Loss of Control
Ten
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Disclaimer: I don’t
own the characters just borrowing them for my own amusement.
Content rated NC17. Basically, this is total smut. If that
offends you stop right here.
I see Lucius as being in total control always.
LOSS OF CONTROL
Chapter Nine
Lucius practically dragged Gwen down the hallway to her
rooms. She had to run to keep up with
him. When he pulled her into the bedroom
and flung her down on the bed she was panting with exertion.
“What were you doing with my son,” Lucius spat out between
clenched teeth.
Gwen looked at him, closely, and realized he was furious,
madder than she had ever seen him. Still
she knew she had to stand her ground or lose everything she had gained with
him, not that there was much to lose.
“Getting to know him better, Daddy, or do you prefer that I call you
Father, like Draco does?”
“What I prefer is that you keep your hands off my son.”
of her.
“Well what kind of a marriage will that be?
herself. “Besides, what do you care, I
thought you wanted me to marry him?”
Lucius stopped and sat next to Gwen on the bed; gently he
reached out and brushed the stray hairs off her face.
her back on the bed, stretching out next to her half covering her body with his
own. “Gwen, how many times do I have to
tell you, I do not share my toys!” He
kissed her, hard, not giving her a chance to reply.
pulling her skirt up. Gwen broke away
from his questing mouth and pushed him off of her, sitting up she turned to
look at him.
“You have to make up your mind,
these games anymore.” Lucius started to
answer but Gwen put a finger over his lips to silence him.
because if you say you don’t want me, I’m gone.
With no coming back.”
While she was speaking Lucius had been nibbling on her
fingers, once she stopped talking he looked at her then started kissing the
palm of her hand, slowly making his way up her arm, gently sucking the inside
of her elbow and licking at her shoulder, until he got to her neck which he
kissed and bit until she was swooning against him.
close, whispering into her ear, “You know I want you.”
Gwen was totally limp in his arms, but, she managed to
reply, “How much?” before he started kissing her mouth again.
“Enough.”
Gwen pulled her liway way from his, “Enough to really make
love to me?”
He closed his mouth over hers again, tongue thrusting
roughly between her teeth, “Love has nothing to do with this.” He was nibbling
on her lips, “You don’t love me. You just have a bad case of lust.
Gwen struggled to free herself from his lips and arms.
turned and looked at him, he had turned and was on his back, all that lovely
blonde hair spread out around his head, a few strands laying across his broad
shoulders, one knee up his heel braced against the edge of the bed,
look in his eyes. The look she had seen
so often before. “That’s where the
problem is, see, I do love you,” she held her hand up gesturing for him to wait
before he spoke, “I didn’t plan on it and you certainly don’t deserve it, but,
there it is. I know you don’t care about me, I know that.
you. So there you have it, the problem
we need to work out.”
“I don’t see a problem, you love me, so what, we can
continue as we’ve been, nothing has to change. Now bring that warm mouth of
yours back here and please me,” he held his hand out to her.
“I can’t. This hurts
me too much, knowing that you really are just playing.
if you’re going to show up, and, if you do, how badly you’ll hurt me this
time. I need more than that, Lucius, I
need hope.”
“Hope,” he snorted.
“Hope of what. Did you honestly
think I would change my life for you? “
Gwen sighed turning away from him, hiding her face so he
couldn’t see the tears falling down her cheeks.
“Well, well isn’t this a pleasant little scene?” Narcissa
said from the doorway. “I expect this
kind of behavior from you, Lucius, but not from you, Gwen.”
Gwen hastily wiped her tears away, turning to face Narcissa,
she started to explain, “It’s not what you think, really…”
“Don’t bother dear, I heard enough of the conversation to Gwen was so confused at this she burst into tears Gwen pulled away from Narcissa’s arms and looked horrified “Why should I stop him? “Since I’ve been playing with her for the better part of a “Narcissa, I am so sorry, I never meant to hurt you, this Gwen ran out of the house and down the drive, once she was Gwen spent most of the day Saturday in bed, head under the Late in the afternoon she was roused by a persistent knocking She barely had it opened before Stephen pushed his way into “Yes, Stephen, I’m fine.” “Don’t tell me. This “You don’t have to sound so smug about it.” She replied, “Well you’ve finally come to your senses. Gwen looked at Stephen, standing there so eager, like a “You seem to be.” “Yes, well there you go, look how unhappy I am. Stephen stepped up next to her and pulled her into his arms, “That’s sweet, Stephen, but I don’t think you really mean “Yes,” he said as he stroked her back, “I do.” At first she tensed against him, not wanting to lead him on, “Again you are deciding what I think is fair? “Maybe I do. But I “Fine, I’ll go, just remember I’m here for you if you decide Gwen closed and locked the door behind him. Disclaimer: I don’t Content rated NC17. Basically, this is total smut. If that I see Lucius as being in total control always. LOSS OF CONTROL Chapter Ten When she arrived at work that morning, the whole office was ‘Lucius’ was the only thought going through Gwen’s befuddled “Gwen, are you alright, you haven’t heard a word I’ve said.” “Yeah, I’m fine, just surprised. “Oh… yeah, Mr. Martin said he’s never seen anyone look like Gwen just sat there unable to accept the reality of all of Upon returning home on Friday, Gwen entered her apartment to “Are you quite finished?” Lucius looked down at her on the Gwen just nodded. “Get over here.” Lucius gestured to the floor in front of “No. No more. “Gwen…Gwen…” Lucius was shaking his head in disbelief. “I can’t, Lucius we both know what you did to Stephen.” “I have no idea of what you are talking about,” he said “Please, I know what you…” Lucius interrupted her, “Gwen…Gwen, how many time have I “All right, let’s just say I’m tired of being treated like a Lucius looked at her, the anger slowly draining from his Gwen slumped on the floor relived that he had taken it so Time passed slowly for Gwen, she spent weekewithwith her One dreary spring afternoon, close to quitting time, while “Hello Gwen, how are you?” “I’m fine, and yourself?” “Not bad, what brings you here? “I wanted to see you. Gwen’s curiosity got the better of her, “It’s almost Draco smiled, “That would be perfect.” Gwen was impressed by the mature attitude Draco was They went to a little café, across the street, after they “I wanted to see you again,” he seemed unsure of how to “Chance,” Gwen looked surprised, “chance at what?” Now Draco looked very uncomfortable, “A chance to see if It was Gwen’s turn to look uncomfortable, “Draco I… you know “I guess I’m just hoping that you will let me see you “What do you mean by ‘fun’?” Draco looked startled, “Nothing. Really, I just thought we “Ummm, I don’t know…you’re a lot younger than I am, what do “I’m not that much younger than you, only six years, that’s He seemed so eager to please, Gwen thought, ‘Why not?’ “Here is fine.” And so their friendship began, after spending time with Draco, for his part, knew that if he was left alone with her
know what is going on, you should have told me you were fucking him, Gwen, I
could have saved you some heartache by telling you he won’t ever change.
woman. Certainly he’s never been
faithful to me!” Narcissa walked over to
Gwen and pulled her into her arms, patting her on the back in a soothing
manner.<
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again. Narcissa rocked her gently and
murmured comfortingly in Gwen’s ear.
Lucius still on the bed said, “Isn’t this nice, my wife comforting my lover.”
from one to the other, “This is insane!
You know he’s been cheating and yet you do nothing to stop him?”
At least he’s not bothering me anymore.
I had hoped you would be more discreet,” Narcissa said looking at
Lucius.
year, I would say I have been discreet.”
will never happen again. Under the
circumstances I am sure you will make my excuses to Draco for missing his
birthday. I am leaving.”
the few clothes she had taken out and stuffing them back into her overnight
bag. She turned and ran from the
room. Neither Lucius nor Narcissa made a
move to stop her.
clear of the wards protecting the mansion she was able to apparate home.
Lucius had always sat in and cried until she had no more tears.
covers, trying to figure out how her life got so screwed up.
wouldn’t have any problem.
on her door. Try as she might to ignore
it, whoever it was would not give up.
Finally, she pulled on her bathrobe and made her way to the door.
the room. “Gwen, thank you’you’re
here. I’ve been so worried about you.”
He stopped as he took in her disheveled state.
“What happened, are you alright?”
Gwen tried to turn away from the concerned young man, but he grasped her
arm and held her in place.
mysterious man you are so in love with has dumped you yet again.”
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“And just for the record, I left him this time.”
puppy waiting to be petted, and yet she knew things would never work between
them. He just didn’t give her the thrill
she got whenever she saw Lucius. No one
did. “Calm down, it isn’t really over,
we’re just taking a break for now,” she said hoping that it was true. “Besides,
Stephen, I’ve told you we will never work together.” Gwen saw his eager face
fall, “You know I still have feelings for him, and while I like you, I don’t
love you. I don’t know that I’ll ever
love anyone other than him. You don’t
want to be involved with someone you know doesn’t love yoo yoo you?”
cradling her head against his shoulder.
“All I want is for you to be happy, whatever it takes.”
that.”
gently.
but as he kissed her more intently she gave in and kissed him back, relaxing
and sliding her arms around him. Then
the thought of what Lucius would do if he knew what was going on made her pull
abruptly away. “No, we can’t do
this. It’s not fair to either of us.”
feel something for me.
love him. And I owe it to myself to find
out what happens next. You had better
leave now,” she said as she opened the door for him to leave.
you need me.”
whole apartment needed cleaning, and not magically.
to bottom, by the time she was through everything gleamed and shined.
until Monday morning to prepare for work.
own the characters just borrowing them for my own amusement.
offends you stop right here.
abuzz. Abby grabbed Gwen’s arm and led
her into a conference room and sat her down.
“Gwen, you are not going to believe this, Stephen is dead.
yesterday afternoon, they were supposed to meet for lunch, or something and she
found him outside in the yard. Gwen, she
said he was like totally turned inside out; it was the grossest thing she ever
saw.” Abby noticed Gwen had gone
completely pale. “Oh, god, Gwen I’m sorry, I forgot you used to date him.
listening.
brain, ‘it had to have been Lucius. He
said he would get rid of him if I didn’t.’
She was sure it had been him, not that she would ever tell anyone.
me?’ Gwen’s mind was racing.
Abby was asking.
out?”
that not even after the Avada Kedavra curse.
Hey! That means someone is out there using something worse than the
Unforgivable curses and getting away with it.”
Abby said in wonderment.
what Abby was saying.
Slowly the office returned to its normal routine.
mentioned Stephen any more.
find Lucius waiting in his usual spot. Sudden fury filled Gwen at the sight of
him sitting there so unconcerned as if everything were normal.
him hitting and punching any part of him she could reach, screaming the whole
while, “How dare you? How could
you? What gives you the right to
interfere in my life?” Lucius let her
spend her fury, which didn’t last long and she finally slumped to the floor
muttering and shaking her head.
floor, her face tear stainnd hnd her clothes askew.
him.
to make a move toward her.
when it’s over. Not you.”
on his face.
icily.
told you, I do not share my toys.” He glared at her as if daring her to say
anything more.
toy. I’m moving on with my life and you
are not a part of it.” Gwen didn’t
really want to discuss what had hapd tod to Stephen.
face to be replaced by a look of utter contempt, “You have become quite
bothersome lately, all talk and no fun.
Yes…..we are through. I’ve taken
all I can from you.” He stood and with a
loud bang, was gone.
well. She would get on with her life, no
matter how difficult it was she would forget all about Lucius Malfoy.
parents, and filled her weeks with work.
She refused the few invitations she received from men, not wanting to be
involved with anyone, preferring to be alone.
She even stopped going out with Abby and the other girls from the
office.
Gwen was transcribing notes taken during a meeting, there was a quiet knock on
her partially closed office door.
Looking up she saw Draco Malfoy and motioned for him to come in.
in.”
Draco seemed much surer of himself than the last time she had seen him.
Is there someplace we can talk privately?”
quitting time anyway, how about if we go for a drink?”
she was working on and gathered her purse and coat.
displaying, though she was still wary, he was after all a Malfoy.
had been seated and given the waiter their order Gwen looked across the table
at Draco and said, “Well?”
continue but plunged ahead, “I can’t help but think that if my father were not
involved with you, you and I might have had a chance.”
maybe…if there was… I can’t stop thinking about you…is there any way that you
might have any feelings for me? Ever?”
about your father and I…I don’t see how…what exactly are you expecting me to
say?”
occasionally, maybe dinner, or whatever, just to see if anything developed
between us. No strings, no promises,
just maybe we could have a little fun.”
Gwen asked warily.
could spend time together.”
we really have in common?” Gwen was
trying to let him down gently.
nothing. As to what we have in common, I
think if we spent some time together we might find a lot of things we could
share. Once you get to know me better
you may find that we have the same opinions of certain people’s behavior….”
Draco let the thought trail off, not sure of how deep her feelings for his father
went, not wanting to offend Gwen before he had a chance to prove himself.
else?”
Draco, Gwen discovered that he was quite capable of having a platonic
relationship. She also found that he was
very intelligent and resourceful. He
could think of the most fun places to go and things to do, she found herself
looking forward to the time spent with him. One of the things that amazed her
most was the way Draco looked at life.
Lucius was a hard and unyielding person; he only looked at what he could
get out of any given situation. Draco,
on the other hand, was more than willing to compromise, he would always listen
to Gwen’s opinions and never made her feel she was not worthy of being in his
presence. Without realizing it Gwen had fallen in love with Draco.
long enough she would eventually succumb to him.