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Dear god this is an unnerving story. I commend you, it\'s great. I think I may have to stop reading it for the time being however. It is too heart wrenching, and powerful to read over a prolonged period of time. Congrats ;)

Wow, unbelievable! As if I wasn\'t hooked enough as is, you keep dragging me into this plot. You both are amazing writers in your own rights and combined, you two kick ass. ^_^

Wicked! Snape finally grows up. Hopefully Hermione\'ll start too now with some actual pscych help. Which she really, really, really needs. In some ways I want to smack her for being so....well. She\'s still emotionaly where she was when her father first attacked her I guess. You\'re weaving a wonderful story here, depsite it\'s lack of cannoness in characters...I can understand why Hermione is, but Snape in this chapter....was a long time coming.

Realizing and verbalizing that Snape cannot fix Hermione had to be the most difficult thing he has ever done. Yet, it had to be done to break the co-dependency. I love the intensity of this story--the raw emotions, the vulnerability, the unpredictability. And Snape\'s line to Hermione \'you have changed every single day we have been together...\' sums up what he is risking, that she may not come back to him. And that must be frightening.

Another excellent chapter.

Innogen

i am personaly gonna whack Severus unconsicious with a cricket bat if he doesn\'t take back what he said.

no no no i need more update quicky, it isso good update quickly!

Oh! I loved the last chapter (as every one). I\'m looking forward to read more. I think it\'s fantastic how the characters are developing. Hugs,
Angua

Oh, what a cliffhanger! I\'m terribly addicted now and it\'s all your fault. I\'m anxious to read what happens with Hermione enxt chapter. Great job on this.

When I was as young as Hermione, my environment was far from stable. Overwhelming anxiety in trying to keep everything around me together, and never being able to take care of myself, put me in the position of being dependent at age 17. It\'s such a strange thing; when I moved into my twenties things only got worse, not better as I had always assumed. My \'boyfriend\' was often uncommunicative, as well as about 9 years older, plus he was my Foster Brother when the relationship first started: it was not one I was eager to share with the world. I did not figure out why that was until I moved into my thirties, and learned about dependency, coercion (real or imagined), or just people who take advantage when you are vulnerable. This does not reflect on Snape and Hermione. It\'s just, I\'m trying to explain that the intensity at which Hermione \'drives\' herself, Snape, everything around her; the way in which she \'takes care of\' Snape, focussing more on him than herself; and the fact that she recognizes her dependency and loathes it, yet unwilling to give it up; all these emotions and thoughts, and this intensity...and that building feeling of unease that you can\'t quite identify, but ultimately explodes in an act of some kind of self destruction--the fact that simple misspoken word or missinterpretation can create the downward spiral into helplessness and self-hate for *needing* something, even if it just to be needed; is something I relate to all too well. I guess this chapter strikes close to heart.

Very good job with this chapter: I find that the way Hermione views the world; in terms of science, sex, and death; very integrated. I understand her, yet I am glad I was never *her*; our issues are different...except for trying to control that feeling of *anger* when you don\'t want to be angry, and you don\'t know where to direct it or even why it exists--and during these times I find I just need to be alone to stop myself from holding useless arguments with my roommate (male) or significant other (ex-boyfriend), because the more I would try to pry communication or understanding from such people, the worse the situation gets...to the point where I\'ve been in the hospital once or twice, where they do the quick patch with the anti-anxiety pill and check that you really are in therapy and such. The medical system is twisted.

I love the language; intense, lyrical, harsh; that you write with, peeling all the layers of Hermione\'s character away to her inner and exposed core, showing her bleed when she hasn\'t physically hurt herself, showing her sadness in believing that she is just a pawn with no control over her own life. And that thought, that things are never going to get better so why bother, is one that causes those of depression even to see more thoughts of self destruction--when you are at the point when you imagine taking something sharp and slashing your arms, and don\'t really want to even *imagine* such things, everything becomes more scary and the anxiety and feeling of no control increases.

Snape is Hermione\'s comfort food. She can\'t tolerate the thought she might lose him and so she trys to destroy herself before finding out if he survives.... This way she avoides ultimate rejection--Lily was more whole where she is lacking. She believes, despite what Snape told her, that she can never compete with a memory of \'what should have been\'.

I hope things ultimately turn out well in this story, for both our main characters.

Congratulations on the excellent writing and character development! The character development is some of the deepest and unshallow that I\'ve ever read. I guess I love that intensity--something I\'ve been told is simply who I can\'t help but be. Intense. I guess it wears everyone else around me out, so now I spend more time to myself.

I apologize for personal background intruding on this review.

Innogen

When I was as young as Hermione, my environment was far from stable. Overwhelming anxiety in trying to keep everything around me together, and never being able to take care of myself, put me in the position of being dependent at age 17. It\'s such a strange thing; when I moved into my twenties things only got worse, not better as I had always assumed. My \'boyfriend\' was often uncommunicative, as well as about 9 years older, plus he was my Foster Brother when the relationship first started: it was not one I was eager to share with the world. I did not figure out why that was until I moved into my thirties, and learned about dependency, coercion (real or imagined), or just people who take advantage when you are vulnerable. This does not reflect on Snape and Hermione. It\'s just, I\'m trying to explain that the intensity at which Hermione \'drives\' herself, Snape, everything around her; the way in which she \'takes care of\' Snape, focussing more on him than herself; and the fact that she recognizes her dependency and loathes it, yet unwilling to give it up; all these emotions and thoughts, and this intensity...and that building feeling of unease that you can\'t quite identify, but ultimately explodes in an act of some kind of self destruction--the fact that simple misspoken word or missinterpretation can create the downward spiral into helplessness and self-hate for *needing* something, even if it just to be needed; is something I relate to all too well. I guess this chapter strikes close to heart.

Very good job with this chapter: I find that the way Hermione views the world; in terms of science, sex, and death; very integrated. I understand her, yet I am glad I was never *her*; our issues are different...except for trying to control that feeling of *anger* when you don\'t want to be angry, and you don\'t know where to direct it or even why it exists--and during these times I find I just need to be alone to stop myself from holding useless arguments with my roommate (male) or significant other (ex-boyfriend), because the more I would try to pry communication or understanding from such people, the worse the situation gets...to the point where I\'ve been in the hospital once or twice, where they do the quick patch with the anti-anxiety pill and check that you really are in therapy and such. The medical system is twisted.

I love the language; intense, lyrical, harsh; that you write with, peeling all the layers of Hermione\'s character away to her inner and exposed core, showing her bleed when she hasn\'t physically hurt herself, showing her sadness in believing that she is just a pawn with no control over her own life. And that thought, that things are never going to get better so why bother, is one that causes those of depression even to see more thoughts of self destruction--when you are at the point when you imagine taking something sharp and slashing your arms, and don\'t really want to even *imagine* such things, everything becomes more scary and the anxiety and feeling of no control increases.

Snape is Hermione\'s comfort food. She can\'t tolerate the thought she might lose him and so she trys to destroy herself before finding out if he survives.... This way she avoides ultimate rejection--Lily was more whole where she is lacking. She believes, despite what Snape told her, that she can never compete with a memory of \'what should have been\'.

I hope things ultimately turn out well in this story, for both our main characters.

Congratulations on the excellent writing and character development! The character development is some of the deepest and unshallow that I\'ve ever read. I guess I love that intensity--something I\'ve been told is simply who I can\'t help but be. Intense. I guess it wears everyone else around me out, so now I spend more time to myself.

I apologize for personal background intruding on this review.

Innogen