Gah! I check for updates to the story way too often, and when I see one I pounce like a cat on a mouse! Then, it's over, and I'm left alone again, and back to obsessively checking for the next chapter ;)
DS,
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Severus. In such a sorrowful place. She took away his very fragile hope for any lasting happiness, that all his service and pain justifies some peace of conscience. She judged him impulsively and harshly, judgement based on his mistakes only... so wrong. He's protected himself for so long, that he didn't show much of himself to her over those months together. It is his fault, that she doesn't know him. Now, if he wants any chance with her at all, he will have to try to show her all of him. Logically it should work with no problem, I believe the scales of justice are tipped to his favour, but when emotions are involved, the outcome is unknown. My heart goes out to him. I hope he won't try en easy exit -into nothingness...
Hermione. Poor thing. So much lies on such young shoulders. And so she admitted to herself, that she said a despicable thing (you deserve to be alone), if such a good person couldn't hold back her response to manipulation and betrayal... How can she judge him, then? His response was darker, because he had knowledge of the darkness... She must forgive him. It's always the only way to peace. And then go back to him.
OMFG she's going to contact Draco... if she goes ahead with the sacrifice Severus' guilt will push him to do unspeakable.
DS have mercy!
Thank you for the update and for meeting my need for this story. Now is the time to take care of my emotional state, I'm sure, you realise how heartbroken and anxious I am at the moment. Please update soon. My faith in you remains unchanged.
Love Fox xx
P.S.
I started In Their Hands, gods that thing is heavy! I do enjoy it though. So different too. Snape in a woman's clothes was hilarious, but this Snape is so powerful, frightfully intelligent and knowledgeable and experienced. I have no idea, how this Hermione is going to manage... I mean who is the patient in that story...
P.P.S.
I wish I was in your sunny down under, the skies in London are particularly gloomy today ;-)
Fox
You're killing me :'(
and feeling like she wasn’t the one he wanted. - would she rather be the one for which enchantment is created for?
whoa now that’s harsh! - maybe, but I was in a bad place that day XD. After 2 days of pure hell I could understand HIM absolutely (when you rewrite presentation for 10th time you start thinking voodoo dolls, and after 50th - you are for some blood drawn in most painful way).
Always feel welcome to rant - I hope I won't have reason for that (read: ppl from work will just fcking made up their minds)
They had been all he had—for so much of his life. They were his source of inspiration, they'd challenged him, he’d engaged them in, admittedly one-sided, conversations, questioned them, debated with them, and often dreamed about them. - I can so see myself in this, it is scary
It was impossible to wipe the slate clean when its bitter remnants were embedded within him, tattooed upon him and even carried in the hearts and minds of those few that mattered to him. - beautifully said, and I'm crying again (don't worry yourself - still bit hormonal)
Lunging at the shelves, he tore them down—book after book plummeted to the ground. He frantically clawed at them, raw shrieks of agony bursting from him as he plunged into the rows, sweeping armfuls across the room, hurling them against walls and furniture until there was nothing left to destroy. -oh my.... :''''''(. I understand him, ben on that spot couple of times myself, and I'm hurting for him already, cos later on - regret is...even bigger :'(
And then he collapsed, holding his bleeding hands across his chest. It was the worst pain of all and no amount of healing was going to touch it. - :'( :'( :'(
After this part I can finally understand why my reactions to her actions are harsher than it would/should be - in all your previous stories Sev had equal sight to someone else from my past. In this, he's more like me in so many ways.
And she better have some really good idea how to atone for her outburst, so much better than plain "I'm sorry".
Way to go Parvati :)
He’d betrayed her - ok, I know it's her pov but...people did not betray you if they didn't manage live up to your image of them, it is kind of a selfish way of thinking that your "truth" is the only one correct :(
But the enchantment had so tainted everything between them that it could never be her. - I don't know where you are going with her but - she still sounds to me like her biggest problem is that he actually loved someone so much, and that someone wasn't her.
The thought of him with another woman tore another ragged hole in her heart. He was hers. - does she know what she wants? She's like a dog with a bone - she doesn't want it anymore but she won't share it because it's hers... :/
She wasn’t a martyr but she was a proud Gryffindor. - ok in my book this is an oxymoron :D
She knew exactly the person to make it happen. - my dear are you trying to destroy her title of "smartest witch of her age"? Because her idea isn't smart, isn't even noble, it's just plain - stupid. And she will put Draco (not that I care too much) in danger as well. Please, allow Parvati to be smart enough, cos, the one that should be smart just said "goodbye" to her brain (don't get me wrong, I'm not changing the tune, I'm just thinking of him ;) ).
Now you have me on the edge of my chair again, you truly are the master of cliffhangers - so hurry up, pls ;)
P.S.: Is that insane creature of mine still with you? I kinda need her one of these days for the next chapter ;)
Holy fuck yesssssss! Such a good chapter. I'm loving this story so much. The scene with Snape was magnificent, and I loved Hermione's inner turmoil. I take it she's going to get Draco to sacrifice her. Oh God, that's so fucked up. (And now that I think about it, this whole story has just been waves of "fucked up" smacking us all in the face at regular intervals.)
So many good words in this chapter too. My word notebook runnith over.
Embedded
Fraudulent
Contrivance
Noxious
contemptible
Deplorable
And you used embedded with both characters, mirroring their attachment to one another. I love that (whether you did it on purpose or not--but I assume you did.)
Favs
Perverti--*Snort-choke* I also loved Vati's defense of Hermione.
that moment when the fragile threads of hope would emerge from the depths of his black eyes--Unnnnnh! Love this.
Desert, you are seriously one of my favorites. Here are some flowery declarations of love. You always leave a good amount of thorns on the roses that are your stories. It makes them so much jucier than a smooth transition from gitty snark to mooshy lemons. You write the inner machinations that lead to Severus' and Hermione's rash decisions so well. I've not found another author who gives this pair Great Big Freak Flags to fly, while simultaneously endearing them to the reader with their sweetness/loyalty/insecurity/angst/flaws etc. You've a twisty, awful-lovely mind, Desert. And specifically to thisee story/chapter - I have never had much of an opinion about Parvati, but I love her like this! Hermione needs someone on her side besides the go-to friends of Harry and Ron. I can't wait for the next chapter. I'm guessing Hermione's off to visit Lucius???
DS,
I don't want to seem too obsessed... well... actually I don't care. I really, really need another chapter. I tried to be patient, but my hands are shaking and I'm starting to sweat, if I don't get another hit soon I'll just scream... Fox xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
DS!
What have you done!
It is so bloody sad. I feel sorry for the both of them.
I fully understand where she's coming from. As a person so full of compassion, willing to sacrifice herself for others, working hard to see those around her protected, safe and happy... I'm sure she can't understand how someone can even think such a thought. Accepting, that someone is different is not the same as understanding. I am similar to this Hermione, but I have more control over my responses... I had a situation with my friend, who's reaction to an argument with someone else shocked me so much, I was numb for days. It seriously made me question our friendship, my safety and her mental state. I really understand Hermione fully and on a top of that she gave away ber body, heart and soul to him, it makes it so much worse. I can tell she feels cheated and used.
On the other hand, my heart just shattered seeing his tears. He was an angry young man, with his life being so miserable and difficult, then having someone betray him... I don't like Lily, I never did. I know, you can't order your heart around, but the way she "dumped" Severus and turned her back on him is telling. I believe she used him, knowing very well how he felt about her. Out of all the psychological debates on nature and nurture... I think it's a combination of both to a different degree with different people and with a different result. He had a horrible upbringing and cultivated his hurt and anger for too long, that, iced with his fascination in darkness and there we have it... a monster. But even a fractured soul can reach the light and he has changed and he is trying to pay for his mistakes with tears, blood and pain. He doesn't deserve to be alone.
I hope Hermione can find it in her heart to forgive him soon, otherwise it will crush her soul too, not mentioning the heart.
I have to congratulate you on your writing. Sometimes there are fireworks and explosions, fits of giggles and tears of mirth, today my heart caved in, but I have a faith in you. I know you can fix it, so please do. I am on my bed, writing this review, outside snow is falling, the view is so serene it soothes my aching heart. You know what to do ;)
Ohh and when I asked why Hermione didn't suffer the punishment with Severus, I meant the first time when she "collapsed" and he suffered alone. So why she suffered together with Lucius and didn't with Severus back then?
Thank you for the chapter.
Fox xx
Wow, just wow.
First off, thank you for your incredibly quick updates. I have no idea how you have a life and are able to update so consistently. But how can you do this to us! The cliff hangers and emotions. I love/hate it :) I check at least twice a day for your updates, I'm not a very patient person lol.
Whoa...stop the bus and hold the phone. Are we experiencing a tumbleweed moment here? I know I've read this chapter twice and the second time was from behind the sofa a la Dr Who or Sheerluck! What a sick little puppy these Northern lads can be!!!! Hmmmmm...hard to forgive, though not impossible given his crappy upbringing/life etc. But to want to impose this punishment on St Lily? And really how careless was he in "losing" his book. Unless of course it was DD who found it. See I've still got it in for him. OK...I trust you........ to a point. Heehee....still loving it and in for the very bumpy ride. Best wishes, Love Ali xxxxx.......from white and snowy Lancashire.
Re: Chapter 27.
Oh, you bastard. You magnificent bastard.^_^