Phases of the Moon

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Title: Phases of the Moon (1/11)



Chapter 11



A/N: Last chapter everyone! Thank you all for reviewing and I appreciate all your comments I had a great time writing this story! –Jaino



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The Great Hall:



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Remus whispered softly “Finite Incantatem…”







“I do…I do-don’t…” James stopped suddenly; he looked around confused, and then turned to look at Lily.







The whole hall gasped as they heard James answer, everyone started murmuring to themselves. Still keeping their eyes locked on the couple, they watched riveted to see what would happen next.







“Wha-what?” Lily looked outraged “What do you mean you don’t?” her fist clenched, in surprised anger.







“Just what I said, I don’t want to marry you… I-I don’t even know how we even got this far…” James trailed off confused.







Lily turned towards Remus “It’s all your fault you-you… ruined everything!” Lily spat the words out at Remus.







“Urgh!” she cried out in frustration, her hand with the red gem ring shot out to grab James’s arm. But Remus saw the movement before she could do anymore damage, he gripped her by the wrist and twisted her arm back. Remus slammed his hand at the back of Lily’s head, knocking her out.







The people watching were shocked to see mild Remus act so roughly with anyone. Remus saw Peter edging away from the platform, “James stop Peter!” Remus yelled.







Not understanding why, James still caught Peter with a quick “Petrificus Totalus” froze in the “running man” pose, falling over he landed on the ground.







“Enough!” Dumbledore spoke up at last from his position behind the minister. “Everyone you’re dismissed, leave immediately.” His voice prevented any arguments. He had a small sense of familiarity with this situation…







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A few days later:







After Dumbledore had called a Ministry of Magic Official, Remus explained to them what he thought really happened. Lily and Peter were soon given ‘Vertitaserum’.







Remus was right; Lily and Peter had teamed up together to break Sirius and James apart. Lily had used a potion to taint the food and drinks she gave James at their “tutoring sessions” to slowly manipulate James.







But the ruby like ring was the tiebreaker, it had a spell casted on it, to entrance the person the wearer desires, into manipulating the victim however the wearer wanted.







Peter used a potion Lily brewed to spike Sirius pumpkin juice that morning of the Whomping willow accident. It enabled Sirius to lose any consequence thought of what was right and wrong, increasing distrust and heightened protectiveness in the drinker.







They were quickly sentence to await trail for Azkaban. Remus shook his head sadly, all the pain Sirius went through…. The betrayal and guilt he and James were now facing… all because two people jealously wanted what they could never have… what a waste.







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James sat in the abandon classroom, knees pulled up to his chest. He remembered all the good times that happened in this room and the one worst moment of his life happened here also.







James vaguely heard the door click open then close. “You know Moony, Sirius told me he was pregnant the last time I was in this room…” head resting on his knees, eyes closed. “He-he said that he still loved me and I was a father”







He felt Remus put an arm around his shoulder, shrugging it off James jumped up and walked away from Remus “Don’t… just don’t comfort me, not after everything I’ve done-said…. I don’t deserve it…” his voice thick with emotion.







“Prongs, it’s alright, its okay you were under a spell you didn’t know-” Remus went to James trying to comfort one of his best friends.







“No! yo-you don’t understand!” James cried out “I-I told him that, he was a whore, and-and it wasn’t my baby. If there was one at all, I said-I said” James couldn’t say any more tears were running down his cheeks, as wails were pulled from his throat.







Remus didn’t say anything just took James in his arms and did what he did before, hold on and give the only thing he could comfort.







“I need to see Si-Sirius, Moony I-I have to apologize an-and explain….” James voice strutted, trying to talk around his tears







“I love hi-him Moony an-and I can’t live with out him… Bu-but I don’t know where h-he is…” he muttered heartbrokenly.







As cries trailed off to sniffles, Remus swiped James face and pulled him up. Dragging James behind him they walked out of the classroom.







“Stop…” James stumbled; his foot hit a slightly raised cobblestone, trying to keep up with the fast pace. “Remus where are we going?”







Remus didn’t stop or slowed down, he was on a mission “To see Dumbledore, I think he knows where Sirius might be…”







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Walking down the Halls of Selifreick, James nervously picked at the hem of his robes, fidgeting with his shoulder bag. As soon as Dumbledore told him where Sirius was, he quickly set out for Selifreick.







Since he’d never been there, he had to take a few trains to reach Montrose, and then another day to enter the school. But anything was worth getting to see Sirius again.







Professor Dumbledore had let the Headmaster know that he was coming to see Sirius; though it was still the summer holiday, Sirius stayed in the school, having nowhere else to go. James saddened by the news, resolved to bring Sirius back with him no matter what.







James came to a stop at the schools infirmary. He was told that the Headmaster was there attending to some business.







“Hello?” James stepped through the open door, seeing no one he began to wander around “umm is anyone in here? I’m sorry to bother you but I’m looking for the Headmaster… hello?”







‘Thump… scuffle….thump… swish’ James could hear noises coming from the back







Walking to the back of the empty infirmary, James took in the room; it looked just like the one in Hogwarts…. Strange… there at the right corner was a door that was opened halfway, where the noises where coming from.







Approaching the opened door James softly said “Hel-lo…” James stared in shock at the sight in front of him; startled he dropped his bag with a ‘thump’







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Harry shifted on Sirius’s chest, pitch-black hair fluffed out, and deep green eyes blinked as the baby quietly cuddled against his mother.







Sirius smiled softly, patting Harry’s bottom. ‘Sirius was very happy, he had died after giving birth to Harry, but the medi-wizards had casted a few powerful spells to joint him back to life.







Kissing the top of the baby’s downy hair. It took days to get some of his strength back, but in a few months Sirius would be back to his original self. But it was worth it, he wouldn’t trade anything in the world for Harry’







Hugging Harry to him Sirius started to hum a little lullaby to the tiny baby. ‘He wondered what James was up to…. If he and Lily were still….’







Shaking his head to get rid of those thoughts. ‘No he had Harry now, he wouldn’t think about James anymore. James who didn’t want him or Harry…”







“Hel-lo…” Sirius thoughts were interrupted ‘Thump’ looking towards the door Sirius froze in shock.







James stood in the doorway, a bag at his feet. They both stared at one another, not moving, only breathing.







James was the first one to glance away; he looked at the dozing baby in Sirius’s arms and back again. He slowly picked up his fallen bag, moving cautiously towards Sirius and the baby.







Sirius watched warily as James approached them, all kinds of thoughts were running through his head. When, how, and most importantly why James was here in the first place.







James stood next to the bed, looking at Sirius… beautiful Sirius with longer hair, deep blue eyes; his heart ached at the sight of the same blue eyes but with more then a touch of sadness to them. James wanted to scoop Sirius up and never let go, drop to his knees and beg forgiveness, he didn’t even deserve but wanted…needed so badly.







A whimpering noise brought James attention to the tiny baby in Sirius arms, James eyes moistened at the sight of his baby boy. He knew instantly that the baby was his, with his moppy hair and miniature features; there was no mistaking the resemblance. Watching as Sirius patted the baby back to sleep, James felt longing for them.







Fumbling for his bag James reached in and pulled something out “He-here… it’s umm it’s for the baby…” James held the stuff Puffskein out.







Sirius had tensed when James reached in his bag, but now started in wonder at the stuff toy.







“Umm I didn’t know if it, I mean the baby was a boy or girl… so I thought that every kid loves Puffskeins… so umm…” James stuttered with nervousness, he placed the toy down beside the baby.







“What is this really about James?” Sirius was tired, and he didn’t, couldn’t deal with this right now.







“I-I well Sirius….” James took a deep breath and decided to just take the plunge “I-I love you…” he held his breath waiting for Sirius to say something, anything.







“You- you love me?” James nodded “I thought… you and Lily…” Sirius closed his eyes







Tears pricked his eyes. “Get out James… get out and don’t come back, I never want to see you again…”







James’s face drained of all its color “No, you don’t mean that Sirius”







“Yes I do James, you can’t- you just can’t come back into my, our lives whenever you want James!” Sirius was anger now, trying not to disturb Harry, Sirius tried to keep his voice down. “After what you said the way you treated me, you think you can just pop in say you love me and that’s the end of that? It doesn’t work that way James”







Sirius saw James flinch with every word, he didn’t care, he wanted to hurt James the way he was hurt. “Where were you when I almost died giving birth to Harry, huh? I bet you were fucking that bitch Lily, weren’t you!” yelled the last part, Harry began to cry, startled by the loud noises going on.







Sirius stopped and tried to soothe Harry’s wails, “Sirius please I didn’t mean any of it, I wasn’t myself, I didn’t even know what I was saying those things to you” James franticly tried to explain to Sirius while he was trying to comfort the baby.







“She… they drugged me, and-and you but it’s over now. Remus stopped everything. And their both in Azkaban, they can’t hurt us anymore, and you got to believe me Sirius I never want you to- to” James started to cry, he just wanted Sirius to understand to forgive him.







James laughed bitterly to himself, he realized, he and Sirius had switched places. Now he was the one asking for forgiveness, but all that remains now, is if Sirius would do what James did and turn his back on him.







He wouldn’t blame Sirius if that’s what happened, hell James wouldn’t forgive himself if he was Sirius either. He just hoped that Sirius would be kind of enough to let him see the baby now and then… maybe they could even become friends again.







Sirius sat shocked as he heard everything James had said, Harry was now asleep again. “What- what did you say? They did what? Who?…” Sirius couldn’t believe what he had heard.







Tearfully James started to speak again “Lily and Peter… they planned the whole thing. To break us up so that they could each have one of us.”







James wiped his eyes “Lily made potions and an enchanted ring to get me to do all those things to you, and-and Peter used a potions Lily made to drug you into doing the thing with Snape. Remus he-he figured it all out and stopped me from marrying Lily, he broke the spell an-and”







James voice almost broke “Dumbledore had a Minster of Magic official to-to put them on trail for Azkaban…” James trailed off, his face bowed as he stood over Sirius and sleeping Harry.







Sirius laid there shocked, not knowing what to say. He thought of all the harsh words James had spoken to him. He was tempted to tell James to sod off again, and never come near him and Harry again.







But one look at James hugging his arms looking so miserable and almost completely devastated Sirius hesitated.







“Sirius… I’m so, so sor-ry” James voice choked out, eyes full of tears meeting Sirius’s own wet eyes.







“Your-your not lying are you…” Sirius asked still slightly unsure.







“No… it’s all true ask Remus or Dumbledore… you can even look in the paper if you want… its all there…” James swallowed







Sirius was silent, just staring at James.







“I-I’m sorry you know… I never ever wanted to hurt you, I love you so… much…” James reached out to Sirius his hand trembled.







Sirius stared at the hand reached out at him… James hand trembled and slowly pulled away, eyes averted.







Suddenly he felt a hand slip into his before he could pull away completely. “I love you…” came the whispered reply.







James leaned over Sirius carefully hugging him and the sleeping baby, “Thank you…”







Though they both knew it would take a lot longer to work out all the hurt, they were both willing to try again, taking it slow for now…







Two broken hearts started to mend that day, cushion between them was a product of the love they shared… and one day when their love fully mended it would be stronger then ever. Because you can’t kill true love you can only shatter the pieces, but like a jigsaw puzzle, it was only a matter of time before the pieces made a picture again.