to the Dark Lord, it was a need to strike back, at those deserving of it or not.” Severus tensed and tried to pull his hand from hers, but she would not release him. “Please, Severus. You had your say, now it’s my turn.” He sat still and swallowed hard staring at her hands, waiting for the words he knew were coming.

“This idea of revenge scared me. But it also confused me.” He looked back into her eyes as they searched his. “The man I know, the man I love, I do not believe capable of that kind of senseless violence. This man before me is not the boy who sought power. You are the man, who has tried to make amends for past mistakes. You were so wrong in what you said, Severus Snape. You are a good man.” Severus stared at her hard, scarcely believing what he was hearing.

“What …… what are you saying, Valora ?” Severus’ heart was racing nearly as fast as his mind. She placed a hand on his cheek, stroking him softly with her thumb.

“I am saying I love you and I forgive you, Severus.” Valora said. Severus felt tears stinging his eyes as he looked at her. She had just uttered two phrases that, not long ago, he w nev never have expected to hear. Still disbelieving, he moved forward taking her into his arms and crushing her to him. He felt tears escaping his tightly closed eyes and wetting her neck, all the time his mind was screaming out in joy. Taking Valora’s face in both of his hands, he kissed her deeply, trying to express the depth of his joy, because words were not enough. She responded to his kiss with the same passion and love. As she pulled back, she looked into his eyes again.

“Thank you …. for telling me, for trusting me.” He could now see tears were coming to her eyes. Severus didn’t tell her it was not a matter of trust, but of conscious. He did trust Valora, that had never been in question, but it was his conscious that wouldn’t let him deceive her.

“I had better go. I’ll see you in class tomorrow.” Valora said before kissing Severus again, then standing.

“Do you have to go ?” Severus asked. It was too soon to give up basking in Valora’s forgiveness.

“I’m afraid I do. That troll of a potions master assigned a 3 scroll essay due tomorrow.” She said with a light in her eyes. He put his arms around her again, gazing down into her face.

“Perhaps I can have a talk with him. Persuade him into allowing you to hand it in late.” He said as he let his lips travel over her neck, feeling a shiver run through her.

“Mmmm, I wish I could, but I have other work to do and so do you. The term will be over soon, then we will have all the time we want.”

“Saturday, then. We can spend all day here. I can even help you with your studies, if you like.” Severus said. By the pained look that can to her face, he could see Saturday was out.

“I’m sorry. I have to go home again this weekend. I got an owl from mum yesterday. Another one of Dad’s old clients contacted her. You understand, don’t you ?” She asked.

No, he bloody well didn’t understand how these strangers, muggles, were more important than he was to her. She had just said she loved him, forgave him. But reeling in his ire, he nodded his head and released her.

“I will see you class tomorrow, then.” He said as he went to the door to let her out. She followed him, but stopped. Placing a hand on his chest, she looked up at him.

“I will make it up to you. I promise.” And she kissed him again and departed.

Severus sighed deeply. A great weight had been lifted from his conscious, he should feel more elated, but he only felt …… lonely again, somehow. He knew a relationship with Valora would have it’s difficulties, but hadn’t counted on the draw of the muggle world to be one of them.


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The weekend had gone wonderfully. Valora was happy she had accepted the assignment, but was reluctant to accept anymore, at least until the summer holidays. People were bound to start asking questions if she showed up at home too often, since it was well known she was at boarding school.

Valora really liked helping people and there were so few hearing translators that she was in demand. Not like in the wizarding community, she thought. She was just one witch in a sea of witches and wizards, and a mudblood at that.

Sighing deeply, she put on her dance gear, then threw on her school robes overtop and went to the classroom she had been using for practice. The summer was coming quickly and she wanted to have these routines down cold. Allen always made fun of her for wanting to be so prepared, but she found if she felt prepared, she could enjoy the students in the camp more.

The halls were strangely silent for a Monday night, especially since Severus wasn’t patrolling the halls. Severus. She wondered again for the hundredth time if he was angry with her for not coming by last night. It had just been so late. She was tired and knew Severus would be too. So she had opted for sleep and to hopefully apologize today, though she hadn’t been able to find him alone all day. Tonight there was a mandatory staff meeting. Valora had overheard Professor Flitwick and Madame Hooch talking about it this morning.

‘Maybe I can see Severus after the meeting’, she thought. First these dance routines, though. Valora went into the old empty classroom she liked to use for practice. It had not been used in some time and there were no desks in the way. Setting up her muggle CD player, she tapped it with her wand bringing it to life. Then she used her wand to dim the light from most of the room, but making the front of the room brighter. Her ‘stage’, she thought with a smirk. She set her wand down beside the CD player and chose the correct track. This was the dance piece she had been working on for some time in her room, but the space there was too confined and this dance needed room to move freely.

As soon as the music began, Valora went to the center of her ‘stage’ and knelt in her opening pose. With the swell of the music, her arms gracefully rose in an arc over her head. Then she was up spinning, jumping and twirling to the sweet melodic joy expressed in the music. The melody was haunting, stirring the soul and perfect for this dance. When the music ended, Valora went over to the CD box and started the piece again.


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Severus grumbled angrily to himself. Blasted stupid end-of-term meetings ! The staff did nothing but get together and bemoan the fact that the term was almost over, there was still so much work to do and how were they to get it done. Well not by wasting two hours in a stupid bloody meeting, that was for sure. He was also surly because Valora had not come to him last night. Seeing her at breakfast this morning made him feel somewhat better, but he needed to see her alone, hold her in his arms. Severus had never ‘needed’ anyone, but he did need Valora, and it was frightening.

Walking barom rom the meeting, he was glad there were no students in the halls. He didn’t even feel like deducting house points, he just wanted to go to Valora’s room and talk to her. As he strode purposefully down the hallway that lead to the dungeons, he heard …… music. Music ? It was a soft, mellifluous melody that seemed to be coming from one of the old classrooms no longer in use. He gritted his teeth and stalked towards the room containing the music. If some couple thought they were going to have a romantic tryst in his area of the castle, especially in the mood he was in, they had another thing coming.

Opening the door quietly, Severus peered in. The first thing he noticed was the dark perimeter of the room, but as he came in he saw the brighter light at the head of the room. A figure moved gracefully to the music in the lighted area. She appeared almost to be floating. He might have thought her a ghost, but her black hair piled atop of her head told him this was no specter. She gestured out to where her audience would be and with a start, Severus realized it was Valora. Valora flitted gracefully, looking ethereal in the dress made of a fabric that whispered against her body, floating with each kick and turn. He decided to keep to the shadows and watch her performance. He wasn’t sure she would let him stay if she knew he was there, but he wasn’t going to disturb her to find out.

Valora collapsed into a kneeling position, her arms drawn closely about herself in a hug, her eyes closed and her head tilted off to the side as the music ended. ‘Beautiful’, Severus thought. He hadn’t realized she danced so well. Just as he was about to make his presence known, she accio-ed her wand and changed the light in her area to a red, then pointed it at a box near her and a different tune started playing. She stood, cast her wand to the side and let down her hair as her whole demeanor changed, when the heavy drums and guitar started up. She stood with her back to him, her legs crossed, then turned in a sensually slow way as the words started.

* ‘Would you do it for love
would you do it for fright

if you gave it away
would you be satisfied’*

Then she slunk down onto all fours crawling towards him. He was shocked at the feral look in her eyes.

*‘On your hands and knees
when the price is right, yeah

you say you believe, but baby
would you stand up and fight, oh’*

Valora stood and danced energetically, gyrating her hips alternately towards an imagined person in the audience. Severus could feel his breath begin to speed up and the reaction in his loins was nearly instantaneous.

*‘I think you better ask yourself before you criticize me
are you a victim of the system of the powers that be
if there was nothing to gain
would you do it for free, yeah
would you do it for me ?’*

Reaching out to the imaginary man, she was tempting him with her body. Running her hands down the sides of her breasts, stomach and hips.

*‘Give it away in the bedroom
what you sell on the streets, yeah

you spend a fortune on rags
and strip’um down to the beat, oh’*

Dancing that same energetic tease as she had before, Severus felt his blood beginning to boil with need and the long buried Death Eater in him start to surface.

*‘I think you better ask yourself before you criticize me
are you a victim of the system of the powers that be
if there was nothing to gain, hey
would you do it for free, ask yourself
would you do it for me ? baby

do it for free’*

During a musical interlude in which Valora danced an overtly tempting dance, the Death Eater drew him closer to her, his breath coming in pants now as he watched her body move and bounce beneath the thin cloth of her dress.

*‘Yeah, are you in love with what you do
are you satisfied

is your heart straight and true or
did money make you tell that cold faced lie’*

He stood, eyes riveted to the young woman displaying herself before him. Her breasts clearly visible under her semi-transparent dress, her hard nipples drawing his eye. The words of the muggle music were finally breaking into his conscious mind.

*‘I think you better ask yourself before you criticize me
are you a victim of the system of the powers that be
if there was nothing to gain, hey, hey
would you do it for free, yeah
would you do it for me ?’*

‘Yes’, the Death Eater whispered to him seductively, ‘if it were not for the system and rules you could make her yours, take her now.’

*‘do it for free do it for free do it for free
Baby
do it for free do it for free do it for free’*

‘Do it ! Take her now ! It’s what you both want.’ The Death Eater’s seductive whispers were starting to make sense to him and he knew that was trouble. Valora came running to the front of her lighted area and then it happened. She saw him, standing just beyond her light. She stopped and stared at him, her body panting with her exertion nearly in time with his own ragged breath, almost as if …… As if they were ……….

*‘Are you satisfied with that cold faced lie ?’*

As the music died away, Severus got hold of himself enough to back away quickly, his eyes still locked with hers. He turned, literally running from the room as the last part of the song played.


*‘do it for free do it for free do it for free
do it for free do it for free do it for free
do it for free do it for free do it for free’*


No ! No, the Death Eater would not win, Severus promised himself. But the painful erection in his trousers was a strong indication of the power the Death Eater in him still had, even after all this time. Severus moved quickly, his robes billowing out behind him in his haste. Slamming the classroom door open, he went through to his office and then into his private quarters. With a jerky motion, he opened his private potion stores and pulled out a blue bottle. Shaking the bottle, he cursed loudly, exhaling his breath, then hung his head in defeat.

“Damn it !’ Severus cursed. His supply of Libido Dampener was gone. He had meant to make more this past weekend, but it had slipped his mind. The potion took three days to brew, so would be no use to him now. He briefly considered releasing himself, but he knew that would only be giving in to the lust, then the Death Eater would win, possibly egging him on the further action.

The potion. Maybe making the potion would take his mind off of Valora. Going back into the classroom, Severus went straight to the ingredients cabinet and pulled everything he would need to start the potion. Laying everything out on the counter, he used his wand to start water boiling in a cauldron on the work table. He was just chopping the rosemary, when he heard Valora come into the workroom. Taking a deep breath, he turned to look at her. Thankfully she had put her school robes on over the flimsy dress she was wearing. They stared at each other for a moment, then she smiled hesitantly. Internally, Severus groaned.

“You left before you could tell me what you wanted.” Valora said, coming fully into the small room. Even with the herbs laid out before him, her scent was strong, enticing him. Trying to go back to the task of chopping, he had to give it up as his hands were now shaking too badly. Valora walked over to stand next to him. He saw her surveying the ingredients laid out. Lavender, rosemary, chaste berries, cypress and grandilla. She looked into his eyes questioningly, then back at the supplies.

“You’ve forgotten the dragon’s blood.” Valora said quietly as she turned to go to the cabinet and retrieved the tall black vial. He let out a derisive laugh, of course she would know what he was making, she was very apt at potions. Valora looked at his hands resting shakily on the table, then back up to his face.

“Why don’t I make this for you ? Then you’ll be free to do other work.” Valora offered. Severus closed his eyes , then nodded his head. He reached into a drawer in the worktable and brought out a yellowed piece of parchment.

“These are the directions. I will be in my office.” Severus said, then started to walk out the door, but he stopped next to her. “Thank you, aquila puellae.” He whispered before placing a kiss on her forehead and walking out.


Severus walked into his private quarters and poured himself a whiskey, hoping the burning liquid would help stop the tremors in his hands. After a couple of sips and a few deep stuttering breaths, Severus felt ready to tackle some of the paperwork piled on his desk. He brought his drink with him, placing it on the desk within reach.

Suddenly, he was laughing at himself. The whole situation seemed so ludicrous. Such a little thing as a beautiful woman could cause the mighty bastard of a potions master to loose all composure. ‘But that isn’t just any woman’, he reminded himself. It was Valora and she loved him, that made all the difference in the world.

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So sorry for the long delay, even though you got two chapters last time. This chapter and the next are important, so I wanted to take my time and get them right.

Hope you enjoyed !

Glinda the Erotic Witch


>>>* ‘Would you do it for free ?’ Sammy Hagar from ‘Marching to Mars’

Here is a link (cut and paste) where you can listen to a sample of the song.
http://www.amazon.com/exec/obidos/tg/detail/-/B000002P6I/qid=1068649121/sr=1-1/ref=sr_1_1/104-6376506-0067910?v=glance&s=music



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