Bound by Hatred
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Harry Potter › Slash - Male/Male › Harry/Draco
Rating:
Adult ++
Chapters:
13
Views:
15,561
Reviews:
83
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Currently Reading:
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Truths
TRUTHS
\"It was his idea!\" cried Draco as soon as he recovered his wits. He shot to his feet and shot Harry an imploring look. \"Tell him!\"
Harry felt himself smile. He knew it was a bright, contented smile, because every fiber of his being was directed towards protecting Draco, even if it meant confirming the horrible things Snape had to think about him.
\"I wanted to. I\'m a--\" he faltered. He had a fleeting sensation he was going to burst into tears, but it was clamped down by the knowledge that it would harm Draco. \"I\'m a-- I like it when they touch me.\"
Snape\'s black eyes traveled from the naked Harry covering himself frantically with trembling hands, to the other three boys. He still looked stunned, but there was a dark, cynical look creeping into his expression as he turned his attention to Draco.
\"Do you take me for a fool, Mr. Malfoy?\" Snape snarled.
Draco shot Harry a desperate look
--if Harry did nothing, it would HARM DRACO--
and Harry vaulted forward. He was only half aware of his own actions as he pressed himself up against Snape, trailing his hands over his chest in a manner some crazed part of his mind deemed salacious.
\"Please, sir, it\'s true. I just-- it was my-- let me--\"
His voice faltered. Snape\'s eyes had trailed down to Harry\'s hands, trembling where they rested on his chest. A sneer curled across his lips.
Harry realized suddenly the man didn\'t want him touching him
-- who could blame him? He was so dirty and disgusting--
and he shrank back.
\"I\'m a--\" Harry\'s voice trembled. Snape\'s form became even blurrier when tears filled his eyes, and Harry quickly blinked them away. \"Professor, I\'m a-- I know I\'m a s…sl… slu--\"
\"Oh, for Merlin\'s sake!\" Snape roared. \"STUPEFY!\"
Harry flinched, but the spell hit Draco behind him. Crabbe and Zabini followed in short order.
He and Snape were the only people conscious in the room. Snape, in his black robes, with menace and dignity, and Harry. Worthless, filthy Harry… scrawny and naked and frightened.
He sank down to the floor, clamping his hands over his eyes, his entire body trembling. He wished he could hide himself somewhere. He wished he were dead. He just wanted-- he just wanted--
He felt Snape\'s hands prying his from his face. Harry tried to pull away, but Snape was too strong. He yelped when one hand clamped around his wrists, and the other gripped his chin and forced his head up. He tried to look away, but black eyes relentlessly found his.
\"No…\" he pleaded. \"… no, Snape, don\'t--\"
\"Legilimens.\"
This time, there was no serenity to repel Snape from his mind. Harry was consumed by his humiliation, his terror, and Snape forced himself into his memories easily.
Harry was screaming against Draco\'s hand as Draco raped him for the first time… Draco in the dark classroom, smirking down at him. \"You\'re going to suck my cock before I let you out of here tonight.\"… Ron shouting at him…
NO! Harry was screaming inside, trying to force Snape out, trying to escape these terrible memories rushing before his eyes.
Draco fucking him in a supply closet… Draco forcing his cock down Harry\'s throat… Blaise pressing his lips to Harry\'s in his dormroom… Draco leaning across the table in the Leaky Cauldron. \"I\'m going to fuck you, Potter. I\'ll fuck you until you bleed.\"…
Snape was watching this. Snape could see this!
Harry\'s head bobbing up and down as he sucked Draco\'s cock… Draco wiggling the empty vial before Harry\'s eyes. \"I can fuck you anytime I want now, Potter, and you\'ll take it like a slut. This means you belong to me.\"… Harry swallowing Draco\'s cum… Hermione flinching at his sudden movement… Looking down at the blood he\'d been shitting into the toilet…
He didn\'t know how long the images continued, but as soon as his own voice reached his ears, Harry realized he wasn\'t just screaming on the inside. His cries of despair filled the small room, and Snape was shaking him.
\"Potter. POTTER!\"
He was still screaming. And he couldn\'t stop. He just couldn\'t stop.
He felt Snape pull him forward, muffling Harry\'s screams in his chest. Harry wailed until his voice gave out and he could only manage a horribly pitiful whine. He dissolved into violent sobs that wracked his whole body and clawed desperately at Snape\'s torso with his fingers.
\"I\'m sorry! I\'m so sorry!\"
That jagged voice he barely recognized as his own sounded foreign with pain.
\"Potter, you shouldn\'t--\" Snape seemed to be fumbling. \"You have no reason to--\"
\"I\'m sorry,\" Harry moaned, hiding his face in his hands, still firmly ensconced against Snape\'s body. \"I\'m so sorry. I\'m so sorry. I\'m awful. I\'m so awful.\"
\"Hush now, Potter.\"
\"I want to die,\" Harry whispered, no longer aware of the arms around him, the solid chest against his cheek. \"I should die. I\'m awful. Please kill me… I want to die. Kill me. Let Voldemort kill me... Please, I just want to die… please kill me… I deserve it. I deserve to die… please just end it… make me die...\"
\"Harry…\"
Snape\'s expression showed that, for once, he was at a loss.
But it didn\'t seem to matter. Harry rocked himself back and forth, eyes glazed with the horror of the last few months. He was vanishing into his own world of shame and terror, and he\'d already forgotten Snape was there with him.
End Part 11
Btw--
\"StaplersBreak wrote: I\'ve had enough of let\'s-rape-and-abuse-harry fics in which Harry doesn\'t get retribution. \"
I agree with you here. I can\'t name how many fics I\'ve come across that feature a scenario like this, and then end before dealing with the emotional impact, or any form of retribution. It\'s irritating, especially since I\'d usually like to see what happens next.
\"It was his idea!\" cried Draco as soon as he recovered his wits. He shot to his feet and shot Harry an imploring look. \"Tell him!\"
Harry felt himself smile. He knew it was a bright, contented smile, because every fiber of his being was directed towards protecting Draco, even if it meant confirming the horrible things Snape had to think about him.
\"I wanted to. I\'m a--\" he faltered. He had a fleeting sensation he was going to burst into tears, but it was clamped down by the knowledge that it would harm Draco. \"I\'m a-- I like it when they touch me.\"
Snape\'s black eyes traveled from the naked Harry covering himself frantically with trembling hands, to the other three boys. He still looked stunned, but there was a dark, cynical look creeping into his expression as he turned his attention to Draco.
\"Do you take me for a fool, Mr. Malfoy?\" Snape snarled.
Draco shot Harry a desperate look
--if Harry did nothing, it would HARM DRACO--
and Harry vaulted forward. He was only half aware of his own actions as he pressed himself up against Snape, trailing his hands over his chest in a manner some crazed part of his mind deemed salacious.
\"Please, sir, it\'s true. I just-- it was my-- let me--\"
His voice faltered. Snape\'s eyes had trailed down to Harry\'s hands, trembling where they rested on his chest. A sneer curled across his lips.
Harry realized suddenly the man didn\'t want him touching him
-- who could blame him? He was so dirty and disgusting--
and he shrank back.
\"I\'m a--\" Harry\'s voice trembled. Snape\'s form became even blurrier when tears filled his eyes, and Harry quickly blinked them away. \"Professor, I\'m a-- I know I\'m a s…sl… slu--\"
\"Oh, for Merlin\'s sake!\" Snape roared. \"STUPEFY!\"
Harry flinched, but the spell hit Draco behind him. Crabbe and Zabini followed in short order.
He and Snape were the only people conscious in the room. Snape, in his black robes, with menace and dignity, and Harry. Worthless, filthy Harry… scrawny and naked and frightened.
He sank down to the floor, clamping his hands over his eyes, his entire body trembling. He wished he could hide himself somewhere. He wished he were dead. He just wanted-- he just wanted--
He felt Snape\'s hands prying his from his face. Harry tried to pull away, but Snape was too strong. He yelped when one hand clamped around his wrists, and the other gripped his chin and forced his head up. He tried to look away, but black eyes relentlessly found his.
\"No…\" he pleaded. \"… no, Snape, don\'t--\"
\"Legilimens.\"
This time, there was no serenity to repel Snape from his mind. Harry was consumed by his humiliation, his terror, and Snape forced himself into his memories easily.
Harry was screaming against Draco\'s hand as Draco raped him for the first time… Draco in the dark classroom, smirking down at him. \"You\'re going to suck my cock before I let you out of here tonight.\"… Ron shouting at him…
NO! Harry was screaming inside, trying to force Snape out, trying to escape these terrible memories rushing before his eyes.
Draco fucking him in a supply closet… Draco forcing his cock down Harry\'s throat… Blaise pressing his lips to Harry\'s in his dormroom… Draco leaning across the table in the Leaky Cauldron. \"I\'m going to fuck you, Potter. I\'ll fuck you until you bleed.\"…
Snape was watching this. Snape could see this!
Harry\'s head bobbing up and down as he sucked Draco\'s cock… Draco wiggling the empty vial before Harry\'s eyes. \"I can fuck you anytime I want now, Potter, and you\'ll take it like a slut. This means you belong to me.\"… Harry swallowing Draco\'s cum… Hermione flinching at his sudden movement… Looking down at the blood he\'d been shitting into the toilet…
He didn\'t know how long the images continued, but as soon as his own voice reached his ears, Harry realized he wasn\'t just screaming on the inside. His cries of despair filled the small room, and Snape was shaking him.
\"Potter. POTTER!\"
He was still screaming. And he couldn\'t stop. He just couldn\'t stop.
He felt Snape pull him forward, muffling Harry\'s screams in his chest. Harry wailed until his voice gave out and he could only manage a horribly pitiful whine. He dissolved into violent sobs that wracked his whole body and clawed desperately at Snape\'s torso with his fingers.
\"I\'m sorry! I\'m so sorry!\"
That jagged voice he barely recognized as his own sounded foreign with pain.
\"Potter, you shouldn\'t--\" Snape seemed to be fumbling. \"You have no reason to--\"
\"I\'m sorry,\" Harry moaned, hiding his face in his hands, still firmly ensconced against Snape\'s body. \"I\'m so sorry. I\'m so sorry. I\'m awful. I\'m so awful.\"
\"Hush now, Potter.\"
\"I want to die,\" Harry whispered, no longer aware of the arms around him, the solid chest against his cheek. \"I should die. I\'m awful. Please kill me… I want to die. Kill me. Let Voldemort kill me... Please, I just want to die… please kill me… I deserve it. I deserve to die… please just end it… make me die...\"
\"Harry…\"
Snape\'s expression showed that, for once, he was at a loss.
But it didn\'t seem to matter. Harry rocked himself back and forth, eyes glazed with the horror of the last few months. He was vanishing into his own world of shame and terror, and he\'d already forgotten Snape was there with him.
End Part 11
Btw--
\"StaplersBreak wrote: I\'ve had enough of let\'s-rape-and-abuse-harry fics in which Harry doesn\'t get retribution. \"
I agree with you here. I can\'t name how many fics I\'ve come across that feature a scenario like this, and then end before dealing with the emotional impact, or any form of retribution. It\'s irritating, especially since I\'d usually like to see what happens next.