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What Is and What Should Never Be

By: Padfoot79
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What Is and What Should Never Be

What Is and What Should Never Be


Author: Prongs (Padfoot79)

Disclaimer: JK Rowling owns everything \"Harry Potter.\"

Slash: SB/JP

Rating: R on ff.net; NC-17 everywhere else.

Archived: SiriusXJames Group; fanfiction.net; adult-fanfiction.org; and anywhere else that wants it (just ask).

A/N: If you haven\'t already done so, please join the SiriusXJames group!

Prologue

Peter walked into the room. \"You okay?\" he asked.

Sirius nodded his head. \"Sure, I\'m just great,\" he replied.

\"Okay. You seemed a little down or something.\"

\"I\'m fine,\" Sirius said firmly.

\"Right. Well, I have to go study, so-\"

\"See you later then,\" Sirius interrupted.

Peter walked out of the room. Minutes later, Remus came in carrying a stack of books.

\"Hey, Padfoot,\" Remus muttered. \"I forgot to get my notes for potions. Are you…\" Remus turned around to look at his friend. \"Merlin, Sirius, are you okay?\"

\"I suppose so,\" Sirius replied quietly. \"I\'m just not feeling too good. Probably ate too much dessert or something.\"

\"Are you sure that\'s all it is?\" Remus asked.

\"Positive,\" Sirius answered. \"Really—it\'s just my stomach. I promise, Moony.\"

\"Do you want me to get anything for you or-\"

\"No, I think I\'ll just go to bed early or something,\" Sirius said.

\"Right. Well, if you change your mind-\"

\"I\'ll tell you. Thanks.\"

Remus raised an eyebrow and looked at Sirius curiously.

\"Moony, come on! I promise I will be fine. I\'ll feel better after I sleep.\"

\"Okay, okay,\" Remus muttered as he grabbed his notes and put them on top of the pile of books. \"I\'ll be back later tonight.\"

Sirius said nothing and watched as Remus left the room.

Soon after, James came in and softly closed the door behind him. He walked over to Sirius and sat knelt down on the floor in front of his best friend.

\"What\'s wrong, Siri? What happened?\" James asked quietly.

\"Why does everyone keep asking me that?\" Sirius groaned. \"Nothing is wrong! I\'m just not feeling well—that\'s all.\"

\"Right. And I hate quidditch,\" James replied. \"Now Sirius, tell me why you\'re upset.\"

\"James, I already told you. I do not feel-\"

\"Merlin, Sirius, I will find a way rag rag it out of you, so why don\'t you just make it easy on both of us and tell me why you are upset?\" James asked calmly.

\"James, there is nothing-\"

\"That\'s a lie, and we both know it. I\'m your best friend—I know you better than anyone, and I know that something is bothering you. So what is it? I\'m not leaving you alone until you tell me, Siri.\"

Sirius studied his friend for a moment. James had taken off his quidditch robes and was now wearing an old pair of jeans with a tight, black shirt. He wasn\'t wearing any shoes, and his hair was its usual unruly self.

\"James, I can’t tell you about this,\" Sirius finally replied.

\"Ah-ha!\" James exclaimed as he got up and then sat down on the bed next to Sirius. \"So you admit it! Something is bothering you.\"

Sirius glared at James. \"Merlin, James, would you just fucking l me me alone?\"

James raised an eyebrow and blatantly stared at Sirius. The taller man\'s long hair was pulled back, yet some tresses were escaping out the hair-band. He was also wearing an old pair of jeans, but hhirthirt was a deep purple and in black letters said \'The Who.\'

\"Sirius, I\'m worried about you, damn it! I\'m your best friend, and I really do care about you. I hate to see you upset and all down like this. You\'re usually so full of life despite everything you\'ve been through.\"

\"Whatever, James,\" Sirius said stubbornly. 'm n'm not telling you about this!\"

\"And why the hell not?\" James asked. \"Why keep it all inside?\"

\"Because this is something that I can\'t tell you…or anyone! But especially you!\"

\"Siri, you can tell me anything. You know that,\" James replied.

Sirius sighed and got up from the bed. He walked over to a small table that sat in front of the closet and tapped his wand ast tst the table four times. All of a sudden, a muggle radio appeared. Sirius murmured a spell and the radio began to play classical music.

\"Shit,\" Sirius mumbled while James chuckled slightly. Sirius said the spell again, and the radio started playing \'Stairway to Heaven.\' Sirius turned up the volume and then returned to his bed and sat down again.

\"Just because you\'re blasting muggle rock and roll does not mean that this conversation is finished!\" James yelled over the music.

\"James, I fucking do NOT want to talk about it! Can\'t you get that through your head?\" Sirius roared. \"Just fucking leave me alone!\"

James stood up and stared at Sirius with angry eyes. \"Damn it, Sirius Black, you are fucking going to tell me what in the hell is wrong with you! I don\'t care if I have to stand here all fucking night waiting to find out!\"

Sirius\' eyes widened slightly at James\' language, but he made no comment about it. \"Aren\'t you supposed to be going on a date with Lily?\"

James rolled his eyes, \"LI giI give a damn about her.\"

Sirius looked shocked and almost hopeful. \"What do you mean exactly?\"

James returned to his position next to Sirius. \"I don\'t care about her! Not like that, anyway. Being the head-boy and a quidditch player, I\'m expected to date, aren\'t I? But, I honestly don\'t like thatthat much. I would much rather spend my time in here listening to you yelling at med Rod Robert Plant screaming in the background.\"

\"Whatever,\" Sirius mumbled. \"If you had the chance to shag her senseless, you would much rather be with her than me.\"

\"Given the choice between shagging her senseless and having you yell a string of obscenities at me, I can promise you, I will always pick you, Sirius.\"

\"James, stop joking around. Just go on your damn date and be done with it.\"

James raised an eyebrow. \"Perhaps, I am not making myself clear, Sirius. Let me put it to you this way: given the choice between shagging her senseless and shagging you senseless, I would ALWAYS choose YOU.\"


TBC

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